I'M BETWEEN YOU AND HIM

GOOD NEWS OR BAD NEWS?

Vika rubbed my face. Makes me aghast. I slept next to Vika. I saw my watch. At 03.25. It's afternoon. Looks like we fell asleep long enough to return from Polsek Tamansari.

"Mas! I have something to say!" vika said stammered. I woke up from my sleep and sat waiting for Vika who took something from her dresser.

He gave me something. White envelope.

"What's this?"

"Open up!"

"Testpack??"

I felt like an electric shock. A testpack? Tests for pregnancy. Two blue lines?...

....

I'm choked. Either happy or sad. Good news or bad news? All of this makes me speechless.

"Are you..pregnant, Vika?"

Vika just looked down. Tears trickled.

Complete is my savagery. Take people's wives away. Fascinate him. And now the wife of the man is pregnant because of my actions.O Lord! It turns out this is the kind of person I am!

I swallowed spit. Closing my eyes to ask God for help. What am I supposed to do? One problem is still not solved. Now there are new problems coming up.

"I just realized that it's been 3 months!"

"Don't we always use security?" many doubt.

"It seems like this happened at the beginning of our relationship. At that time you were noisy with Ranti and then went to drink. That was the beginning of our relationship, mas!" I'm down.

Hhhh..... Aisshi! I don't dare scream vent my emotions. I'm a grown man almost 40 years old. I need to be able to control myself.

"We went to the gynecologist?" ask me to make Vika smile and nod.

"Then what should we do, ma'am?" he suddenly hesitated.

"I'm confused too, Vika! Your status, still the wife of the person as well. Then, should we marry siri to cover up the status of our child that happens out of wedlock? I'm confused too!"

"Should I remove my womb, mas?"

"No, Vika! I don't want to bear the burden of being a bastard parent who killed his son even before my son was born into the world."

"Then what should we do, ma'am?"

"Please, give me some Vika time! We solve all problems one by one. We do, we must also dare to take responsibility!" Vika hugged me tightly. Cry broke. He said many words of thanks, for being his faithful companion.

I'm actually confused by all these conditions. It made me hard to breathe and almost numb. But rather than being busy defending myself or running away, I also had a hand in all the sins and wrongs I committed.

"Vika! Are you gonna stand by me no matter what?" ask me with a loud voice.

"Whatever happens, I will always be with you! In joy or sorrow. Even in sorrow and suffering. As long as you stay like this, love me sincerely. I'm willing to mas!"

I'm holding Vika's body. We cry together. Regretting all our actions, but also grateful for this love. Everything is hard to understand. Even explained with common sense, many people certainly cannot understand. That we, two adults are entangled in a secret love. Forbidden relationships to fruitful karma that we have to endure in the end.

Hard to explain. Vika and I are both guilty. Equally wrong step. But what we can do, we have to take responsibility for what we have done.

At 5pm we went to the doctor. Check out Vika and our baby-to-be. As Vika said, her fetus was 13 weeks old. That means less than 3 months. In good condition lives the life of Vika.

After that we took the initiative to go to the firm office to find a lawyer. I'm afraid Arif's threats aren't playing games. Vika's affairs with that person must be completely resolved. For that, the people who know better what steps Vika must take before Arif acts quickly.

We decided to hire a couple of lawyers for Vika to take care of the matter. It turns out that the legal affairs are quite surprising to us. It was a lot of pocket that Vika had to sacrifice to take care of the problem. Everything has not been clearly resolved. The process is still long until the hammer of the divorce trial officially reads. Hhh... Fortunately, the agreement is due with the artist who bought Vika's house for 2 months.

Ranti called me a few times. He said Cecil told him I had permission to go home because there was a call from the police. Ranti sounded so anxious.

I just asked Ranti to wait for me at home until I explained the matter. Ranti just told me to carefully answer the police for misrepresenting us who were arrested, he said.

I'm sad. I've been good at lying to Ranti. Everything has changed. Everything is no longer the same as it used to be. Now is not the time to blame each other. Because the rice has become porridge.

"Mas! Sleep here tonight!" pinta Vika makes me shake.

"Although I am pregnant with your child right now, am I?"

"Vika, please don't push me for something you've known a long time ago. I have to explain to Ranti first. Understand!"

"I understand, mom! Very understand, though my heart aches,.my tears spilled all,.I am only your mistress!"

"Vika! How many times have I told you, you and Ranti are two special women who are equally valuable to me. Don't make me choose any of you! Today I am very tired, I do not want to also make your heart hurt more with my harsh words. So, please.stop asking me to choose between you!" Vika down. The water falls again.

"There's Iksan, Manto and Ciko. They'll be on standby 24 hours guarding you. I'm home, huh?" I kissed Vika's forehead. Suddenly Vika*******my lips. Makes me flutter and get aroused by the touch of his passion. But I quickly grabbed Vika's body.

"Sorry, I have to go home tonight! Sorry honey, you know how I am. We'll have lunch tomorrow, okay?"

"Are you willing to stay with me as our baby-to-be?"

"Vika, please.... I can't choose! Don't make our baby a threat to me! Our problems are waiting to be solved. Don't sulk me like that. Please, this time, be the woman I can be proud of. I've been trying to talk smooth!"

Vika pouted looking at me. But he led me back to the door. Actually I know, her hormones make her a sensitive woman who wants to be pampered. But what a power, I have a wife and kids waiting for me at home.

Ranti was sitting on the living room couch. He turned his head and burst into my arms when he found out I was the one who entered the house. He broke tears.

"I'm afraid, if suddenly you're under arrest!"

"Police can't just catch people, baby! There must be enough evidence from someone's reporting, then they can be arrested and thrown in jail."

"Mas Dika! Don't say that!" she was hard, hugging me. I laughed happily. Ranti was so worried about me.

"To which?"

"Today the orange is so fussy! Maybe also fret because he was worried about his papa for nothing!"

"You should be able to hold back your emotions, which is! Kasian Orange, he is still so strong his bathin contact because he is still breastfeeding. But by the way, why is Orange not yet weaned? Let him drink formula milk. Is he 2 years old?"

"He said that if weaned, he even had another sister. I don't want a KB but I'm not ready to have another baby, mom!"

"Hahahaha, who said it?"

"Say people are so koq! Uh, mas...koq even discussed the orange sweep!? I want to hear why you're called a cop, mas?"

"Hhhh.... That's because of her husband Vika!"

"The ex-husband? Found them? continues on?"

"Yes, they found. Storm on the road, finally caught by the police Tamansari."

"Then mas?"

"He accused Vika of running away with another man while he was in trouble and broke. While Vika tells me that I only helped her from her husband's torment. The police called asking me to come and give a statement. Yeah.like that, hhhh....! That guy's sneaky, slippery like a snake. It's dangerous!"

"Keep the police believe you are being released?"

"That's another business, baby! If that Arif insists on imprisoning me, he will look for evidence to come and find my fault. While Vika is ready to take care of her divorce with the man. He's hired a lawyer."

"Good! I hope you're not getting carried away too deeply in their care."

"I've been too deeply carried away in their affairs, which is! Do you know what the police said? I could've been charged with taking someone's wife and damaging someone else's household. And the sentence can be up to 3-4 years."

Ranti screamed again, closing her mouth.

"Naudzubillahi!"

I hugged Ranti. Brushing his long hair. Trying to calm him even though actually this heart is also uneasy not calm.

There's been a lot of trouble lately. I realize that this problem starts with myself. From my indecision in attitude. From my thoughts in making my life decisions. Of all the sins that are inflicted.

Hhh....

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