I Borrowed Him
Expressions Feelings
At the edge of a suburban cliff in the afternoon before dusk, two lovebirds were kissing their lips at the time. Jester only fell silent as Naomi kissed her lips, the faces of the two looking red. After a while Naomi began to release her lip link with Jester's lips then walked back a few steps away from Jester, Jester looked petrified while Naomi still looked down did not have the courage to look at Jester's face directly.
"Yes...." Jester tried to break their silence and awkward feelings but Naomi gestured with her hand for Jester to stop talking and be quiet, with her face still down Naomi began to try to move her lips that seemed to tremble.
"May I speak?" naomi asks and Naomi's hand still tells Jester to shut up, Jester petrifies for a while before answering Naomi's question.
"B.yeah... Please" with mixed feelings of shame, shock, pleasure, and nervous Jester answered, Jester's heart beat fast and made his vision more blurred.
"I.... Might.... I'm not so sure, but.." Naomi's not done talking, her phone rings again. Naomi immediately threw her mobile phone at him without a doubt even without seeing who called her at the time, after throwing the phone away Naomi looked back at Jester.
"Yeah!! why did you throw that phone away?!" Jester panicked while looking at where the phone was thrown
"Please!! just listen to me!! please.." ask Naomi with a slight snatch, Jester looked back at Naomi and found Naomi's face very reddened. Jester understood Naomi's hard work of holding back her shyness when about to speak at this moment, Jester looked at Naomi with a serious face.
"At this time I'm not sure how I feel, but one thing is certain.I just want to ask your permission" Naomi said, Jester was amazed by Naomi's words.
"My age?" asked Jester in a surprised tone, Naomi's body seemed to tremble when she heard Jester's question.
"Allow me. Allow me to love you" Naomi replied as she looked into Jester's eyes, Naomi's face blushing.
"Huhuh?!! nay! I can't do that, Naomi makes your dress not funny!!" panic mixed with shame Jester said, immediately Jester's knee became limp and difficulty to continue standing upright.
"I know I belong to Daniel, I will be the least self-conscious woman to dare to say this to you" Naomi said, both silent for a while and looking at each other. Naomi took a deep breath and exhaled slowly while Jester was still petrified as if she could not believe she would be shot by two women in the near future, between happy, sad, panicked, confused everything mixed in Jester's mind.
"I'll get away from Daniel as soon as I can, you can think of me as a cheap woman or whatever you say to me. I will accept Jester, as long as you allow me to pursue your love" Naomi said amid silence between the two
"I will not say anything insulting to you and your request is unacceptable to me, this is not fair to you nor does it make sense to me!" timpal Jester in a very panicked voice
"Just take... Let's just say I lend you my heart, we're under contract, right? I'll try to keep you going after Camilla's love but please on the other hand you allow me to pursue your love" Naomi chimed in on Jester's words by force, hearing Naomi's words made Jester angry.
"I can't Naomi! please don't hurt yourself more than this!!" Jester slightly snapped at Naomi, but Naomi shook her head. Naomi shook her head, her hands clenched and looked at Jester with a sharp look even though her eyes began to look glassy
"I would risk it if it would hurt me even worse!! even when you're finally not mine, I'm fine!! I'm fine - what Jester.. I understand the risk I'm going to take.." Naomi's tears broke when she said it, jester's angry gaze turned to pity as Naomi began to shed her tears.
"No. I can't and won't do that to you. I'm sorry I refused it" Jester said, although her tone sounded soft, Naomi lowered her head for a moment and fell silent for a moment while gathering the courage to speak again.
"I know you'll definitely say that, but I won't give up. Even though you won't allow me in the end, I'll continue to pursue your love at all costs" Naomi's trembling tone still tried to show her determination and continued to push Jester, in a trembling tone, at that time Jester until look upset because Naomi stubborn.
"Why?! what's your futile struggle for?!" asked Jester who began to be surprised by Naomi's attitude, Jester's tone sounded snapping.
"I don't know, are... are we destined matchmakers?" naomi looked into Jester's eyes with a hopeful look, Jester could feel Naomi's statement was serious and there was not the slightest look of joking.
Jester was silent for a while as he continued to look into Naomi's eyes, both of them looking at her for quite a long time. While Naomi was not strong enough to keep looking at each other with Jester and finally chose to lower her head, Jester began to regulate her breathing to calm her heart and mind.
"I've tried to calm down and think as calmly as possible, but I still can't accept it. I don't want to see you fighting for something pointless like this, enough Naomi I don't want to continue this conversation" said Jester breaking the silence, looking very angry at Naomi.
"If you don't allow it, I don't care!! I will still be chasing you!!" naomi replies to Jester's snatch, hearing Naomi's stern words makes Jester jerk and shocked half to death. Imagining her being chased - pursued by a woman like Naomi - really makes her feel like a man who does not know herself.
Jester suddenly knelt down and bowed before Naomi and slightly banged his forehead on the ground, Naomi was surprised by the actions of the Jester who arrived - arrived and immediately ran closer to Jester and immediately rested while forcing Jester to raise his head. Jester holds her torso to remain prostrate before Naomi as hard as Naomi forces Jester to lift her head, but Naomi keeps trying to raise Jester's head.
"Jester!! why are you doing this?! lift it to.." Naomi's words were cut by Jester
"I'm sorry Naomi!! all this is my fault, I've pulled you into this unpleasant situation and made you like this! sorry!!" jester said while prostrating in front of Naomi, Jester's words stopped for a while
"I don't deserve to love you and you go after it like this! I'm just a stupid guy who arrives to pull you over at the campus parking lot! I don't deserve your love, so please forgive me and stop hurting yourself!" Jester continued his sentence that had been cut off earlier, with heavy breathing Jester tried to hold back his tears because his guilt was too controlling of himself and his mind.
But Naomi just fell silent without any movement from her, Jester raised her head to look at Naomi. Naomi closed her lips and her eyes closed and tears flowing very profusely soaked her cheeks and continued to flow dripping to the ground, seeing that Jester panicked immediately calmed down and gently grasped both of Naomi's arms.
"Don't cry like that Naomi, I beg you!! I'm sorry if my words were rude to you!" as Jester tries to calm Naomi down, Jester looks very panicked to see Naomi crying like that.
"Am I that cool? do I really think you're not worthy of you? are you disgusted by me?" asked Naomi in the midst of her crying, Jester was getting confused and she was already in the stage of not being able to think normally.
"It's not like that Naomi, you misunderstood!! you're too perfect for me, you're beautiful, famous, smart and more. I'm not.." Jester's words were cut by Naomi.
"Allow me. I beg you Jester..." Naomi lowered her head pleading with Jester, Jester panicked and tried to lift Naomi's head but Naomi refused
"I have to what?! I don't deserve this kind of treatment from you!" jester's snapping sounded desperate, Naomi still lowered her head.
"Allow me. That's it.." Naomi's answer was still in her tears and her voice was soft, Jester hit the ground hard to vent the turmoil of her emotions that began to get out of control.
"All right!! good Naomi! but I have conditions for you!" with the compulsion of Jester to agree to Naomi's request, Jester's tone was heard snapping as she said it but Naomi shook her head and kept her head down while she persisted.
"Whatever Jester..anything I will do for you.." said Naomi.
"You can't push yourself, you can't overdo it and lastly I want you to make up with Selena as quickly as possible" Jester said, providing Naomi with conditions, jester's tone at that moment sounded a little upset.
"Yes, that's all and you have to promise me that!" Jester forces Naomi to accept him and not to bid the Jester has put forward, Naomi nods several times accepting the terms from Jester.
"I said I'll do as you say" Naomi replied sternly as she looked at Jester
"Haah... Why is this so? can we go home Naomi?" asked the tired-looking Jester, Naomi just nodded and followed Jester walking to their car.
The journey home they went smoothly without any obstacles but both were still silent, when they arrived home they were still silent but something began to change, namely Naomi's attitude that became more polite and sweet in front of Jester. Jester was very tired and finally let Naomi act whatever she wanted despite Jester's look as upset as Naomi, Jester went straight to the middle room and rolled out his folding mattress and immediately slept in the middle room. But just closing her eyes, Naomi approached and sat down next to Jester and fell silent.
"What's wrong?" asked Jester in a tired-sounding tone
"If you want, you can sleep in the room and let me sleep here if you don't let me sleep with you in the room" Naomi replied
"Do I have a choice?" ask Jester
"All your decisions will be made" Naomi replied
"Then sleep in the room and I'll stay" Jester ordered in a flat tone
Naomi just looked at Jester for a while and left without a word to her room, Jester started pulling her blanket again and tried to sleep but Naomi's words were ringing in her ears. Jester was getting restless and unable to sleep
"Aragh!! shit!!" jester shouted at that moment
Jester got out of his bed and walked straight to the room where Naomi was, Jester opened the door hard to surprise Naomi. On top of the bed Naomi sat and wrapped her hands on her knees while looking at Jester, Jester was visibly upset looking at Naomi at the time.
"Well...what?!" ask Naomi
"You think only you can express your feelings? I'll express my feelings" replied Jester but stood by the door
"Huh?! why come - come?" Naomi was even more surprised at that time to make her petrified in bed
"Everything starts with me admitting you as my girlfriend in front of my dad" said Jester
"Aahs.. Eeh that's okay, forget it" Naomi said
"I have been with you for a long time, how can I forget what happened to you" said Jester slightly with pressure
"La... Then what do you want to say?" ask Naomi
"I asked you to be my girlfriend, even now I consider us to be just contract girlfriends and since you express your feelings, I've been troubled" Jester replied
"aa... I know. because - because I mixed my personal feelings into our fake relationship you become a hassle, forgive me" Naomi said with regret
"That's right. I've been hassled ever since.." Jester hasn't finished talking, Naomi cut.
"I'm sorry!" kind of with a snatch Naomi said that
".... Because there's no way a famous selebgram like you can like a pathetic person like me!!" jester said in a pressing tone, Naomi was surprised by the words of Jester but Naomi just stared silently at Jester
"You are beautiful, clever, famous, charismatic. You and I are like the earth and the sky!! that's why I feel like dating you is just a dream" Jester said
"I know... I know you are a gloomy man, the beginning of starting this fake relationship even I think what - what am I with a man like this? but after what we've been through even though I don't want to but this feeling arises" Naomi said, Naomi slightly took a deep breath and exhaled slowly
"I didn't expect to count on you when you were in trouble and you were kind to me. When the slump was the end - this end I just think will definitely be saved by you. If that's so, it's not strange that in the end I'm not in love with you" said Naomi who began to shift her eyes
"Honestly, I'm really happy that I'd prefer that your feelings don't continue, so what I'd like to say is..." Jester bowed before Naomi, Naomi who turned her eyes again to Jester until surprised and slightly moved closer to Jester but stopped because Jester started talking again
"Thank you!! I'm so happy for how you feel Naomi!! although in the end I still could not reply to him, but I was really happy!! that's all I wanted to say" said Jester, who was still bowing, Naomi was silent for a while
"Yes I know in your heart I say I'm a jerk out of excitement there's a woman who declares love when I have another woman I like" Jester said
"Yes.I think you're a jerk.." Naomi said suddenly.
"Argh, I'm sorry Naomi" said Jester, who was still bowing in front of Naomi
"Thank you for expressing your feelings, I know it's hard for you. You are indeed a good man Jester" Naomi said as she walked closer to Jester, Jester lifted her head and looked at Naomi's face. Naomi clasped Jester's hands with both hands
"From now on as your fake girlfriend, let it go on like this. You stay focused on Camilla and let me stay by your side" Naomi said with a smile
"Thank you, I wish you the best" Jester said, smiling at Naomi
Naomi goes back to her bed and sleeps and begins to cover herself, Jester starts leaving Naomi in the room and closes the door slowly. Inside the blanket Naomi still opened her eyes and suddenly smiled
"It seems I still have a chance." Naomi murmured,
