A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working

Talak On The Bride's Night

The night had come without anyone to delay, one by one of those who had resigned until leaving us both, a pair of newlyweds who were still overwhelmed with grief.

"You take a shower and pray first, I'll clean up the rest of this mess" Husein said without looking at me, showing that time was 9 p.m

We have not prayed Isya because we are reluctant to leave the guests.

"It's been too late to clean things up, let it go. We can clean it up in the morning" I said to make Husein stop his activities.

It looks like the hotel room that is transformed into a wedding room is not as much as it should be, many floral decorations and gifts - gifts and offerings that Husein brought stacked not in one place.

"Alright, you take a shower first" Pinta Husein told me.

"Yes" I left her and entered the bathroom to do a clean-clean.

After finishing with my bath activities, I sat in front of the nightstand still wearing a kimono towel, looking at myself in front of the dresser with a small towel in hand to dry wet hair.

When I looked up and looked back at the mirror, I saw Husein right behind me, looking at me from the mirror

"I can finally see your beautiful hair" Husein smiled.

Yes all this time I was wearing a hijab, from middle school and when I was close to the twins I never let go.

"I'm done, now you take a shower we will do the prayers of Isya bersama'ah" said I turned to look at Husein who was still smiling at me.

"Jama'ah?" Ask stammered.

"Aren't you my Imam now?" I said back to asking.

"Ah right" replied Husein nodding - nodding his head.

I immediately changed the clothes that Evan had brought since this morning, thank God they brought decent clothes instead of the illicit clothes that I had thought about earlier, I chose an ash-coloured satin silk nightgown that covered my entire body but I let my hair unravel without the hijab covering it.

Husein approached me with the clothes he was wearing, we performed the prayers of Isha congregating solemnly, the beautiful voice of Husein made this heart feel peaceful.

Salam ended our prayers, I took his hand and I kissed him with reverence, Husein offered gratitude and prayers at the end of our prayers.

Kulipat and I keep it on my face-to-face bed that I just wore.

"You want to eat something?"Hussein looked at me sitting on the bed.

"I'm not hungry, sit down there's something I want to talk about" I patted the bed next to me for Husein to sit on.

"What's that?" Answer's approaching.

"Husein you must know this marriage is not the will of both of us, I do not want to burden you with this relationship, I do not want to burden you with this relationship, you can look at me before you register for the Itsbat trial and while waiting I will still serve you as a wife serving her husband but for matters of inner need I apologize, I can't" I said slowly and heartily hoping that Husein could understand what I was saying.

"What are you really thinking!" a firm voice with hardened jaws made me scowl in fear of his fiery gaze.

"Husein we don't have to be together, you can find more women than me.." I'm not done talking Husein has cut it in half screaming.

"Shut up!!" husein said, throwing his face away not wanting to look at me.

"Husein" I said slowly hoping he could soften.

"Husein" Curse her hand hoping she's not angry with what I'm talking about.

"I just want you Humairah, why do you always reject me?" He slowly began to soften as I held both of his hands.

"Hussein but.."

"Shut up!! This marriage is the moment I dreamed of during my life, it's easy for you to ask for talak when only yesterday we got married!" Husein brushed off my hand, his hardened jaw with his clenched hand, explaining that he could no longer hold back.

"Humorah listen well, don't provoke my emotions with this talk again I will never divorce youyou won't be able to leave me, either, the trial of itsbat will remain I propose next month and in the month of your birth we will celebrate the wedding feast" said Husein explained with a sharp look and passed away leaving me.

Which bride on the first night asked for talak like me, Husein actually this is also heavy for me, forgive me.

The night was getting late drowsiness made me unable to keep awake, until I finally fell asleep.

The sound of groans in pain kept me awake, I looked at the phone screen to see what time it was.

"Who is in pain in a blind body?" I looked around I didn't see Hussein in this room.

"Hasn't he back yet?" muttered slowly.

From the window that opened the silhouette of a person clearly visible behind the moonlight, I tried to approach to find out who he was even though I believed it was Husein.

"Husein.." I said slowly

"Aggghhhh.." The groan was clear, he clutched the head of some strands left in his grasp.

"What's up with us?!" I said terrified trying to release the grip of Husein's hand that pulled back her hair.

"Why do you always reject me Humairah what's my fault?" she said her eyes glazed over - the glass was reddened, all the disappointment and sadness was clearly visible in her face.

Husein this is the trauma that you have been feeling because of the abandonment of your loved ones, as much as this is you until the pain in the head is not felt.

"Husein be calm, sit down and calm down" I led Husein by embracing his burly body to the lip of the bed.

After I got the seat I immediately poured some water for me to give to Husein.

"Drink this water" I drink water slowly.

"Now close your eyes, set your breath slowly" I put Husein on the bed and help him to stay calm and comfortable.

"Don't ever leave me, I just want you" he said slowly grabbing my hands and holding them.

"I'm here" I answered with his hand.

"Agh..Husein" Husen grabbed my body until I fell down and fell right on his body.

"Stay like this, I'm comfortable like this" Hussein said without opening his eyes, Husein's regular breathing and rhythmic pacemaker ticking indicated he was much calmer.

Husein if I am not a former person, of course a time like this is something I always wanted with you.

We also fell asleep in a position to hug each other with me bearing Hussein's arm.