Fear of Marriage

section 13 (wedding day)

I don't know what feeling I'm feeling right now, tense, my body feels weak, anxious anyway this thing happened because tomorrow is my wedding day with mas bram, "huh it feels like I'm on the edge of the abyss right now, calm sha calm do not tense, why does it feel so strange that I have to how this??" I chatted to myself in the room while pacing back and forth.

Tok..tokk sound knocking door, without a second thought I immediately replied.

"Who?"

"It's Cha's mama"

"Like me ma"

When my mom opened the door I hugged my mom and suddenly my tears just came out

"Why do you cry?'

"I am confused ma, how I feel not calm gini from earlier, my body also feels trembling gini ma"

"Learn dear mama also used to be like that, but mama used to not get so much as well as the si" while laughing

"Mas, I'm serious"

"She, don't be too brought stress later you even get sick"

"Huh but I'm having a hard time controlling how I feel now ma"

"Yaudah hugged the old mama let you calm down, this introverted girl mama turned out to be Cengeng as well"

"Review ya ma if say-say papa if I cry kayak gini"

"Yes" smiled wryly again

"Keep me Now how ma, I'm in shock 2 if tomorrow suddenly I'm married"

"You don't have to do anything, you just have to eat now! Let's not get sick, mama brought him here"

"Jaudah makasi ma"

"Yes together, I'm sure this mama's son can definitely overcome all these obstacles"

"Sure ma, it's been done too, hopefully Bram mas the best ma"

"Yes sha"

The anticipated day almost all brides-to-be has arrived, but not with me I feel like I want to keep buying time because I wait for that sense of readiness in my heart, when I was sitting at the dresser suddenly the phone in front of me rang, it turned out to be a mas bram

"Hallo mas"

"Hallo sha, you all right, how are you ready?"

I let out a breath

"Here I just finished makeup, what's up?"

"actually from last night I wanted to call you but was afraid you were busy"

"Yes, keep calling me what's going on"

"Yes no papa dong sha I want to know how my future wife is, tense what is not?" Little laugh

"Kok you can still laugh that way si, as long as you know yes from semalem I was very tense, my body was just shaking tau gak"

"Then the atmosphere was liquid so not to be tense very soon after kabul ijab, but now you are okay right?"

"Yes well, I haven't finished this yet"

"Yaudah until I meet you in front of your penghulu and your papa"

"As for you, I'm still confused about how to behave"

"You are a serious girl who has been very joking"

An hour after the phone, the guy finally came, my cousin Riri told me.

"Sha mas Bram with his entourage already Dateng, relax ya soon you come out"

"Yaudah yes, pray first huh so that the show smoothly, uh be careful Lo until kebele peed later because it is too tense"

"Haha, yes, also yes, just calm ri I have peed earlier, Lo know if I'm tense I like to pee kebelet"

"Well, you laugh, it's good to see"

Outside we heard that the welcoming processions were going on and it was not long before my mother came to my room

"Sha, let's love the process will start"

"Yes ma"

"Come on Riana, you're taking Shanum down"

"Okay Auntie"

"Pray in my heart let your heart calm down" said mama

After going down the stairs I finally arrived at the place of kabul ijab, I swear a long white kebaya and siger typical Sunda mas Bram also wear clothes that match my clothes, when I was about to sit down I just saw that my friends were busy filming me, ana and Nisa were seen waving her hands.

The kabul ijab process began, and what happened was that I felt more tense and when everyone said "legitimate" there it felt like my heart stopped for a few seconds, in a matter of seconds now my status has changed.

After I finished reading the prayer I kissed Bram's hand, and Bram kissed my forehead, huh it felt so embarrassing

After all the process was completed, finally arrived at the shaman process, only a few guests who came because the event was indeed hurried, there were also some relatives of Mas Bram from Jogja who came, and there were also some relatives of the Bram from Jogja who came, papa mas Bram is indeed from Jogja because that's why I call him mas, it's because I'm confused what to call him.

The most moving process is the process of sungkeman, I hug papa mama tightly there, it's hard to hold the tears so as not to come out.

My friends were excited when they wanted to take a picture together

Nisa "OMG, this introvert is already married"

Aditya "congrats yes y'all lasting also marriage"

"Amiin" Bram replied

Reza "answer amiin dong sha how si"

"Gue answered only in my heart"

Nisa" ah it's the best thing for you guys, you are so beautiful know not the same sha makeup is really pangling me"

"Make Nisa's compliments bring my best friend here"

Reza "we have direct photos, I'm laper"

"Huh basic, aji mumpung lu" Nisa snatched

After my friends went to eat, Bram and I sat next to each other without making a sound, as usual Bram finally menguli talks

"Sha I still can't believe you're my wife now"

"Other than me"

"You look perfect today"

Because I feel bad from earlier jutek continued the same mas Bram finally I turned to look while smiling and saying

"You look perfect today too"

"Bismillah yes we start building our little family"

"Yes" and somehow when Mas Bram said like that it felt like I wanted to cry because it was still award.

"sorry, I've been with you all this time"

"yes, you said it too because you don't know me yet"

"yes, I want to know me"

"yes sha together".