I Borrowed Him
Last Song
Morning blind in Paris France, one of the hospitals that looks still quiet from activity. Someone was seen coming out of a taxi and so rushed to get into the hospital, someone was Jester. Arriving in front of the door of Luna's room, Jester's hands seemed to tremble as if he was afraid to open and look at Luna. Today was her first day meeting Luna in a state she knew what Luna had been trying to hide from her, after being silent for a while in front of the door Jester opened it slowly.
On Jester's bed saw Luna sitting leaning back while watching television, several times Jester saw Luna laughing at the humor broadcast on television. Not long after Luna realized Jester's presence and her gaze turned to look at Jester who was still silent at the entrance was staring at him, once speechless with a flat face Luna was smiling sweetly looking at Jester as if nothing had ever happened between them.
"Hi brother Jester... It's strange to see me without hair? until I look at me like that!" chirps Luna broke the silence between them, Jester's sad face she could not hide. For the first time Luna saw Jester with her true appearance, her heart felt tight. Sadness once he felt in his heart but with a hard heart he tried to cover so as not to make Jester more sad, Luna realized the situation now makes Jester sad that is clearly visible from the look of the face that Jester showed.
"Come on, brother.would you stay there until when?" asked Luna again when Jester only petrified looking at Luna, when Luna looked back at the television and Jester walked pulled a chair and sat near Luna in silence.
"You see I'm just keeping quiet - at a place like this?" it sounded insinuating Luna said so
"Why didn't you say it early?" asked Jester sounding sad his head bowed as if unable to look at Luna, Luna also sighed
"Because you used to love me." replied Luna, Luna's answer surprised Jester.
"What...you mean?" jester asked in a confused voice and then ventured to look at Luna's face.
"It is your love that makes me not dare to tell you the truth.I have also fallen deeply in love with you and when I think of my long life...." unfinished Luna spoke, Jester stood up and looked very angrily looking at Luna.
"Then you think I won't be hurt by the way you left me first?!! why did you come back to me if you think that way?!!! why didn't you tell me from the start this was going to happen?!! why?!!!" with a snatch of Jester saying it, Luna also looked at Jester with her flat face.
"I'm sorry" Luna smiled as she said that, Luna's smile as it made Jester gasp and petrify at Luna. Jester's lips no longer know how to respond to Luna's apology, Luna's smile also seemed to say everything would be fine.
"I used to think that if you hated me right away then you wouldn't be so deeply in love with me and take you further and further down with me... I want you to immediately leave me drowning in the trough of our love separated by circumstances, that makes me think to make you hate me" said Luna still seen smiling looking at Jester, just the silence that Jester was able to do at the time.
"I've been chasing my dream that I told you about before. I want to be a singer and focus on pursuing that dream so I can forget you and I succeed... I'm a finalist in the talent search and that's the biggest achievement of my life.I should be very happy when I reach the final and just have to beat one more competitor, but...." Luna hung her words with a heavy sigh, Luna turned her gaze to look at the television screen that had been lit since and her memory while behind the television screen seemed to be playing back.
"In the thousands of eyes of the audience who saw me at that time, their cheers called out my name, the roar of the audience waiting for me to come out to the stage... all the stars that enveloped me at that time.I.. feel the emptiness...my heart is empty and the feeling of pleasure that I should have got... that achievement feels like nothing in my heart..." Luna said it with regret and looked back at Jester who looked stunned looking at Luna's face
"Splitting from you makes me understand how wonderful it is to be with you and always remember all those memories..." Luna hung up her sentence to take a deep breath as if preparing to say something to Jester.
"That's when I realized that all I needed in my life was you. Once I loved and loved someone, it was impossible to forget... my heart is always thinking of you and my love for you is even deeper.I'm sorry for loving you so deeply.." smiled Luna when she said it to Jester, Luna's words at the time made Jester bow her head.
"Then how should I? what should I do now when you are like this?!! I'm confused what to do for you, now just say it honestly.... You want me how at a time like this? just say.. I will definitely do it for you. There are no secrets between us.. I do not want to continue living in my regrets..." the tone of voice that was afraid for Luna to hear finally had to be heard from Jester's lips, Jester's voice hoarse and trembling while saying everything to Luna. Luna's heart as if sliced must see Jester sad because of his circumstances, which is why Luna used to choose to make Jester hate him and disappear from Jester.
"I.. want to rest.. can leave me.." chirped Luna at that time, the words of Luna made Jester surprised then she looked back at Luna who was smiling looking at her.
"You... kicked me out..?" jester asked, looking surprised
"No sister. I was just not feeling well, maybe the effect of the medicine that I received and now.I feel very sleepy.." replied Luna with a smile that was still visible on her face, Jester wiped away the tears that were still on his face and turned around to leave the room.
"Sir.." chirped Luna when Jester had opened the door to come out, Jester stopped his steps without looking at Luna.
"Can... You bring a guitar here when you see me again?" pinta Luna, Luna's request at that time made Jester surprised.
"Yes" answered Jester briefly, then stepped out of the room and closed the door slowly, while Luna was still staring at the closed door in silence. Her tears were dripping instantly, her hands squeezing the blanket that covered part of her body, and her body seemed to tremble violently.
"I'm sorry." said Luna in the silence of the room, Luna covered her face with both hands with a cry that sounded so heartbreaking.
The sun rose so brightly in the sky of Paris France that day, Jester was seen still sitting in the waiting chair of the hospital lobby since coming out of Luna's room. Not long after William was seen walking into the hospital and saw Jester sitting pensively staring at the floor, William sighed and walked up to his son and sat next to him.
"Why? shouldn't you be happy that Luna has woken up from her coma?" william asked casually, Jester was still speechless and slightly turned to look at William with a sad look.
"Why do women always not get to be honest with what really happens to them?" jester asked slightly, William fell silent and looked at Jester.
"Why do they always force us to understand the codes of them?! why don't they just be honest with us about what really happened to them?!" jester's question sounded so emotional, seeing his son's sudden emotion made William think looking for answers that might be acceptable to his son.
"Papa also do not understand why women always do that, he always feels he can do it alone without our help these men but, listen to papa." replied William sound calm and then looked back at Jester who looked down on the floor.
"Meeting someone and then parting with him is a natural thing in life, no one is able to keep a promise forever. Suffering, heartache, and suffering are also part of life, life is hard..." William sighed for a moment before continuing his words, William's words at that time made Jester look back into William's eyes.
"Just hang on today and you'll someday find your own point of happiness, just as you finally meet your mom and you are present in your life" william stroked Jester's head gently
"Papa's words made me worse off" Jester's timp sounded annoyed
"Well what else, it is and because you are an adult then you must realize the bitterness of life" William also sounded heavy hearted to say it then looked back at the sky - the hospital sky while leaning his body on the back of a chair.
"I understand, thank you for your advice, papa." said Jester then stood up to leave the place.
"Where are you going?" william looked at Jester in surprise
"I want to buy a guitar, Luna asked me to bring a guitar when I came to see him again" replied Jester, hearing Jester's answer made William smile and stood up from his seat while patting Jester's shoulder quite hard.
In one of the music equipment stores, Jester and William look to be choosing various types of guitars. Starting from acoustic guitars to electric guitars of various brands, Jester and William were seen trying several guitars to listen to the sound quality of each guitar offered. After matching up with one of the guitars, Jester bought the guitar and was about to take him to meet Luna. In front of the music store, Jester and William split up because William decided to return to the hotel waiting for Jester there.
Not long before Jester arrived at the hospital and immediately stepped foot into Luna's room, he knocked on the door and not long after Luna's voice spoke Jester's knock to let Jester in. Immediately Jester opened the door and looked at Luna who was enjoying the food provided by the hospital, on the mattress Luna noticed the guitar bag that Jester carried behind his back and her eyes sparkled. Luna's smile line was visible and gave a gesture to thank Jester, seeing Luna's smile at that time made Jester's heart feel relieved.. relieved for what was then Jester was unable to understand it.
"Aaaa thank you! wait.. I have to prepare first" looks enthusiastic Luna said, she also pushed the table that was part of her mattress at that time and immediately want to tidy her hair. But when he touched his head, suddenly Luna lost her smile.
"Eee Luna.. don't think about it.." jester chirped at the sight of Luna losing her smile as she realized she had no hair.
"Aaaa~ doctor does not ngizinin I use a wig.. I would be ugly if it was like this in my last appearance.." sounds sad Luna said it, Jester smiles at Luna's spoiled nature which reminds her of Luna while still in High School.
"Heii Heii kak.. record my appearance donk use your mobile phone" Pinta Luna at that time, with a sigh Jester according to Luna's request.
Jester took out his phone and placed it in a flower vase so that the camera could capture Luna's image, after making sure the screen recorded Jester again approaching Luna with a chair in the room. Jester sat down while removing the guitar from the bag, Luna smiled at Jester who was still busy preparing her guitar. It was hard for Jester to fulfill Luna's wish, especially when Luna said this was her last appearance. It feels chest tight for Jester but his determination to fulfill Luna's dream is what inspires him.
"In my last performance, I've sung two songs and there's only one more that I can't sing at that time." chirped Luna in the middle of Jester's preparations, luna's words at the time caught Jester's attention.
"What song is that?" ask Jester curiously
"Adele's... All I Ask .." answered Luna stammered, hearing Luna's reply as it made Jester pause and looked at Luna with a surprised face.
"The stage name I used back then was Lunar because I always felt like a moon that looked beautiful at night but I couldn't look beautiful if I just relied on my own strength, I need the sun to look beautiful at night but I've lost my eyes.... I said that to my mentor and he directly chose me the song on the grounds that I would be able to sing this song very well if it involved feelings..." sounding sad Luna said it, Jester also threw away his face when he saw Luna's gaze that became sad.
"Sister... can you accompany me with that guitar?" ask Luna and look back at the camera
"I will do my best" replied Jester
🎵🎵🎵
I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before, you know
So why don't we just play pretend?
Like we're not scared of what's coming next
Or scared of having nothing left
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what loves do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
🎵🎵🎵
Amidst the song Jester stopped playing his guitar, tears rolled down his cheeks and his hands seemed to tremble violently. Luna just stared at the camera phone Jester then slowly Luna looked at Jester who was crying sobbing - sobbing at that time, her lips look heavy to say look at Jester who was down and crying.
"Enough... I can not continue it. sorry.." sobbed Jester when saying it, Luna sighed for a moment and then looked back at the camera and continued the song without the sound of Jester's guitar.
It was never imagined for Jester to be in such an inner torturous situation, though, watching and listening to the once-loving figure and giving happiness in his past life sing a song about the breakup that Jester believes that the song is Luna's heart for Jester.
Luna's beautiful voice was so able to build the atmosphere in the room that made Jester unable to hold back her cries, performing each verse of the song with passion and conveying the contents of the message with all my heart makes Jester drift in sadness. In his heart hoping this was all just a nightmare that would not come true, his love might have already been lost for Luna but the memories and happiness they had once gone through could still be Jester felt.
