Fear of Marriage

part 23 (heavy miss)

Counting already one month and two weeks Bram left, it means there are two weeks left to return.

But somehow it feels like this heart is really heavy to hold the distance between me and Bram at this time, it feels like this second also I want to meet him immediately.

Plus after the incident I intensely communicate with mas Bram, even yesterday I had a phone call with him Samapi time tens of minutes, the chatter just flowed.

After I saw how long I talked to him I was shocked myself, I felt like I had never called anyone in my entire life.

Oh my God, is this the sign?

Have I started falling in love?

How could?

This feeling is also very different when I used to be in contact with my first girlfriend.

"Ah, definitely different Shanum" as I hit my head slowly

What if I really fell in love with Bram?

Do I have to admit it?

Would it be embarrassing if I confessed my feelings?

Aaaa, how is this?

Right now I am sitting on the bed leaning my shoulders on the pillow, I am flipping through my phone, I sometimes smile to myself but sometimes I also like a worm that is hot because every time I realize that I am thinking of Bram I feel ashamed of myself.

Today I've called Bram mas twice, somehow I who usually hold the prestige now even miss not stopping, someone always passing by in the illusion, I know, ah sometimes it feels happy sometimes it also feels strange and complicated.

I also reopened the messages that had been sent mas Bram, there was one photo that he had sent, photographed he looked very handsome by wearing a uniform, smiling broadly against the background of the arid ground.

You are so cool to know

Cepetan go home why, I really miss

Anyway the moment you go home later I will be the first person to hug you, I will hug you as hard as possible.

Two weeks was long known

"Geez, what I was thinking just now, for a second, am I really in love with Bram?" I'm talking to myself.

Yes, mas Bram managed to make it difficult for me to fall back asleep, indeed the related thing about him that often makes me difficult to fall asleep lately.

Wait, what if I confess my feelings later he mocks me

Ahhh, love makes you crazy

The phone call suddenly startled me, just heard the tone of the phone was happy, but my pleasure changed suddenly when I found out that the call was not Bram mas, but my best friend Nisa.

"Hallo Nis what's wrong?" I spoke in a lazy tone

"Why did the friend call?"

'to the point aja Nis, what's wrong Lo call me malem-malem kayak gini"

"Yaudah okay, so gini sha, there's a guy with my deketin money, and he keeps getting serious about it to make a relationship, I accept no sha?"

"Well even my name, I don't know whose guy, like how the guy, you know, you know money, you shot anyway, you shot anyway, wrong who does not know if Lo again Deket same guy"

"Casual dong sha, elo do not usually care if I Deket same guy"

"Lo's guy's gonna change Mulu"

"What do I need to do with Shasha?"

"Geez, gini deh, how do you feel the same guy who is now again Deket same Lo? What do you think you've seen so far?"

"Yes, I think he's good sha, but because of the incident yesterday I was so hesitant"

"Well let alone me, I'm more confused Nisa, besides Lo why so soft as to be like the same problem guys, usually also bodo very"

"Yaudah, tomorrow in my office the story is in great detail yes, sorry to bother"

"Okay Nis, I'm horrified, my advice is that you don't rush to make a decision"

"Thanks sha, I'm going to take a bath first bye"

"Eh your buslet at this hour hasn't had a shower?"

"No mood sha"

"Jeez, Nis"

"Hehehe yes, bye"

The conversation with Nisa was my last conversation today, after a few minutes I finally started to fall asleep.