Fear of Marriage

part 29 (Is This Missing?)

"Sha" she now looked at my face intently, not feeling any tears falling on my cheek. He rubbed my right cheek gently.

"Why sha? Why cry?"

"I just shook my head"

"I miss you sha"

"I love you"

"Sha, what did you say just now?"

"Oh, emmm"

Where did those words come from, why can't I control my mouth this, ahh shit, now my cheeks are flushed with embarrassment"

"Don't pretend not to be horrified! I'm going home"

He smiled, holding my shoulder.

"I'm strict with you, I really love you, why is it still prestige"

"I just fell silent while lowering my head"

"A-I don't know"

Suddenly Bram hugged me back, a sense of calm and peace again felt in my heart.

"Makasi sha"

"I'm just nodding"

Not a lot of things we said, but a lot of meaning we got.

"Udah dong hugs her, has been waiting for a long time"

Raffi's voice shocked both of us.

"Calculate you've had three minutes of hugs while I'm here"

"Why ffi, I miss the same thing"

"Yes I know, but later I can not, mending now go straight home yes, let cepet nyampe home, so that can be satisfied tuh kangen-kangennya"

"Lu sodara new Dateng just met instead of nanyain tidakan ffi, you also do not want news I Sha"

"Forgotten" was my only answer because I still felt awkward. And immediately go to the parking lot.

In the car I sat in the back with Bram mas, and the journey was quite tiring, I also continued to yawn because it was very sleepy, mas Bram also patted his shoulder.

"Sini Sha just slept, kasian from earlier nguap continue"

Without a second thought I immediately put my head on his back, and wrapped both my hands in his sturdy hands.

"Fate is single" Raffi said up front

"Diem why ffi, Lo should support me so that Shanum can be more than gini"

When sleepy weight I will not care anything, between conscious and unconscious, but I still realize that sleeping on his shoulders is very comfortable, especially when he stroked my head gently, let me be comfortable too. I did not get angry at my mouth because I had failed to say that I love him, in fact I now realize that I really love him.

after a tiring journey we finally arrived, Raffi immediately went home with the reason of giving time to give up longing for the two of us, the boy of this one, know what he is.

"Ffi, go in first gih, have never entered this house, right?" said Bram taught Raffi to stop by.

"tomorrow mas, I want to go home, satisfied aja deh tuh kangen-kenannya"

"good if you understand, yaudah tomorrow here yes, we maen PS together has been a long time"

"okay mas, I'm saying goodbye"

"okay Ffi, be careful" I said simultaneously.

after entering, Mas Bram brought his belongings to the room, when he was going to clean the contents of the suitcase I forbid it

"don't have to finish mas, later just me, mending you clean just keep coming down, I want you masakin"

"okay Shanum dear, Thankyou yes"

"yes"

finished cooking, eating and cleaning it we sat on the sofa of the family room, suddenly Mas Bram called me to get closer to him.

"Sha, over here" patting the chair near her thigh

"what's wrong?" I also approached

suddenly he clasped my hand tightly, then our faces clasped each other.

"Thank you sha?"

"for what?"

"your words at the airport really make me relieved, make me happy"

I just nodded at the confusion of what to behave like.

"let me insist sha, I'm so very much you, we start to organize our lives together huh, i love you Sha"

"love you to"

"the hard dong Sha"

"already ah, ashamed to know"

not many words were spoken, we hugged back tightly, huh why is it so comfortable to be in his arms.

mas Bram looked back at my face, looked at my eyes and rubbed my lips gently.

"Sha, can you?"

despite my lack of experience, I can still catch the point of her question, not a man who treats women properly, even he still asked for permission even though in reality we were both married couples.I just nodded slowly.

our lips meet each other, I close my eyes because there is still a sense of disbelief in what I am currently experiencing.