Giving Up Among Overlooked Love

Obsolete Diary

The atmosphere in the room was so dark, only the sleeping lights were lit making the room feel quiet and silent. The murmur of the night wind waved outside, but the cold was able to enter through the gap of the air vent. It was so late, even in the early hours. Makes the atmosphere feel so quiet.

A pair of eyes began to open with soft and soft. His usual sharp and haughty eyes filled with arrogance and power, now looked so empty and filled with destruction. His eyes dimmed, his gaze was also so nanar looking at the sky of the room that looked gloomy.

Reynand Adiputra, the handsome man with his arrogance is now destroyed and no longer has anything. All his power and arrogance had already crashed far away and made him fall as a fall. He really feels desperate. All his efforts had disappeared just like that, taken by force by someone he called papa.

And not only that, now the place is no longer there. His house had also gone and disappeared somewhere. Was his sin really so great that he had to endure all this so quickly????

Nara's been gone a week. And for a week, Reynand had been looking for where he was. Even to Bimantara, he has also met. But what he got, the results were nil. There are no traces of Nara anywhere.

During the week, Reynand has been looking for evidence of his grandfather's wealth and inheritance. But they all also hit a dead end. Moreover, he who can no longer enter the Adidaksa company or main house. Everything has become so difficult. There was nothing he could make a place to stand. Or either because Reynand's mind is already fucked up even almost crazy thinking about this all.

Now Reynand has brought her mother and sister to live in her small house. The house where she lives with Nara. All the assets and treasures he had had already been successfully seized by lord Abas. Even his credit card and savings are also not able to be disbursed. Thunder, the old man who had been his right hand during this time really helped his father to seize and destroy him. I don't know what was wrong with them, so they were so willing to make Reynand become like this.

Even to bring his mother to the hospital, Reynand was no longer able to. Pathetic indeed.

Reynand got up from the bed, Nara's bed she's been in for a week. The bed that only he came to when only wanting Nara to fulfill his desires. That evil he was then, and now, it's his time to suffer.

Reynand sat by the bed. This week, his sleep was no longer sound, even he could not fall asleep properly. The problem that comes with tubi makes him unable to think clearly. But tonight, he remembered something. She recalled the time Nara once said that Cleo hid a plan to destroy her. Is that true???? Even this week he no longer knew about the girl.

Reynand got out of bed and walked towards Nara's dresser. Sitting in front of the mirror and pulling a drawer where there is still an old diary belonging to Nara. Even the bracelet is still neatly stored there.

Reynand's lips smiled faintly at the sight of a very beautiful teenage photo. Yes, Nara is indeed very beautiful, even though she is sick, she is still beautiful. And stupid Reynand who never saw that.

Reynand just remembered about this diary book, and hopefully Nara wrote a clue here. But instead of thinking about his problems, Reynand was stunned to read every piece of writing and writing written by Nara with her gold ink.

Even writing since the first time they met

Beautiful october, though,

even though the rain always breaks, but every drop of water always brings something beautiful

like a rainbow that comes after rain

same with me

this October, I met someone

someone who keeps me remembering his name and face

That handsome brother is like an angel to me

the angel I'll be looking for when I feel alone

Reynand, sir,

I'll look for that name when I grow up

there will be no one else but him

Wait for me, brother,

my promise is the right thing, though,

hope you don't forget me

Reynand smiled faintly and rubbed the sheet feelingfully. His heart was really bitter. As stupid as he was who could not remember Nara's face and never knew what her little sister's name was. Sheet by sheet Reynand read with an increasingly erratic feeling. Nara just wrote down her sadness there, especially when her father died of kidney cancer, just like her. Nara also wrote about the passing of her mother who also died in an accident. But at that time he also wrote about his happiness because he had managed to meet his handsome brother.

And the next sheet, it's all about Reynand. About her grief because Reynand no longer remembers her and has been in love with her own best friend, Cleo.

But on that page Reynand refocused his eyes on a sentence

That night I heard all of it

hearing about Cleo's rotten plans and her mother

Why would a friend I trust have such a plan

Plans to destroy Adidaksa's family

_Vila Revanno's

"Vila Revano" Reynand murmured furrowed his brows, it seemed like he had heard the name of the villa. But where????

Reynand again tried to remember where and who ever said that. And he nodded slowly. Yes, Nara, Nara did ask her to investigate something there. But he foolishly ignored Nara's words and thought that Nara wanted to slander Cleo.

But, what does Cleo have to do with this matter? What are they planning with Adidaksa's family?? All this time his relationship with Cleo had never been in the slightest trouble. Especially with their parents, then why can Nara say something like this???

Reynand has to find her later.

Reynand reopened the next page. And it came back just about him. About Nara's hidden love that she's always been hiding. Reading this sheet made Reynand's heart even more uncertain. Especially when he married Nara, all Nara wrote as proof that she and Reynand had indeed established a sacred bond, even if only because of force.

Reynand's breath felt stuck, his chest suddenly crowded to see Nara's love for her, this deep she loved Reynand

Again in october

what's going on this month???

this month I met you for the first time

and this month I've been tied to you, too.

Sorry Rey,

forgive the selfishness of my love that has forced you

but really, I'm doing this just because I don't want you getting attached to Cleo

Even though my blood runs out, even though you hate me

I'm not okay

as long as you stay okay

Did Nara ask him to marry her because to save her from Cleo??? But what they had planned was real. Really, Reynand was really curious.

"I'm sorry Nara..sorry" Reynand muttered so softly. Truly for the thousand words of apology that he uttered would also not be enough to avenge all the pain that he had inflicted on Nara. He is guilty and very guilty. It was only natural that he would currently get a reply like this. The wife who loved him so much, even he ignored and he wasted it, then what words of apology he deserved, not that easy.

Reynand's eyes glazed with glass as she read on the next page, the sheet that made her heart so bitterly sliced. Like a sharp incision that opened his heart, if all this time he was really cruel and vile

Lord...

not enough pain I've been feeling all this time

isn't it enough with my husband's hatred that I get every day??

isn't it enough with my blood that's almost gone??

Are all not capable enough to redeem my greed???

but why are you giving me pain again

I'm afraid of God

I was so scared...

to whom I complain

to whom I share this pain

there's no place I stand

there's nowhere I go home

even the house I live in doesn't seem to want me to exist

Reynand bowed with tears that instantly dripped. It hurt so much, even just by reading this article she could feel the pain Nara felt. But why was his heart like a rock, why had he never looked a little at Nara.

Nara must be scared every day, Nara must be in pain every time, but Nara still always tried hard and smiled at him. Smiling to cover the wound that Reynand deliberately opened wide.

Even in the midst of his pain Reynand still made him more injured. Banging him, strangling him and beating him without feeling just because he felt jealous of Bimantara even with trivial things, as if he was deliberately looking for Nara's fault

'sick Rey'

'what if I die you'll be happy?'

Every look of Nara's face of pain and fear was so clearly scattered in her brain.Nara's words also re-flagged in Reynand's ear, making her more helpless and sick. Even when she was bleeding, Reynand still had time to add to her pain

"I'm sorry.sorry" isak Reynand was so tight and deep. What should he do now, why is he this stupid. Why is she so hearty????

Nara showered her with a thousand loves, but she instead avenged her with a million in pain. Even with her heart she intends to destroy everything Nara has, not just the girl's soul and body. Really, Reynand is a human-shaped demon.

Reynand sobbed and rubbed her tears rough. It's not worth it that he's crying over his stupidity. All she had to do was find Nara, and atone for all her sins.

Reynand again looked at the last sheet written by Nara. Hopefully there is a clue where the girl is, because Nara must know something about the problem she is facing right now.

But again it was not the clue he got, but the expression of Nara's heart that was really painful and hit Reynand's heart so strongly.

If loving you is this painful, I should have known from the beginning not to impose my destiny

It hurts so much when my love you repay with hatred that it is becoming more and more

Is it not enough for my love to open a little space in your heart, Rey?

I'm afraid Rey..

I'm afraid to face all this

You're all I have, though,

you're the only place I come home

But if you no longer want me, then,

then where else should I go???

Reynand, sir,

All this time I just wanted a little smile

but until this second, with just a smile you don't want to share

and all I gave

even the price I had to pay when I married you was also so great

blood and tears, I think they're all drained

but in fact, it doesn't mean anything to you

you want to destroy me even more

Rey's...

ii'm sorry...

i'm weary..

and I gave up

Hopefully when I'm not around, you can stay happy

happy without my love that always haunts you....

Reynand fell on the floor, crying loudly and regretfully. He really is the cruelest and most stupid man in the world

"Naraaaa.