I Borrowed Him
Pandora Box
A clear night in a suburban hospital, in one of the corridors, Daniel is angry - angry with Jester, Naomi, who is, Luke and Harry for not being able to withstand his shame after having a chance to win the stupidity of Jester. But suddenly denied by the attitude that precisely Jester appeared in front of him to Naomi, but the four of them did not care about it and continued to walk towards the hospital parking lot. After the commotion that had occurred with the arrival of Sarah who seemed to mock Daniel, among them there was no conversation anymore. Jester, Luke, and Harry seem to be daydreaming while Naomi seems to be worried about Jester, occasionally warning Jester who is driving about the presence of another car on the road they are traveling.
Forty minutes into the night, the four of them travel in silence, and Luke and Harry return home after a perfectly parked car is lined with Jester and Naomi's house. That night the Three Musketeers didn't look like they used to, they parted without any furore. As Luke and Harry were riding their motorcycles to get home, Jester just lifted up and waved a few times and walked into the house. Seeing Jester's condition makes Luke, Harry and Naomi worried, Luke sighed hard enough before starting a conversation with Naomi.
"Naomi, we still haven't thought of any way to restore her spirit. Can we get him to you?" luke asked in a worried tone, considering how hard they had been trying to get Jester to move on from Luna.
"Sure, I will definitely do my best. Eeemh... Luke, what exactly is Luna?" asked Naomi whose tone sounded sad because she was worried about the state of Jester.
"What's it like? it's just my thoughts or it's true.The way he talks, his attitude and expression when he meets Jester is very similar to Selena" Luke replied sounding doubtful, doubtful, Harry looked back at Luke, who was behind him, as if surprised by Luke's thoughts.
"I also think like that, from the beginning of meeting Selena. I feel she looks like Luna" said Harry, Naomi was confused by Luke's answer and Harry's words at the time.
"You're Selena's upperclassmen, right? do you remember the old Selena?" naomi asked in a confused voice, Luke and Harry looked back at each other and shook their heads almost simultaneously.
"He said so, but I don't remember any underclassmen named Selena" Luke replied, sounding confused
"That became Luna's best friend at that time if it wasn't Parker's name, it was strange that the woman was named like that" Harry said again, Naomi was slightly amazed to hear Harry's words.
"Selena's last name is Parker" Naomi reminds Luke and Harry of Selena's full name, hearing Naomi's words makes Luke and Harry laugh together as if ashamed of their stupidity.
"really? but Selena who was in High School was not the same as we see now" with a little laugh Luke said, Naomi sighed and still smiled
"Yes, High School time does look like a man. With short hair and always oversized clothes, Selena changed since entering the second grade of High School" Naomi's timpal sounded a little laugh
"No, the Selena we know doesn't just change in appearance but..." Harry hung up his sentence and like he was thinking of finding the right word to say, Naomi was silent with a curious face waiting for Harry's sentence to finish.
"He doesn't like men? why does he like Jester?" asked Harry continued his sentence that had been cut, Naomi seemed to realize something when she heard Harry's words.
"Yes, you're right, Selena also said that she hated boys when we were kids" Naomi replied in surprise, the three of them suddenly looked at each other and thought about what was really happening.
"But it doesn't seem important, it has nothing to do with Jester either" Luke's chirps break the silence between them, Luke and Harry say goodbye to Naomi and then immediately gasp to leave Jester and Naomi's house.
Naomi entered the house and locked the main door of the house, slowly Naomi walked to the room and had stopped her steps right in front of the family room whose door was tightly closed. Naomi was silent for a moment while looking at the door algae and wanted to open it, slowly Naomi's hand touched the door algae but Naomi canceled her intention and returned to walk towards the room.
Arriving in the room, Naomi removes her makeup in front of the dresser. When she finished, Naomi stepped into the bed to go to sleep. Rubbing her body and covering her with a blanket, Naomi turned off the room lights and closed her eyes slowly to sleep. Not long after someone knocked on the door, Naomi stared at the door of the room while turning the lights back on.
"Jester?" naomi asked curiously at someone knocking at the door, but there was no answer at all. Naomi got up from the bed and walked up to the door and opened it, in front of the door was seen Jester standing and bowing his head.
"Jester? what's up?" naomi asked worriedly, for a while Jester just fell silent without looking at Naomi at all.
"You want to talk to me?" asked Naomi again because Jester was just silent, suddenly Jester turned his body and walked back to the living room without a word.
"Jester! you why? come here if you want to talk to me" said Naomi again a little run after Jester, hearing Naomi's words when it made Jester stop his footsteps.
"I was afraid that you would leave me.." Jester stammered in a worried voice, hearing Jester's words at that moment made Naomi sigh.
"I'm not leaving you, I was just disappointed. Sorry if my attitude made you think I was going to leave you" Naomi sounded sorry, Jester fell silent for a while.
"Come here, we're talking yuk.. I think you need someone to listen to your complaints" said Naomi again trying to melt the atmosphere, but Jester flinch and continue to be silent in his place. Slowly Naomi walked up to Jester and looked at her face, when Naomi was surprised to see Jester shed her tears and was silent daydreaming.
"Jester?! why you?!!" naomi asked frantically, Naomi swiftly wanted to wipe the dripping tears of Jester but Jester's hand held her back.
"The rose bucket that was in the hospital trash can...it was you who threw it away right?" jester asked flatly, astonished that Naomi was staring at Jester because of her question. Naomi did not expect Jester to notice the bouquet of roses given by Daniel that she threw away while in the hospital.
"Yes.it's Daniel's gift, I don't like.." Naomi replied, suddenly Jester looked at Naomi looking angry.
"Did you throw that flower in front of him?! why would you do that?! do you not appreciate his feelings?! how easily do you think he mustered the courage to give you that flower?!" Jester asked with a little emotion, Naomi was so jolted to hear Jester's question so much.
"Jester!" a slight snarl Naomi said to resuscitate Jester, Jester's eyes blank as she rained down on Naomi so many questions.
"Is that how you do it?! when you think she let you down, it's as if your heart is humiliating her?! are you going to do the same when I let you down?!! you're just gonna walk away if I'm.." Jester hasn't finished asking, Naomi cut
"Jeog!!" Naomi snapped at Jester so loudly, Jester seemed to wake up from her daydream and looked at Naomi with regret.
"I'm so sorry, I said that to you, good night Naomi" Jester was about to walk back to leave Naomi in the main hallway of the house, but Naomi's hand grabbed Jester's arm and stopped her steps.
"Jester! I'm not Luna, stop assuming I'll act like her!!" with a snatch Naomi said it
"Come here, let's talk about this well" with Naomi's breath saying, Naomi pulled Jester into the room by force.
In Naomi's room directing Jester to sit in the dresser seat, Naomi turned on all the room lights to make it look bright to build a pleasant atmosphere. Then Naomi sat on the edge of the mattress close to Jester, took a deep breath - deep and then exhaled slowly... Naomi is ready to start talks with Jester who still looks moody.
"Alright Jester.. Speak, I will listen to all your complaints" Naomi chanted in a soft-sounding voice, Jester glanced at Naomi.
"No complaints whatsoever" said Jester flatly, Naomi sighed and smiled at Jester's reply.
"Bas stupid, is this about living like a papa?" naomi asked a little laugh, hearing Naomi's question made Jester look back at the room floor.
"You've been moody ever since you met Luna and you didn't make it this way when we fought Camilla before, may I know why you got this way?" naomi asked back in a soft voice
"I always cover my heart with spontaneity and look happy, trying to build a festive atmosphere around me and make me happy" replied Jester flat, Naomi was silent to hear Jester's words.
"Luna's presence made me reopen the pandora's box that I had long kept well - both in the deepest corner of my heart" Jester continued his sentence in a voice that sounded sad
"Pandora's box?" naomi asked, confused
"Everything I used to think of as something so precious, but in fact it was a curse" Jester replied in a voice that was increasingly heavy and sad, jester was reluctant to recall all the memories he had buried and died - desperately trying to forget them all. Even when the presence of Luna again did not make Jester remember who the figure he faced at that time, really the moment that made Jester afraid to return slumped because of the wounds he saved.
"Memories with Luna yes..is that why you have trouble remembering moments with her?" naomi asked quietly, Naomi knew very well this incident was so sensitive for Jester and as much as possible Noami arranged her sentence so as not to make Jester more sad.
"True..one by one the memories with him are clearly drawn in my mind now, it is like a curse that intends to gnaw my sanity and at this time I remember all things about him. Her voice, her face, her smile and her anger at that moment" Jester replied, then her eyes turned to look at Naomi, from the look in her eyes that Naomi understood Jester was worried about something.
"Looking at you will suddenly leave me. My fear soon overwhelms the entire brain, I was so afraid that you left because of my stupidity and repeated what I had experienced" Jester continued, Naomi breathed again.
"I told you, I didn't." Naomi's words cut Jester who was suddenly angry, her emotions overflowed instantly.
"Did you ever say the same thing to Daniel?! must have been, right?!" jester's question sounded so emotional that it made him stand up from his seat
"Jester!!" naomi snapped, the snatch reawakened Jester from her momentary emotions.
"I'm sorry, again - again I can't control myself.." with regret Jester said, Jester sat back down and threw away face to face avoiding eye contact with Naomi.
"Then how should I let you trust me?" naomi asks him to ask Jester for his trust
"There's nothing you have to do, it's just a matter of my excessive fear and worry" Jester replied sounding resigned, Naomi sighing before responding to Jester's reply.
"Hey... Are you afraid and worried about what?" asked Naomi gently, Jester looked back at Naomi with a sad look.
"I will not always make you happy, there are times when my attitude will make you disappointed. Then what's my guarantee that you'll never walk away from me? there will be no faithful people, they are loyal to what they need from others and once their needs change, their loyalty will also change" Jester replied, pressuring Naomi.
"Excessive thinking will not solve the jester problem, you worry too much and it will not lead you to the way out of your heartache. think enough, worry as necessary, and act as soon as possible" timpal Naomi stood up and knelt down in front of Jester, clasped her hands tightly, smiling Naomi looked at Jester who looked surprised.
"No human being is perfect, all humans must have made mistakes and as good as humans are who can learn from mistakes" Naomi said gently and looked at Jester with warmth
"Jester. about the flowers I threw away it was not because I was disappointed in Daniel, but because he never learned from his mistakes. It's true that I was disappointed in you, if I may say so. I'm so ashamed that you can't say you love me in front of Daniel. But you learned from your mistakes by apologizing to me right then and there, which is why I won't leave you like I left Daniel" Naomi said gently, the tenderness of Naomi at that time made Jester's eyes glazed over
"I'm just an ordinary woman who would be a fool when dealing with love, right now I understand why you don't let me date Daniel and I seem to let you date him. Because as stupid as I am to you, you will not step on me at all" Naomi said, and one of her hands gently touched Jester's cheeks, when Jester's tears broke. Jester lowered his head and kissed the hand of Naomi who had just gripped her hand, not feeling Naomi's tears dripping at that time.
"Thank you... Thank you for being present in my life.." in a hoarse voice Jester said, the atmosphere was haru felt in that house. For a moment Naomi who looks moved until she shed tears even let Jester cry at that time.
Moments after seconds passed, Jester was again able to master his emotions and he looked embarrassed because he was crying in front of a woman. Deftly wiping away the tears still left on her cheeks and chin, Naomi laughed at Jester's usual behavior. Jester stood up and was about to go from the room to the family room, suddenly Naomi held back the steps of Jester who was about to leave.
"Sleep here with me." said Naomi, Jester who turned her back to Naomi at that time only remained silent for a few moments without turning her head.
"It's okay if you still refuse. I'm me.." Naomi's sentence has not been finished, Jester cut.
"I want to grab my phone in the family room and it'll be right back" Jester said, causing Naomi to smile and release her hand from Jester's arm, slowly Jester stepped back and stopped again as he opened the door.
"Do you mind?" jester asked doubtfully, but Naomi responded to Jester's question with a laugh and a sledgehammer.
That night for the first time Jester and Naomi sleep in one room not in coercion, Jester and Naomi sleep and turn their backs on each other. With small talk the two filled the night in the room to dispel their nervous feelings, slowly the two began to drift in chatter until almost simultaneously the two changed their supine position staring at the sky - the sky of the room. Jester and Naomi told me many things that made the two sometimes laugh together, not feeling they were changing their sleeping positions facing each other. Jester was seen still telling a long story and occasionally Naomi laughed, both of them looked at each other and smiled.
It does not feel Naomi was asleep when the story of Jester is still going on, knowing Naomi who fell asleep in front of her eyes makes Jester smile. His hand slowly touched Naomi's hair and gently stroked her, in a soft voice Jester muttered "Thank You".
