I Borrowed Him
Reason
Wednesday morning cloudy with specks of rain falling, in a residential cluster looks deserted from the activities of its citizens. One of the houses with a typical Japanese cultural accent, seen Mercedes Benz C200 parked. With the main door of the house still open, Jester is seen walking in the main hallway of the house to the dining room followed by Naomi. In the dining room, like there will be a meeting that Jester never expected. Meeting his first love who had also inflicted such a deep wound on his heart, there Jester was petrified looking at Luna.
"Sir" said Luna who was sitting on one of the dining table chairs. The voice that even Jester wanted to avoid to hear again but this time was so clear Jester heard and even the figure of the owner of the voice was in front of him.
Jester only fell silent with a face that showed sadness and lowered his gaze because the memories of Luna seemed to be twisted back in his mind, hesitantly Jester stepped into one of the dining chairs directly opposite Selena and sat there. At that time Naomi who followed Jester behind him sat next to Jester opposite Luna, they were silent for a while.
"Sorry, I'm confused where to start. I'm the one who visited but I had trouble speaking" said Luna breaking the silence, but Jester did not react at all and remained silent. The four of them were in an awkward condition, not a single one was able to melt the atmosphere.
"You... Just tell me your reason, I will accept whatever you say and you immediately go far away from my life" Jester chanted in a voice that sounded sad and slightly trembling.
"Don't be hard like that to him, listen to the reason first and accept he is by your side la.." Selena's unfinished sentence that ignites Jester's emotions, Jester also cut.
"Thank you he by my side? there's no place for her anymore, I already have Naomi by my side!!" snapping Jester with a spelt of hands, Naomi stroked Jester's back to ease her emotions.
"I won't let you by her side either" Naomi said firmly, hearing the words Luna smiled.
"Not that, you guys are wrong to catch Selena's words" Luna said calmly, slowly Luna patted Selena's shoulder and made Selena turn to look at Luna with a look that looked sad.
"Selena, this is my job. I know you want to help, but the more people who interfere, the more chaos there will be. Leave it to me up here, okay?" pinta Luna softly, hearing Luna's request at that time only made Selena throw her face without saying anything. Luna looked back at Jester and Naomi with a smile
"I only have one more month before I will go far away and will never be able to see you again" Luna said with a sigh
"Good, go now and don't come back" said Jester, making Selena crashing at the table look so emotional. The atmosphere of the cloudy morning became dark, the emotions of each of them were mixed into one. Moreover, Jester who carries his heart wound must be faced with things that make it difficult to think clearly, his attitude also makes Naomi, Luna and Selena quite unsettled.
"Sister! you.." hadn't finished selena's sentence, Luna immediately patted Selena's back and told her to shut up
"Unfortunately my departure schedule has been determined, sis, so sorry I can't leave immediately" Luna said with a slight laugh
"Where are you going?" asked Naomi curiously, Luna smiled looking at Naomi.
"I'm going to go abroad and settle there" Luna replied, hearing the answer made Naomi laugh a little.
"You can still go back, any flight goes smoothly without a hitch" Naomi said slightly mocking Luna's reasoning, but Luna responded to Naomi with a laugh.
"Naomi, I come from a family that is not rich. The plane ticket was expensive for me and again when we moved then the consequences I lost citizenship, every return I needed a passport and visa" Luna said kindly and calmly made Naomi speechless, for a moment Luna turned her eyes back to look at Jester who was still pensive.
"The hurt was so deep, I realized how evil I was at that moment to you. I regret it so much and now I just want to heal that wound" Luna regrettably said
"For what? no need, I'm fine when you never show up" Jester refused sternly, Luna sighing at Jester's words.
"It's not just about you, brother, but for me as well. The regret of my whole life is my evil deeds to you, if you do not forgive me then I will carry this regret for the rest of my life" explained Luna, at that time Naomi seemed to get a bright spot why Luna rejected Jester.
"You used to turn Jester down because you knew you'd move out of the country?" asked Naomi trying to strengthen her analysis, Luna smiled looking at Naomi.
"Yes, imagine that time I received it. I know I can not accompany him for a long time, how can I accept the fact we will be separated by circumstances" Luna replied sounding sad, Jester was about to leave the place, but Naomi's hand restrained.
"It doesn't make sense, if it's like that you can still be in this country with me" Jester said
"Jester.. This is related to Luna's parents, whatever happens to break up with parents can not be considered trivial as you say. The consideration of Luna is also heavy" said Naomi trying to hold Jester there by giving understanding.
"I can buy him a round-trip ticket any way he wants! there is no reason for such a ridiculous thing!!" snapped Jester denied Naomi's words
"You know I won't let the heart trouble you like that, sis.." Luna said, Jester's emotions overflowed.
"Then you got your heart to insult me like that?!!" jester's clasping at that moment made Naomi's hand grip tighter with fear, Naomi stood up and hugged Jester to calm her down.
"She didn't say it like Jess. Calm yourself down and listen to the reason, your goal here is for you to be at peace with your heart" Naomi said gently trying to calm Jester down, naomi slowly let go of her embrace and directed Jester to sit back down.
"When I rejected you on that stage, Selena warned me that I should explain why to you immediately. But I was too young back then, I couldn't think clearly and normally when I was faced with choosing you or my parents, I choose to insult you like that and hope you will hate me for the rest of your life so that you can forget me" explained Luna sounding sorry, Jester also laughed at Luna's explanation.
"You've got what you've been hoping for" said Jester, Luna smiling at the insinuation.
"You're right, brother, I deeply feel your hatred for me. At that time I was faced with two heavy choices, the first choice I chose at that time or the second choice Selena gave me but I did not choose it" calmly Luna tried to explain everything.
"What's that second choice?" ask Naomi curiously
"Selena said, if my time is determined to part with him.Why do I not give good memories with him, memories that we will not regret because we have known each other, and happy until the last second" Luna replied, slowly Naomi looked at Selena and the two looked at each other without a word.
"What do you think my heart is?!! do you think this heart can be used to come and go as you please?!!" jester was so angry
"Not so big brother, you don't think I consider your heart.." Luna's speech was again cut by Jester with a table shake.
"GO YOU!!" jester's snapping sounded very emotional, his anger getting more and more out of control at that moment. Naomi stood up and hugged Jester's head to calm him down.
"Jess..set your anger, I know you are very disappointed. The Jester I know isn't like this, he's not gonna yell at women like this. Set your breath like you taught me" full of Naomi's tenderness, saying it, not even Jester's tears were dripping so hard.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you. I just want you to go and let me live in peace with my heart even though this wound is still there" Jester said.
"You can leave us? we'll talk about this again later" Naomi pushed away but in a soft voice
"Luna had no.." Selena's passionate speech - the dusty moment it was cut by Luna.
"We understand, good morning, brother Jester... Naomi.." with a smile Luna said, Luna pulled Selena's hand and immediately left the house. Remaining Jester who was silent and crying was in the arms of Naomi who was seen stroking her hair, in Naomi's mind did not expect Jester who had looked strong outside turned out to be very fragile inside.
"Jester.." said Naomi breaking the silence, but Jester cut.
"I don't want to hurt anyone so that others don't hurt me, which is why I don't carelessly date someone and give my heart to the one person I think is right for me" muttering Jester in a hoarse-sounding voice, Naomi nodded her head several times responding to Jester's murmur.
"I know and I understand" Naomi said in her soft voice
"I have always adhered to my principle of staying true to my heart's choices even though I was often considered a freak by my friends, but I never cared and continued to live by that principle" muttering Jester again, hearing the mutter made Naomi hugged Jester's head even tighter.
"Jess listen to me. There is nothing wrong with your principles, your principles make you a good man in our eyes women. We've listened to Luna's reasoning, haven't we? she has a heavy choice between maintaining her love or going with her parents, you can't blame her for her choice at that time" Naomi explained in a soft voice trying to give understanding to Jester, but Jester seemed to reject Naomi's explanation by shaking her head several times in Naomi's embrace.
"That's no excuse, she's just looking for justification for her evil attitude towards me" Jester said, Naomi sighed.
"You were so young back then, first grade High School wasn't the right time to be separated from your parents. You've heard the reason and don't be selfish" Naomi said
"Then what should I do now?" tanya Jester sounded calmer, slowly Naomi let go of her embrace and sat back next to Jester.
"He's got one more month before he leaves, why not try to be with him? maybe then you and your heart will be at peace" replied Naomi, the answer made Jester look at Naomi in surprise.
"I've got.." Jester hasn't finished saying it, Naomi cut.
"You have me and I have you. Nothing can change that, but right now your heart is struggling. If indeed it can heal your wounds, I don't mind" Naomi said with a smile, Jester again threw away his face.
"Why are you.." Jester didn't finish, and Naomi cut back as if she knew what Jester was going to say.
"I trust you, something like this can never make you leave me. I bet on the possibility that you will leave me, but if I win this bet then I will see your heart smiling happily because the wound has healed" Naomi said, naomi's speech made Jester stunned to look at her face.
"In my life right now the most important thing is to keep your heart in order - fine, if there is a medicine that can cure it even if I have to sacrifice.... I'll take it for granted" said Naomi, sounding calm and smiling, staring at the stunned Jester
"But why?" jester asked, astonished
"Because I love you" Naomi replied sincerely and in a soft-sounding voice, Jester blushed in embarrassment and made her throw her face back.
"Ba.... What if I... suddenly turned my heart?" jester asked, his face flushed red as he asked as if trying to find out if Naomi had any jealousy towards him. Suddenly Naomi pinched Jester's stomach many times
"Aaw aw!! Naomi!!" jester groaned in pain as he turned his gaze to look at Naomi who looked jutek, Naomi stopped pinching Jester's stomach but her crashing face was still he showed in front of Jester.
"I'll pinch your stomach a hundred times what you're getting now!" naomi snapped at that moment, when Jester stood up and hugged Naomi so tightly. The hug surprised Naomi, slowly Naomi returned Jester's embrace.
After a hard day due to the arrival of Luna who made Jester's emotions jumbled, it now began to subside with Naomi's presence at his side. Naomi's gentle demeanor and soothing sentence allowed Jester to stick with her sanity.
"Thank you, all this time no one has been able to understand my heart better than I myself. All this time I thought Luna's absence in my life was the best, but I'm wrong and if I feel it more deeply then your words about my struggling heart - the pain there's a point.." Jester said sounding sad.
"Jester.." chirped Naomi gently
"Papa once said I always couldn't tell which one I needed and which one I wanted, everything was always upside down. I'll try to follow your advice, accompany me to make peace with my heart" Jester asked expectantly, with a nod of Naomi's head accepting Jester's request.
"We have been hurt in the past, you helped me and I will help you too. spirit yes." Naomi said.
