I Borrowed Him

Past of Camilla (2)

***THIS CODE STILL USES FIRST PERSON POINT OF VIEW AS CAMILLA***

I thrashed and revolted as hard as I could, but it all felt useless.I was not that strong, my body was getting limp every second.... in my mind I always thought about killing myself after everything happened. In what way? what ways do you feel a little pain? my eyes began to bud - firefly..smell once this man above me.. His hands were ferocious once felt my chest....

In the midst of my despair, my hand accidentally touched a glass bottle on the floor. I don't know where the energy from then I can reach it and then hit the bottle into the head of the man who has been overrunning me since

"Aarrrghhh!!! goddamn it!!!!" the man shouted and rolled on the floor and let go of me

With the clothes that had stretched and were not shaped, I strengthened my legs to stand up and leave the room, I did not know where to run but in the middle of the dimly lit hallway I saw my father standing and looking at me with his face that looked surprised. Seeing the expression on my father's face made hope in my heart that what the man said was a lie, I slowly walked up to him and asked for his mercy.

"Aaa.dad..help me.. he wants..have raped me.." I said softly with tears in my eyes.

PLAQUE!!!! the sound of a slap was so loud on my left cheek

"Soundless boy!!! what happened to Mr Riner?!!" he nodded at me with anger

Shock.... shock... angry... sad... disappointed.. somehow the most dominating of my heart hear the words of this man who should be my protector, as if I was broken to be a woman, I strengthened my heart again to look into the eyes of the man I always called father, he said, but what I found was the next slap on my right cheek until I fell.

"Soundless boy!!! at least a little useful!!!" snapped again

I stepped on him many times until the man who wanted to rape me came and drove us both away, two big-bodied men dragged me and Dad to the exit and threw us to the side of the road. I who was still in shock could only be silent on the sidewalk in front of the cafe owned by my father's friend for a while, while my father went home first to leave me there.

Things like that continued for as long as I was in first grade High School, but the longer I finally managed it until now. All the men who want to touch me always get drunk first with liquor they have prepared themselves and give the anesthetic that I always put on the shirt on my chest because of the nose man this strip always targets my chest first when going to launch the action, I always survived that way even though my father sold me many times and I have forgotten how many times.

What stopped her plan to sell me? it happened in the second grade of High School when I was dating my underclassman named Daniel, he was the guy who looked good in my eyes. I loved her so much because of the way she treated me, that was my view when it was blinded by my love.It was normal and beautiful until when Daniel and I were caught dating my parents.

When Daniel forced his will so that I could get out after school, he took me to the boarding house where Daniel had been staying during school. There Daniel asked me to sleep with him, scattered his promises that felt sick to me. But I loved him so much and I allowed Daniel to do whatever he wanted from me, stupid me..... But it wasn't long until I slapped him when he undressed my school uniform.

I deeply remember her shocked face getting a slap from me, I was confused as to why I did it. I repeatedly apologized but it seemed Daniel was very angry with me, the proof after that he asked me to leave his room without taking me home. And that's why my father and mother suspected I had a relationship with my opposite sex....

I was beaten up by my father and my mother scolded me, but I kept my first love. Daniel was also impressed to continue to maintain our relationship.all seemed to be happy at the end of my story, I found a direction in life when I could escape the grip of both my parents. But hope is hope, all that is dashed.yaah.all my beautiful dreams are destroyed on Saturday night.

Accompanied by heavy rain, I jumped from my bedroom window because Daniel wanted to meet me in a small alley that connected the urban road with my residential complex. I ran and ignored all the raindrops that rained down on my body, I didn't want to make him wait for me too long in the torrential rain. For five minutes I ran, and I was at the place where Daniel said he was waiting for me to speak.

"Ma... I'm sorry.. Did you wait for me too long?" ask me with the best smile I have

"No" he answered briefly, I set my breath for a moment and tried to get rid of the rain that soaked my head and face with both hands. Then I walked up to him, but only a few steps did Daniel arrive - suddenly said....

"I want to break up" he chirped....

I was sure that night that there was not a single bolt of lightning, but I don't know why it felt like my ears heard a sound that froze my body....

"To.... why...? is it because I can't keep you company other than at school? is it because I'm not as pretty now? or because of the incident at that time? whahuh? why?!" I shouted at him, he just shook his head and said...

"I met a better woman than you, so I'm sorry I have to say this now. I just hope you don't interfere with our relationship" he replied

"Please don't leave me!! I... I can be second to you!! I won't interfere with your relationship with anyone!! but please don't leave me!!" at my door, Daniel pulled his arm out of my grasp.

"It's up to you, but I still decided to break up from you. Sorry and thank you" he said and left me.

My heart ached when Daniel broke off our relationship, and I walked back to go home. In front of the house I entered no longer through the window of my room but through the front door, I also passed my father. With soaking wet and about my whereabouts that are not in the room certainly provokes my father's anger, my father, he slapped me so many times but somehow I didn't feel any pain even as blood flowed from my nose and lips.

As if he was content to beat me up, my father just left me at the exit of the house. Trudgingly I walked into my room, dried my body as it was, and healed the wounds I had suffered from my father's harsh treatment. That night either fainted or exhausted, I fell asleep on the floor of my room after covering the torn wound, and the morning sun turned and woke me up.

It was a sunny Sunday morning.Everyone thought it was a pleasant day, gathering with family on holiday after six days of tired activities. To me? it was a long hell I had to hang out with my parents for a whole day.

Every Sunday morning there would always be breakfast together at my house, otherwise it would not be something new if father would drag me and beat me up. I was forced to get out of the room and walk to the dining room, the first day after I was decided by Daniel and all I got was dad giving me a picture of a guy I didn't know at all. But he looked my age, I looked hard at the photo and in my mind said "i'll be sold to this guy".

"He was named Jester Gates, son of William Arthur's grandson. I'll be looking for funding to study at the same private university as her when you graduate, so study good Camilla" my father said at the time

"Well" I replied briefly, but my eyes kept staring at the face in the photo

"You should be able to be his girlfriend and marry him, take possession of his property and raise me to be a top brass in Gates' hotel chain. Do you understand?" he said again giving me orders, as if I had expected it I was sure the purpose was family property.

"Well" I replied again, but I would do absolutely nothing and to hell with the order.

From that day on, my father never hit me again, not because he began to show his compassion but because he did not want to damage my body and face. It's a strange reason not to beat up her daughter, but I've enjoyed my days without my father's harsh treatment ever since.

The next day I began to find out who was the woman who took Daniel's heart from me, Naomi Scott. Not only beautiful, she is also the only child of the owner of the hospital network Scott. It's only right that Daniel threw me away, all men are the same....

Day after day passed until I finally graduated school, my father really put me in the university where Jester attended. On the first day of college I met him, either fate or coincidence... Jester fell in love with me. I have no problem with Jester, but considering his family that made my father a demon, I don't know why my grudge fire blazed when I looked him in the eye. Had his family taken away my father, I wouldn't have suffered like this. All men are the same....

I hung up my relationship with Jester to smooth out my revenge, played to death, but since I didn't become Jester's girlfriend, my father started back to beat me up and scold me. This time not only my father, but my mother also beat me because it turns out that my tuition fee was obtained from selling my mother's kidney... I could go to a fancy place like this because of my mother's sacrifice and wish I'd become a rich man's girlfriend so my mom could buy a new kidney for her... Crazy....

I don't care, I keep playing Jester, disobeying my father, and letting my mother linger - long live with one kidney, but in the third semester I heard the news that Jester was dating Naomi. "what the hell?" in my mind I asked

Fate wants me to take my revenge...

Fate does not want me to die in this state of holding grudges for life...

Fate is so good to me now....

You're all the same....

I made you suffer with me.....

This darkness I will bring to you all...

Because all of you are the same....