A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working

Evan's Feelings

This afternoon we leave for the holiday city is over, now is the time to do activities as usual.

In the car I saw Adam cheerful as before, he told me how his day off he spent riding a horse with the idol Ust Husein.

"Son, it looks like Adam really likes Hussein" said Mr. Slowly beside me.

"Just by looking at his face, everyone already knows the truth" said I'm annoyed, I'm still annoyed with the behavior of Husein who always teases me by calling me jandaku he is very annoying.

"Hahaha.. are you upset with her?" I laughed when I heard my words.

"Of course, he shamelessly called me his widow, the man who is not ashamed of it does he not think that he is an Ust!" I said emotionally.

"Indri don't be like that, he's like that because he loves you so much, he even tries hard to get close to the little Rashid who is not used to new people" said the Father advising me subtly

"But sir." said I whine, Husein is annoying even I can't scold him when the guy is not around.

"Indri be nice to him a little, he waited for you almost 9 years, you also heard he has never been in a relationship with another woman since you were married" my father told me that made me quite surprised to hear it.

"The father also feels guilty to him and to you for your side.." You've been glazed - the glass remembers everything that's happened.

"Not all the destiny of our lives no one knows, maybe it should have been like this, Indri never regretted the destiny that Allah outlined for Indri, Indri, the existence of this destiny makes Indri become stronger and more grateful" I hug the proud old man I try to give confidence that I am good - fine.

"Thank you for not hating Mr. Nak" was warm when Mr. kissed the top of my head channeling affection.

"Father hope you mate someday" said the father who made me stunned.

"Sir I feel unworthy of him, he deserves a better companion than me, a woman who is still a girl not a mother of two" I explained my doubts and shortcomings.

In addition, his extended family does not necessarily like me who is now like this, when I was a girl they did not want me, especially now, now, where there are parents who want to marry their only child with a widow of two children.

"Indri I still love you." said Evan looking at me from the reflection of the front rearview mirror,

Silent created.

Instantly the atmosphere in the car felt lonely and awkward.

"I wouldn't be willing if there are men close to you, I'd be sure I'm better than them" he continued.

"But, not if he competes with Husein, he's too perfect for me to rival, be happy with that perfect man he deserves a tough woman like you" I dreamt again with a perfect smile turned to me who was sitting right behind the steering wheel.

"Son.." said Mr. Slowly.

The wheels of the car continue to spin and speed down the streets of the capital that is already visible in the eyes, the feeling of stuffy and hot feels attached when the time shows daylight.

Evan pulled over the car he was driving in front of the tiny house that had been my shelter from the heat and rain.

The place where me and the children were joking, where we slept in the cruelty of the life we had experienced, now the pain would turn into happiness in every corner.

I promise to meet every need from now on, the ability and persistence I have will be a shield for us to look to a future filled with laughter.

One by one we got out of the car that Evan was driving in, the father brought me a big bag of mine, while all were sitting on the front porch of the house I prepared a fresh drink with a few chunks of ice cubes in it.

"Father will return to the city of Bandung, there is something you have to finish first, Mother and Evan will stay here for two days do you mind Nak?" my father asked my decision

"Of course not, but please be informed if you sleep anywhere" I replied chuckling softly, I can not promise the luxury of all that is in me is not far from the simple word, simple, and I don't want people to expect more of what I have.

"True sir, we forgot the important thing" said Mother patting her forehead slowly.

"What?!" Ask the confused.

"Ish this Mr, Indri may I renovate this house to make it look wider, I see behind there is still empty land a few meters how?" Ask Mom.

Behind the house there is an empty land a few meters, the empty land is usually used for drying clothes and playing Rashid so that it is still within my sight when I do homework.

"But Ma'am..?" I said objection, I do not feel filial to my aunt, do I deserve help from her.

"Your house is only a semi-permanent building, like your grandchildren if it rains big, they must be cold" said Mother, showing the concern and sincerity of a grandmother to her grandchildren.

"All right, ma'am, but on one condition" I said smiling mischievously

"What's that?" Mom and Evan were curious about the terms I proposed.

"Mother's help will I consider a loan and later when I pay it Mother has no right to refuse, how do Mother and Father agree?" I chuckled softly when I saw Mother's face that looked sour like it was upset holding back the anger.

"Indri if there is a mother who calculates with her child? why are you so mean, I just want to give you a little help but you take it as a loan" said mother pursed her lips to look at me.

"Our daughter's mother was like that from childhood, she will refuse all help in the form of just - just" said the father explained, I do not want to owe, I do not want to owe, I'm afraid that someday I won't be able to pay it back.

"Alright, I agree even though I have to" said I'm upset.

"While your house is renovated we can rent your friend's house at the end of the road there that he rented" said the father pointed to one of the houses not far from my home environment.