Fear of Marriage

Part 9 (wedding is accelerating?)

Part 9 (wedding is accelerating?)

A few days after the incident at the cinema, when our family was having breakfast, papa suddenly started talking

"Sha your marriage is accelerating!"

"What??" I scream in shock

Sure enough, the thing that I was afraid of in this matchmaking was finally really real, whatever else this was, yesterday's proposal alone had made my heart tired, what else was the news of my accelerated marriage.

I was silent for a moment, it felt like my chest was hurting and my breathing was really heavy, shocked, angry, confused, anyway my feelings were mixed, not that papa has also agreed and has said that he wants to give us a long time to know each other.

"Yes sha, Bram is assigned to Africa in a month, so papa and om tyo decide to speed up your marriage with Bram"

"Papa ko that? I haven't told you if I already know and match him, help me explain to papa!"

"Sha, mom can't help you, if you wait to be ready until whenever it will never be 100% ready"

"Why not after he came home from his duties, pa ?"

"Can't sha" papa replied firmly

"Papa why makasa terribly si, Sasa dizzy, for papa Sasa already Nerima this matchmaking, even suddenly a proposal, Sasa just ask for time to know him aja pa"

"Sha, say yes to papa"

"Or don't papa sell Sasa? How much money does Om Tyo have?"

Mama screamed in shock at my presumptuous words

"Sha, mom never taught you to talk sassy same old man"

"Why so, marriage is made into a toy like gini ?? I immediately got up from the chair and went to the office, I was really disappointed at that time, I was also lazy to argue a lot with my parents.

"Sha, please mama we don't really want to force you, but this is the best son" mama spoke while somewhat yelling as I continued walking out regardless of what mama said.

"This drama, what else? Everything was suddenly like gini" I murmured in my heart.

I walked some distance While ordering an ojek online, I really do not want to just stand in front of the house, the situation this morning is very heavy, very emotionally draining.

Early in the morning instead of getting good news, news that makes the spirit, this is the opposite.

Arriving at the office I was not too concentrated to work because of the incident I finally called Bram because I wanted to clarify everything, I also called Bram.

Before calling I had a moment of hesitation but in my mind why doubt, this for the sake of clarity of my own future, I would actually bombard him with a lot of questions, he said, I really don't think that our family will speed up this marriage.

*Ah shit, I really can't concentrate working

What dream did I have last night

Papa same Mama really outrageous*

While holding the phone that was trying to contact Mas Bram, I flailed my head inexplicably, maybe it was one of the overflows of expression of the situation that I was experiencing right now.

"Hallo sha what's wrong?"

"Do not pretend not to know, that means what ko papa said our marriage accelerated?"

"I didn't interfere with that sha"

"You can refuse, if you are tasked to leave the country you just go, I can have a long time to mentally prepare me for this matchmaking"

"Sha I can't refuse"

I didn't have time to ask much because I was annoyed with his words earlier, he also had time to call back but I was lazy to lift it, he said, maybe because he understands my heart situation right now that is messed up he finally did not call me back when the first phone I did not pick up earlier.

"Sha I can't refuse" I repeated Bram's words.

*Can't deny how the guy, so the weak guy is very.

Just saying the wedding is not in a very difficult time

Ahhhhhhhh,, God I have to how*

Because I was upset I immediately turned off the phone and continued calling Ana

"Hallo na"

"What's wrong sha?"

"Gue wants to tell Lo na a little bit"

"Yes my story is horrified"

"Na" my voice trembled

"Why is sha what?"

" So this morning I said that my marriage accelerated because Bram is going to be assigned abroad for another month, I'm confused na"

"Sha Lo calm down first, can you not refuse or look for that alesan?"

"Lo know how I think na, even though he always supported my desire but once he did not agree still disagree, once must ya have"

"Soften how I also can not help, yaudah mending now Lo think again calmly, after Lo knows Bram according to Lo what he is right for Lo what not"

"I just knew him"

"Ah I forgot, elo is the person really hard to know the same person, if I so elo I want to ko same Bram sha hahah, do not nolak sha hard nyari that like"

"Ah Lo same na, I think Lo can help make a solution, uh the same as another, just the beginning of the conversation was Lo seems very serious"

I think by calling Ana can help make a solution, in fact no, even he had time to say that if he was the one who was betrothed he would want to be with Bram, he did know what about Bram.

"Yes how else I understand the feeling of lo, for life aja Lo just experienced dating 24 hours let alone this was immediately told to marry"

"Na, I'm this stress song"

"Don't bring stress sha, free Lo think this hard if ujung2nya lo tetep must mate too, now self-conscious Lo aja, bismillah sha"

"This marriage you know not only want a test that is only an hour and two hours, it's Lo sama2 nyebelin"

"Yaudah sha, don't forget Dateng to my wedding yes, same mas Bram ya hahaha"

"Ana Lo kok that's it"

Ana behaves like that because she knows very well my attitude, no matter how much trouble I experience I will not dare to do the "crazy" thing I always finish with a cold head.

"Nyebelin Lo na, this time I can't sneeze in my problems with a cold head, my head is very hot now****" I murmured inwardly.

After finishing work I finally came home, when entering the house mom and dad were watching television in the middle of the house.

Mama "is she home?"

I didn't answer my mother because I was still very upset about the incident this morning, I went upstairs and went into the room, arriving in the room I slammed my bag into the mattress and sat on the chair facing the chaos.

While looking at my face I muttered "why did I come here at the beginning do not refuse desperately yes?, What do you really do Lo also hope that Bram someday be Lo's husband?, Lo?, Is it because you want to fulfill your desire? I try to think positively about this match.

"After I met bram, he was a good guy, he was also polite, friendly and affectionate parents, he was, si ana is really if he is a dream guy and quite rare can be a guy like that now. But the main problem is just me who is not ready, I'm still afraid to marry this piece, even though I have known for a long time like I'm still afraid to get married"

I talked to myself while facing the glass, and it turned out that my mother heard my talk just now.

"Sha" I was surprised because my mom was suddenly behind me.

"Sha, you can't help me, baby, you know it must be difficult, but how else is your father's will, now you try to open your heart sha! Just think positive, when waiting ready actually mama is not one hundred percent ready, but mama always instill in her mama to be sincere in living the household"

"Ma, but I'm afraid my marriage is failing"

"Suttt, don't talk so sha, a lot of kok who dated long after marriage just for a while,. Mama's sure Bram's a good son of sha"

"But ma". I also hugged my mom.

"May, sorry this morning I said it like that"

"Yes mom and dad understand sha, it's too fast for you"

"You mama as well as you already know if this is too fast for me, why papa and Mama still force ma?"

"Sorry baby, that's your papa's biggest wish"

"But why ma?"

I kept whining for my mother's explanation in detail, but at once she let go of her embrace as papa from below called out.

"Sha, mom is called papa"

"Yaudah"

"Call your mind dear"

"Yes"

I also decided to follow whatever my parents wanted, I was completely confused and lost hope.