A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working

A statement that shames the chest

The heartache that hurt, can't make me say anymore. Soon I asked Mas Ardi to take us home.

"I'll go home, Mas, pity the dede already sleepy." I reasoned to my husband.

"Mother, is Adam in Grandma's place? tomorrow there will be no online school." Pinta my eldest son, with a bit of compassion.

"Mas can nginep, but don't be naughty, don't bother Grandma. Mas do not ask for snacks continue, Mbah has not worked. Play also do not go far, inget time to pray ya Mas." My advice as I rubbed our first child's thick black hair. Don't forget, I kissed her forehead.

I want to go home soon, all the annoyance I feel right now. Makes me unable to linger at the home of Ardi's parents as my in-laws. Arriving at home, Mas Ardi immediately left again.

"Where else, if not to the home of his parents, mas Ardi could never stay for long in a house that is more worthy of being called this hut"

After putting my baby to sleep, in the silence of the night the pain reappeared. It was clear, said Mas Ardi said.

"I don't want to work the deck anymore, Mas has cape. If you want, you'll work!"

It feels like this chest pain, why until his heart said so. In fact, there is still me and two children as his dependents.

My first son, Adam, just got into second grade. After the holidays, I had to buy an Lks book as a study guide. One package, it can range from two hundred thousand more.

Since Mas Ardi got a PHK two years ago, he has always refused to find a new job. There were many vacancies, offered to him. But he never flinched.

Until I caught my breath, and asked my two in-laws for help to persuade him to, he wanted to take the opportunity.

Instead of complying, he made a statement that made my eyeballs round. I was wide-eyed and in pain in the chest, hearing his explanation.

"I don't want to work the deck anymore, I'm already cape. If you want you to work."

How can I face our lives in the future, as long as Mas Ardi does not work we are helped by his parents for daily needs such as rice and other basic food.

Even if his parents have more sustenance.

But for unexpected expenses such as school fees, pay electricity dues, or sick children I dare not complain, borrow or ask though.

" O God, what should I do.."

I still have tears in my river cheek lying if I am not hurt, lying if I am not angry. By reason of tired he is the same as having taken off the hands of our lives.

She is only 35 years old this month and has no history of any illness.

He deserves to give such a reason.

I could have been looking for a job, but what about my baby Rashid she still needs ASI but if I don't work how can I finance my kids.

If I didn't have a baby, maybe I'd have been here and there looking for any job while it was still halal.

In a fear I looked up to see the rope used in the Rasyid swing that was no longer used.

The rope dangled as if waving and saying.

" Just end your life, this world is too cruel. Even your husband I don't care about you guys."