Giving Up Among Overlooked Love

Nara Or Just an Illusion????

It's about my miss

About the endless longing

Among the rain spots that did not stop, there was something I wanted to convey

I still remember you

Even my love always says your name

Debar longs that are so tempting even though silence drowns your shadow

For the last October

I'm still waiting for you to come back

Hope to hold onto your love again

But...

Can I still hope

After all the memories were broken in the rain that seemed to stop

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The drizzling rain that had fallen in the morning and soaked the soil that had dried for several hours, now began to subside. The day had begun to twilight, but the orange rays were not at all luminous. Everything is covered by cloudy clouds that still want to let out the water.

For the umpteenth October, it is still the same as before. Nothing has changed, even the pain felt is getting stronger and stronger.

Love, longing and slump make his usual sharp eyes become a special attraction now looks so sad and dim. No more twinkle of life stored in him. Everything seemed to have disappeared ever since he chose to let go of the love he held.

Wanna fight?? But what he can be proud of, even to take care of himself he still needs someone's help. Want to reclaim the love he once had, but with what? All will only add to the burden and the wounds.

Reynand Adiputra's...

The haughty young master who was famous for his quite strong charm was now just a helpless weak man.

Since the accident a few months ago, her life has changed.

Yes, Reynand just kept quiet at home befriended a slump that increasingly killed his heart and soul. There's nothing he wants to do anymore. He's lost all of it. The severe accident made Reynand's condition worse, he had a leg injury severe enough to make him have to undergo treatment and therapy to be able to walk again. Not his actual paralysis, just broken bones in some parts of his leg. It's just that Reynand who has no spirit of healing makes his condition worse and his old wounds to recover. If Zelina and her mom hadn't been forced to take medication and therapy, Reynand would have died shortly after the accident.

The sound of brush strokes accompanied Reynand's silence inside his room. Right in front of the window. His eyes were staring at the painting that was about to be finished. A painting of a woman with such a beautiful and dazzling smile.

Sometimes Reynand smiled faintly looking at her own paintings. This was all he could do in the midst of his pain. Painting is indeed his pent-up talent since long ago.

Look, even after a few months had passed, the face of the woman he loved was still so clear he remembered. No one forgets even a single hair. Her eyes are soft but beautiful with a light brown bead, her lips are thin and so cradled, and her nose is sharp and beautiful, and, it is the work of God that a lifetime can never be forgotten.

Every day even every second, all her memories were only about Nara. The woman he loved who has now become his ex-wife. Reynand often hallucinates the arrival of Nara. Maybe he'll go crazy soon.

The pain was still felt until now, the regret was also still so great he felt. But Reynand never complained about it. He's resigned, he knows his mistake is big enough. He only hopes that Nara can be happy even without him again.

Let him who is down here, let him who is sick himself, let him who is waiting for death by harboring this endless regret. Reynand was resigned, although deep down he still held a hope to be able to hold the hand again. And of course his avenging pain in those who have ruined his life.

"Nara.

A beautiful woman with a smile on her beautiful red lips.

The sound of the door being knocked on did not make Reynand turn his face away. He still looked at the painting with sadness. Such a biting longing always left him helpless.

"Rey.." call her mama.

But Reynand just kept quiet, she knew if her mom would ask her to come out and have dinner because it was getting dark.

Reynand was still speechless, especially when she heard nothing, only the sound of footsteps approaching her. At first Reynand was still indifferent, but suddenly he frowned a little when he recognized this scent. The body scent that he still remembered was clear how fragrant his was always able to make him lulled.

Reynand shook his head slowly, there was no way he would be here. Has Reynand gone mad because every second only that woman he always thinks of????

"You still remember me as it turns out"

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The soft voice of a woman made Reynand fixated. His heart felt paused for a moment but returned to beating with a pulse that was able to make his grimace hurt.

Reynand immediately turned his head back, and again he looked when the person he missed the most was in front of him. Reynand was flabbergasted in disbelief, even having her mouth open because she still did not expect what she was seeing at the moment.

Is this true ????

Is this not a dream???

Is this just her hallucination again???

No, it's impossible.

Reynand immediately shook her head strongly and held her head which felt heavy right now. Why is he hallucinating again. Why is it like this??? Didn't she take her sedatives every night?

"Rey.." call the woman, who is none other than Nara.

Nara wanted to get closer, but Reynand immediately shook her head strongly

"Don't come any closer" exclaimed Reynand with a flushed face and tears beginning to come out of his face.

Nara who had been holding back crying since then immediately sobbed so sad to see Reynand who was like this, she was already like a madman who was so afraid to see Nara. What the hell's going on? Is it true that her mother said that Reynand often hallucinated about Nara??

"Rey.it's me" Nara approached again and wanted to grab Reynand's hand that was pulling her hair firmly. But Reynand immediately brushed off Nara's arm violently.

Nara was so devastated to see this, she cried sobbing and immediately knelt before Reynand. Pulling Reynand's hand so firmly that the man immediately looked at Nara's face clearly.

Reynand's cry rendered Nara helpless, Nara instantly pulled Reynand into her arms. No, he really can't see Reynand like this.

"It's Rey, it's Nara." isak Nara hugged Reynand tightly.

Reynand sobbed so bitterly and returned Nara's embrace no less tightly.

"Please don't torture me Nara, I'm not as strong as you. I'm not strong" Reynand said so painfully, her body shaking violently withstanding the emotional turmoil in her heart.

"It hurts Nara.... I really can't" muttered Reynand again who was still crying in Nara's arms.

Really for whatever sake, whatever pain Nara had received, but seeing Reynand like this why his heart could not. His love for her has grown so deep that there is no reason for him to hate Reynand.

"Is not enough everything Nara, is not enough everything I receive. Why do you always come and torture my inner self."

"I know I'm wrong, I'm guilty, but I wouldn't be able to if you'd always shadow me like this. I couldn't stand Nara." Reynand's words really made Nara sob even more poignant. Does Reynand think he's just hallucinating again???  Is that who he is?? Is that all he has???

Nara releases her hug from Reynand

"No, let it go, don't go first, I beg you, I still miss, I miss" Reynand said so muddled while pulling Nara's body firmly, but Nara also directly pushed Reynand's body firmly until the man immediately leaned back in his wheelchair.

His face was really frustrating, ruined and so depressing.

"Do you want to go again" asked Reynand with dimmed eyes. She wanted to grab Nara's hand, but Nara immediately brushed her aside strongly and looked at Reynand sharply.

"You're still angry with Nara" Reynand said. But a second later Reynand immediately smiled and shook her head, even she chuckled as she rubbed her eyes firmly. Hope Nara's shadow can be lost and not continue to disturb his mind.

"Rey, look at me!!" nara exclaimed so strongly but Reynand shook his head and still rubbed his face

"Reynand!!" yell Nara again

But Reynand was getting messed up, he even looked back and forth looking for something. And when he saw that Reynand wanted to switch even he immediately extended his hand to reach for the bottle of tranquilizer that he had been drinking.

"Go.. go" muttered Reynand who was still trying to reach out for the cure.

Nara's getting sick of seeing this.

"Reynand" called Nara again as she reached for Reynand's arm, but Reynand brushed her off so tightly that Nara fell to the ground.

Reynand even immediately stood up to reach for the medicine, but his legs stuck in a wheelchair made him also fall and so did the medicine he managed to get along scattering on the floor.

Reynand's hand shook with the medicine. While Nara immediately shook her head and immediately moved closer to Reynand. Nara immediately brushed off Reynand's hand when the man wanted to put the drug into his mouth, to make the medicine in Reynand's hand hit again.

"Don't be crazy Reynand!!!" nara cried so sick to see this

"Go!!" yelled Reynand anyway

plaques

A slap so powerful it immediately landed on Reynand's face, making the man instantly peck in his place looking at Nara in disbelief.

Nara's breathing was stingy, looking at Reynand so sharply but with tears constantly flowing down her blushing face.

"It's me Rey!!! It's me!!! Can't you feel it ha!!! Have you forgotten how I am, until you think I'm just a shadow???" nara shouted so hot. Reynand nodded in disbelief

plaques

One slap back Nara gave this man to know if he really exists now.

"Relieve Rey ... Awake it!!!"

"Is that what you're saying if you love me???" nara shouted again, she cried sobbing to see Reynand who came back crying bitterly but her lips were smiling

"Nara... You're right Nara.." muttered Reynand with tears that increasingly could not stop. He crawled up and got closer to Nara. Cupping Nara's face with such a trembling hand.

Is this true ???

This Nara???

"You're Nara, you're Naraku" asked Reynand completely unstoppable how happy he was.

"It's me Rey, it's me Nara." said Nara also who was sobbing so bitterly.

"Nara..you came" Reynand immediately pulled Nara into his arms and hugged her so strongly and longingly.

Reynand cried so hard and kissed Nara's whole face, she missed him really miss.

Reynand could not imagine how she was feeling at this moment, she still hugged Nara, expressing all her pent-up feelings all along.

Crying spilled all the burdens he had been carrying since he left Nara. She did not expect Nara to come and see her.

Nara also could not afford to ignore her feelings if she did miss this man. And he knows now, though he's disappointed and sick given Reynand's treatment. But her love is bigger than all of that.

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Mama and Zelina who turned out to see them also joined in tears to see how devastated the two people were. Even Zelina was so sad to see her sister, Zelina, who was so sad to see her brother, but over time he was also happy to see Reynand who could finally meet and release his longing on Nara. After all this time Reynand was so devastated by his circumstances and feelings.

Arya who also saw Nara and Reynand crying together on the floor of the room was also moved and shed tears.

It is undeniable, if Nara's love is indeed so strong for her ex-husband. Until however the temptation that comes from the outside will not be able to make it waver.

And as for the haughty master, it seems that Arya has started to forgive all your crimes first, because after all thanks to your sacrifices and efforts, Nara can be healed and healthy again now.

Love is complicated.