Giving Up Among Overlooked Love

Nara's Heart was Too Weak

October, it felt like so long had passed. Every day the rain always falls, if it does not fall, the weather is always cloudy. The weather is no longer in Nara's favor and side. Even during the day, he wears a jacket in his room because of the cold. The rain outside had not stopped since, even Nara had spent two cups of coffee today to warm her body.

He didn't want to leave, but today there was an important meeting he had to lead. Meeting to find a way out about all the problems in the company. But even so, he still could not get where the budget funds to cover the company's losses. It felt like everything was strangling her neck. The fate of hundreds of Polie company employees depends on it. And if it's not dealt with immediately, next month he doesn't even know where he's looking for budget funds to pay employees' salaries.

Projects in city B, only make a small profit. That will not be enough to cover the salary of the employee. All the money came in and some of the resources were already closed by Reynand, and now he had indeed found a dead end. The only way is Reynand. But, how is it? Reynand would not want to lick her own saliva, let alone for Anara.

"Nara, today let me be in town B. Your body is too weak to review the project there" Arya said. I don't know when he entered Nara's room. Is Nara really often daydreaming about the end of this?

"Are you sure?" nara asked, watching Arya who placed some documents on the table

"Yes, after all if I am alone there, I can go home quickly and tomorrow I have entered the office." replied Arya

"Sorry, I always bother you" Nara said. Arya stared at her dislike, Nara was thinking too much about others, but it was not difficult just reviewing the project.

"I don't feel bothered. Can you not always think like that every time" said Arya annoyed. Nara smiled softly and nodded as she reached for the documents Arya had brought.

"Okay, you heart. Let me know if there's anything in there" Pinta Nara

"I should have said so. You are the heart here. Do not be too tired, if there is no work you can go straight home" said Arya

Nara shook her head, her eyes still focused on the documents in her hands

"Where can I be. You know the company is in trouble. If the employees saw me like that, they would have thought I was out of hand and no longer fighting for them" Nara replied

"You're not well, Nara. I know you've tried your best to keep this company" Arya said

Nara smiled faintly, looking at Arya with her sad eyes

"If allowed my health will decline. And while I'm still capable, then I will continue to be here with Polie and my employees" Nara replied

Arya sighed in annoyance. Nara was stubborn, so Arya should know that. Polie's company is her second soul besides Reynand, and she will always defend it even though her own body will die.

"Of course, arguing with you will never win. I'm leaving first" said Arya

"Heart" answered Nara, looking at Arya until she disappeared behind the door.

That afternoon Nara was working alone without Arya's help. Signed a few stacks of files and also checked the report later this month. It's a good thing there's no meeting outside today, so he'll be a little safe and won't be exhausted. Yes, even though just sitting like this alone had already made her quite tormented, her waist was already unable to sit for too long anymore.

...

The clock is five o'clock in the afternoon. And Nara has finished her work, many employees have also gone home.

This afternoon before returning home, Nara wanted to take the time to visit her parents' grave. I don't know why last night he had a dream about meeting his father. Nara had never dreamed of her father. Is it because he misses? Or because Nara is soon to catch up with him, so his father comes to see Nara?

Nara drives her car alone. The drizzle still goes down even though it is no longer heavy. But enough to make the atmosphere of the afternoon felt so gray.

Not long after, only about half an hour he had arrived at the funeral of his father and mother, which he deliberately buried close together. They will not be replaced even though his mother once had another man besides Nara's father.

A light blue umbrella covered Nara's body which was walking under the drizzle. Walking on the green grass that is always treated. His bare feet walked so gently yet with confidence. Every time she came here, Nara always did not want to wear her shoes, for some reason she was so fond of treading rough grass but felt so soft when stepped on, especially when wet like this.

One of her hands held a basket containing a sow flower. Walk step by step through each tomb map that became the final resting place of every living creature. And soon this is where it is. Alone, lonely and no one will care. Pathetic no.

Nara smiled faintly as she looked at the two tombs that were side by side in front of her. He sat on his knees between the two tombs, slightly facing his father's grave. No matter the white dress she wore that day was wet from the water.

Nara placed the flower basket beside her, bringing a glimpse of the light blue veil she was wearing that afternoon. His eyes were so sad full of longing staring at the headstone inscribed with the name of his dearest father and the mother he loved the most. Rubbing her gently full of bitterness

"Dad, mom. Nara came" as if she was talking to someone

"How are you, I've met you there, right?" nara's words sounded so soft. He sowed flowers on his father's grave with eyes that began to stem the water

"Dad, now Nara knows how her pain is dealing with this disease. It hurts dad, it hurts so much"

"Did you come to pick up Nara? " nara's words came to a halt, she rubbed away the drop of tears that fell on her pale face

"Even you know that Nara does not want to fight this disease. I know that Nara doesn't want to fight like you did"

"Yes, Nara did not want to fight dad. Nara's scared, Nara's scared."

"There used to be a mother who always accompanied in every father's struggle. But Nara... Nara is alone father, Nara has no one who can accompany Nara to face Nara's fears. Nara is afraid that the needle pierced through Nara's skin, Nara is afraid to hear a creepy word from the doctor about the condition of Nara's body. Nara's afraid of dad....Nara was scared" Nara began to sob, sobbing so bitterly. As if here is his place to complain, this is his place to express his heart.

"If you want to pick me up, can you ask God not to let Nara die in solitude? Can you ask for His mercy for Nara, just a little bit, ask God not to die in solitude." murmured Nara, his eyes stared at his father's shattered tombstone and looked at the silent sky of that twilight

"Dad... Nara loves dad very much. Wait for Nara there. Nara is also tired here" he said as he rubbed his father's wet belly button

Nara now turns to her mother's grave. His lips smiled, but his eyes could not stem the water that seemed to fall along with his feelings that were so painful and lonely

"Mother..pardon Nara" Nara sowed flowers on her mother's grave so quietly and lived.

"Nara can't keep the company well, it looks like what you're going through is happening to Nara. Companies are destroyed because of the same people we love. It doesn't feel fair, does it? But Nara never regretted it."

"Mother, before Nara's time runs out, Nara is definitely trying to keep the company as good as possible. But if Nara doesn't make it, I don't get mad. Nara was tired enough, Nara could not stand alone without a foothold. The person Nara loves is not as good as dad, only the father really loves us is mom."

"Just like a mother who never regretted marrying Mr. Baskoro. Nor does Nara regret marrying Reynand, Nara now knows what mother feels, loving only to make a wound to the heart. Is it possible that Nara will also die carrying Nara's love?" Nara smiled bitterly and shook her head slowly. Putting back her tears

He had spoken too much, though no one answered, but at the very least his heart was much calmer. She just wants her parents to know, if Anara is not a strong girl, Anara is not a tough girl who can easily reach the world. His body could not stand in the middle of his cruel world, his body could not if it had to be continuously hit by a storm that did not stop. Anara is just a weak girl, who needs a foothold, needs protection and needs love when the world starts to be cruel to her.

....

It was night when Nara arrived home. And he can see that Reynand's car is parked there. Reynand's home? Tumben once he so often go home. She wasn't there last night, and Nara thought that she wouldn't be coming tonight either, but in fact her abusive husband was already here.

Nara slightly ran inside the house, because the drizzle still continued to go down and did not stop. She was already cold, let alone her damp and almost wet clothes.

Nara opened the door slowly, looking inside but quiet. Even the lights are not turned on. Where's Reynand? What's in the room.

It's eight o'clock in the evening, has Reynand eaten? Has he been home since. Questions kept on stirring Nara's mind. As a wife she should be able to pay more attention to her husband, but a husband who how, even when Reynand just came home she never knew.

Nara knocked on Reynand's room door hesitantly, several times, but there was no answer.

"Rey" call Nara slowly. He brought his ears closer to the door, but there was no reply from Reynand.

Nara sighed and stayed away. It seems Reynand did not want to be disturbed. If forced he was afraid Reynand would be as angry as he had been.

Finally Nara chose to go to her room to clean up. His body was already cold, even he felt that in a moment he would have a fever.

After cleaning up, Nara immediately went into the kitchen. Making porridge for him to eat, he has no appetite, but if it is not filled he is afraid if his magh relapses and he also cannot take his medicine. Just chicken porridge with a little fried onion. And that's enough. Nara ate a few spoons, and immediately took the medicine. His waist ached and even he felt his body was already feverish. Yes, as weak as it is now, but only exposed to the drizzle this afternoon.

After cleaning up her food scraps Nara returned to the room, but she paused when she saw Reynand's room. Is Reynand asleep? He was really curious.

Nara walked over hesitantly and tried knocking on the door again, but still there was no answer from within. Finally he ventured to open the door of the room that was never locked by Reynand.

Nara's eyes blinked slowly when she saw Reynand lying on her bed. Why is it so fast, it's still nine at night.

Nara walked closer, but the closer she could see Reynand's shivering body behind a blanket rolling up her body.

"Rey" called Nara but Reynand didn't budge. She covered her entire body with a blanket so that Nara could not see her face.

Nara flicked the blanket over slowly, and her eyes instantly widened when she saw Reynand's face that was so pale that it even broke out in cold sweat.

Nara's hand touched Reynand's forehead

"Fever" murmured Nara.

Nara immediately pulled out Reynand's blanket making the man immediately curl up in the cold. But Nara's eyes widened slightly when she saw Reynand's injured right hand on her fist, like a little broken until her skin peeled off. Even blood was still left even though it did not drip. Nara grabbed that hand, checking it out a little. What happened, what did this man do? Did he fight?

Nara quickly walked out of the room towards the kitchen. He panicked to see Reynand feverish and injured, even ignoring his own body that also needed rest.

Nara returned to the room with a small bucket and towel in her hand as well as a medicine box that was hugged together. He sat down by Reynand's bedside and began compressing the man's head. Treating Reynand's wounds gently and gently. Reynand only grimaced but still let Nara treat her. Maybe he was unconscious.

Two years Nara became his wife, and only today did he see Reynand fever up to this, even he was not aware when Nara opened all her clothes slowly and replaced her with sleeping pajamas. Like his Reynand was directly lying on the bed after work, as evidenced by him who was still wearing his work shirt.

Nara sat down beside Reynand, gently rubbing the cold sweaty handsome face with a loving look. Although Reynand was cruel and heartless, but Nara's heart would never be able to ignore him, let alone at a time like this.

"You must be exhausted" murmured Nara. Already several times he replaced a small towel on Reynand, until the heat in his body had begun to decline, even Reynand was no longer shivering cold.

Nara rubs her waist, feels pain and pain. It felt like he wanted to lie down and rest, but to leave Reynand he was unable to. What if Reynand needs something? What if Reynand wakes up and comes back with a fever? Ah Nara's heart is too weak