Divorced for Poor

Chapter 34. My prayer for my love

"Grandfather, what did Grandpa say?" nathan asked disappointed by his Grandfather's words.

"Nathan, it's not clear what Grandpa said. Only Santy is fit to be your wife. Look, Santy is so beautiful, kind and her education is also high. Most importantly she was still a girl," Grandfather sneered at Lilis.

"Then why didn't Grandpa marry her" Nathan argued.

"You...."

Grandpa was very angry to hear Nathan's words. He felt pain holding onto his chest that made Nathan panic. It turns out Grandpa Edward's heart disease is on its way.

"Grandfather," cried Nathan.

Lilis was silent to see all this like seeing a soap opera drama on television. His eyes were glazed over as a sign that part of his heart was injured. Seeing the debate between Nathan and his Grandfather, making Lilis feel her presence was only making trouble. Especially seeing Grandpa Edward's heart disease relapsed because of this.

While everyone was busy and anxious about Grandpa Edward's situation, Lilis decided to leave. Get out of this house, get out of Nathan's life.

Lilis walks out of Nathan's house and orders an ojek online. After waiting for a while, a motorcycle appeared that he ordered. His steps came to a halt for a moment, when he heard Nathan's screaming voice calling his name.

"Lilis, don't go!"

Lilis just turned her head for a while then she immediately got on the bike that was waiting for her.

"Let's just go, sir," Lilis said regardless of Nathan's call.

"Mas Nathan.." call Santy pretty loud.

Nathan immediately turned back inside the house. Nathan came in hastily and Santy followed.

Goodbye to Nathan. May you be happy, Inner Lilis.

Surrender and retreat, becoming Lilis's current choice. He did not want to force something that could make the hearts of mother and Naina hurt. Love without blessing, is not the goal of Lilis. Lilis wants to protect both mother and Naina, as much as possible keeping her away from any problems that might come after this.

Finally, Lilis arrived home safely. He wiped away the tears that had dripped so as not to be seen by mother and Naina.

"Assalamualaikum," said Lilis greeting when he arrived at the door.

"Wa'alaikum salam" replied Ms. Siti.

"Home home, Lis. How, is everything going well?" ask Bu Siti curious.

"Good, Mom. How is Naina. Is he still angry?"

"Where might he be angry. He's just protesting because you're the only one Nathan's dad invited but he's not. Now he's sleeping."

" Thankfully. Lilis come in first, take a break."

Lilis rushed into her room. He tried to refresh himself and his mind with a bath. After bathing and changing into casual clothes, Lilis prayed and prayed.

O Allah, no matter what happens to the servant, it is the destiny that the servant must live. Give strength and patience to live this destiny.

If indeed he is the soul mate of the servant, the one who is able to become a good priest for the servant, who can make the three of us happy, the servant please bring him to the servant. But, if he is not the soul mate of the servant, keep as far away as possible so that the servant can forget the love in the heart of the servant to him.

The servant realizes that true love belongs only to You, O Allah. Mate, sustenance and death are destinies that we cannot change or exchange.

O Allah, the servant rests and abides only in You.

O Allah, give sincerity in the heart of the servant to let go of what is not the destiny of the servant. Aamiin Ya rabbal 'alamin.

Lilis did not feel the tears dripping slowly, accompanying the chanting of her prayers. He realized that he was not a religious man, he was just an ordinary man who hoped that his prayers would be heard by Allah the All-Hearing.

Lilis was eager to tell her mother about today's events. But she was afraid that her mother would be sad to hear it. So, the safest and best place is to complain only to God.

Lilis did not realize that since then Bu Siti continued to pay attention to Lilis and also felt the sadness of Lilis. As a mother, Lilis' attitude and nature, she had already memorized it. However, he would still wait until Lilis was completely ready to talk to him so as to slightly reduce the burden in his heart.

Naina wakes up around 4pm, and immediately searches for her mother's whereabouts. He walked to Lilis' room in a sleepy condition. Near the dining room, Naina meets Mbah Uti.

"Naina, are you awake? Where you going?" ask Bu Siti slowly.

"Mother."

"Here, grandson of Mbah."

Ms. Siti pulled Naina's hand slowly and invited her to sit on the sofa in the living room. Naina's on the couch.

"Naina's looking for mom?"

"Hmm, where's Mbah Uti?" ask Naina while shaking her mouth.

"Mother is resting. Don't bother me first, will you?" mama Siti answered while stroking Naina's face.

"But Naina wants to take mom's promise. She said Naina would buy a doll if she didn't come along" replied the spoiled Naina.

"When you wake up, will you?" said Ms. Siti tried to calm Naina down.

"Naina, "Lilis' voice raucous after crying in her prayer.

"Mother..."

Naina ran to hug her new strong mother from her room. Lilis immediately held Naina and kissed her gently until it made Naina tickle.

"Mother's son, pretty."

"Mother, amused," said Naina.

"Which phone?"

"Dollies? The one in my mother's embrace is also a doll. So why look for another doll," seduced Lilis.

"Mother, Naina is not a doll. Mother," said Naina scowled because she did not want to be considered a puppet.

"Oh-oh son mom snags. Yes already, Naina is the daughter of the mother who said doll anyway. Who said Naina was a doll?" Lilis pretended to be confused.

"Mother, I told you that Naina is a doll."

"Yes? How could you forget, huh? Well, mom turns out to have a forgotten disease, how is this Naina?" lilis pretended to be panicked.

"Mother, doll" Naina said sulkingly.

"Oh, this mother really has a forgotten disease. Honey, I forgot. Later I buy it, with Naina and Mbah Uti," replied Lilis trying to calm Naina.

"Naina doesn't want to. Naina wants a doll that Nathan's father bought her," Naina said scowlingly.

"Nathan's father forgot to buy a doll."

Lilis feels guilty for Naina. The doll they bought was still in Nathan's car.

I'm sorry Naina's mother lied to you, Lilis' inner self.

"Naina, then buy with Mbah Uti and mother only. Naina can later choose her own that Naina likes. Later Mbah Uti also wants to buy a doll, so that later he can be a friend of Naina's doll."

Lady Siti, who had been quiet since then, started talking to calm Naina down.

"But, Naina has to take a shower first. Take a bath with mom" asked Lilis.

For a long time, Lilis had not bathed the body of her beloved daughter, Naina. This time, while not opening a shop, Lilis wants to take the time to be with Naina.

Enjoying life as a mother and child to be closer. Paid 2 years not with Naina. Although maybe never enough Lilis pay for it.

Not yet had they left, the sound of knocking on the door stopped Lilis' steps. In his heart, he wished that it was Nathan who had come to see him. But soon he lost that feeling. Didn't he try to kill Nathan?

"Let's just open the door, Mom."

Carrying Naina, Lilis walked slowly towards the front door. With mixed feelings, Lilis slowly opened the door.

His eyes were round when he saw who was standing at the door of his house.