Giving Up Among Overlooked Love

Still Want to Survive

The second wall clock in a white room scented drugs and carbolic welcomed Nara's eyes that began to open slowly. His body was limp even his eyes were still unable to see clearly. He was just trying to glance slowly at where he was now. Hospital room, what happened? Nara closed her eyes gently, trying to recall what had made her here. Yes, she remembered, there was a pain that was pressing her so strongly that she could no longer endure it. And Nara believes the one who brought her here is Arya.

The door of her room opened, revealing Arya who entered with a face that could not be interpreted. A deep sense of disappointment, sadness, pity and worry emanated clearly on the man's face. Although she was just staring flatly at Nara, but Nara knew the meaning of that look, they had long since lived together.

"You're awake" he said, standing and facing Nara in bed

"Don't we have to be in town B?" ask Nara. He tried not to think too much about the condition of his body. Makes Arya seem to sigh tiredly.

"At a time like this you are still thinking about work. Do you still have Nara's sense" said Arya who could no longer stem her emotions. As a close friend of Nara, Arya feels useless, how could she not know if something has happened that is upsetting to Nara.

Nara smiled, her eyes looking at the sky of the room that felt far away

"You already know" he murmured

"Even you keep this big problem a secret from me" Arya replied in no way. He examined Nara's entire body which had indeed greatly changed considerably, withered, thin and pale. How could Nara who she knew a little girl who was afraid of getting sick be able to endure the pain of a kidney cancer attack. Arya was right still not expecting

"You have to do Nara's treatment" Arya said again

Nara just glanced at her glance and looked back at the sky room

"What then can I be healed?" ask Nara. Arya looked silent, she had discussed with Sebastian's doctor earlier. It just so happened that Nara checked her illness at the hospital on the spot and at the same doctor. So a little bit Arya knows if Nara's disease is serious enough, let alone she has a blood type that is so rare

"You must be healed" Arya replied slowly

Nara smiled bitterly, her eyes damming the water back

"You already know Yo's answer. My disease is like a rotting leaf, no matter what it is treated like, it will still end on the ground" answered Nara

"Nara, there's still a chance. How do you know if you didn't try. You can work day and night, and you can spend two years pleasing a man who doesn't love you, but why can't you take a little time for your own body?" arya asked so sweetly.

Nara is twenty-six years old, still young. She should be healthy, happy and able to enjoy her life, instead of her devoting herself to a painful marriage, confining herself in the pressures of work, coupled with the torment of her present illness.

Arya walked over and rubbed the tops of Nara's heads gently and lovingly, as she always did if Nara was frightened by something like the old days

"Doctor Sebastian said, You still have a chance to survive. I've asked her to find a kidney donor for you, you will definitely.." said Arya immediately stopped when she saw Nara drop a tear beside her face.

"You even know that I have rare blood. Moreover, kidney donors" replied Nara who smiled so bitterly

"Nara" muttered Arya looking at the pale-faced Nara. She was sick but she always kept showing her smile. Even this was not the Nara he knew back then. The Nara who used to be is the spoiled, cheerful and innocent Nara. Now, her Nara has been different, Nara is full of falsities and helplessness that almost killed her

"Forget Yo, I just have to hold on until my contract in the world runs out. After that, not all is lost" said Nara. Yeah, just hang on till the deadline he can hold on. The pain he had suffered, the sadness, the disappointment and the burden he had borne all this time would no longer be felt. Just have to hold on.

Nara's eyes were blank, like there was no desire to survive any longer. And of course it makes Arya really sad.

"Nara, I know you've felt all the happiness and suffering of life at once. I know you as a cheerful and passionate girl. Where was my old Nara? why don't you just want to get on with your life better?" ask Arya

Nara looked at Arya with a faint smile

"Everybody has their own time Yo. I was just waiting for my time to come and no longer wanted to impose my will, which would eventually end up in pain again" Nara replied

Yes, he can only give up. Fifteen-year-old Nara lives in abundant happiness, affection, love and all she has earned. Eleven years later, the wheel spins drastically. Nara's happiness is lost and replaced with a very heavy burden.

Maintain a company that is on the verge of destruction, love the man who only gives him pain, and endure the pain that increasingly gnawing his body, and, making Nara can no longer be the spoiled and innocent girl she used to be.

Afraid, of course he was afraid. Saddened? sure have. But for what to complain, Nara no longer wants to force something, it was enough once she forced her will first to force Reynand to marry her, to her, and it just ends with unparalleled pain now.

Arya just shut up and bowed. Nara is stubborn, but however Arya will still make her want to undergo treatment

"Did Reynand know you were sick?' ask Arya. Make Nara's daydream fade with her own

"No, and he doesn't need to know" Nara replied. Reynand won't care. Even he might be happy if Nara dies.

Arya was speechless, and she could only sigh back while taking out two bottles of medicine from inside her pocket

"Doctor Sebastian's home, he gave this to you. Only pain medication. You have to drink it if you don't want your husband to know" said Arya

And Nara just nodded

.....

The house looked quiet, but the lights in the middle room had lit up. Did aunt Jum turn it on.

Nara turned the door knob, and it turned out to be unlocked. He went inside with a slightly better body after finishing two bottles of infusion and painkillers. His departure to the city of B was forced to be canceled because his body that arrived just collapsed.

Nara's eyes slightly blinked when she saw the appearance of a man sitting in the living room under the darkness sitting and staring at her sharply. Reynand, her husband is home, tumben once, Inner Nara. Why isn't the car in front?

"You've come home. Sorry I'm late" Nara said with a sweet smile as usual

Nara turned on the lights in the room so that the sharp handsome face was clearly visible.

"Do you like having fun out there?" reynand asked so coldly

"What do you mean?" nara asked not to understand. He was still standing in front of a chair that limited the distance between the two of them

Reynand screeched cynically. He notices Nara's entire curves and finally ends up on Nara's back, wrapped in a small bandage. There is a curiosity, but the ego immediately blows away his curiosity

"I've made a decision" Reynand said. And somehow Nara's heart immediately beat fast, as if preparing to get something that makes her hurt again

"Decision" murmured Nara

"Cleo no longer wants your blood, and your work is done. I no longer stop you from leaving. You are no longer useful to us" Reynand said so cruelly

Nara pegged at her place, she looked at Reynand bitterly. That's how quickly he was dumped. Even now Nara has not been able to prove to Reynand the rottenness of Cleo and her mother. No, not now. If Nara leaves, at least Reynand should not be with Cleo, the devious woman should not take advantage of Reynand's love.

"Can't let me here" asked Nara with her pinched face, and again the face made a tinge in Reynand's heart soar again. Don't know what. Sometimes he thinks that there is something about Nara that can be rivaled by Cleo, his lover?

Reynand laughed cynically and headed towards Nara. His eyes looked down on Nara who was staring at him always with a sad look full of love

"You've been hooked by my touch ha?" hina Reynand

Nara immediately bowed in pain

"You like being a slave*****me every time?" reynand asked again and Nara closed her eyes to endure her pain

"You like being my servant all the time?" reynad asked continuously and drew closer to Nara who was still bowed with condensed eyes

"Do you like Nara???" reynand asked with a sharpened eye

"Java!!!!" his snapping with a voice that was so jarring made Nara so jumped in shock at her place

The big hand again scooped up Nara's chin violently, making a circle of tears fall on Nara's face

"You crying?" reynand asked with a cynical look

"Your face is disgusting you know. All about you I hate her so much. You are the misfortune that came into my life. I shouldn't have met you just yet, I shouldn't owe you anything." Reynand snapped.

Nara's tears were flowing more and more, but she did not sob at all. Reynand knew the meaning of those tears, tears of pain and sadness. He immediately let go of his grip violently and turned his body back to Nara

"Go Nara" kicked Reynand out so coldly

Nara immediately shook her head strongly and knelt down at Reynand's feet

"No, please not now Rey. Let me be with you a little longer" Pinta Nara said with such a pitiful face

"Go!!!!" reynand

"No Rey, let me be here. I'm not gonna bother you. I won't force anything, but please let me live with you longer" please Nara

Reynand turned her body and looked at Nara sharply

"I'm the one who's bothered with you Nara. You're like a burden piercing my heart" Reynand said in a tone that felt different. I don't know what's going on, but Nara feels there's something else with Reynand

"Rey, I beg you" Nara asked with tears growing

"I only have you, only you where I come home" Nara murmured so softly

Reynand scooped her face violently. Staring at Nara with a look so upset and angry. Why is Nara stubborn, why is she so life-resistant to suffer these two years. Why?????