A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working

The Strange Love

For a month now I have accompanied and befriended Husein more closely, we became best friends as well as during High School even though we did not have love.

Every day met see his smile, his loose laughter and his powerful attitude able to make a numb heart tremble again, the sense it was still there even though I often diverted.

This heart aches when the feeling I am experiencing cannot be explained, although I know very well this feeling he will welcome with joy.

Realizing how my current status is, it makes my confidence and self-esteem fall - a fall, not to mention seeing his family who don't like me.

Maybe we were destined to meet just to be friends not to have each other as lovers, the more mature a person the more complicated in interpreting their feelings the many elements to be seen and considered.

Not when we are teenagers and rely only on a burning feeling in the chest, as long as we both like relationships will occur.

"What passion are you thinking?" Said Husein surprised and disperse all the daydreams and misfortunes I experienced.

"I daydream you" answered my sweet smile staring at the face that had been suspending her love for me even though it was unrequited.

"I? what'sthat?" His question approached until there was almost no distance between us

"Due to your attitude, I only think about how if you marry later, which poor woman will have bad luck" I said stammered.

Getting treatment that makes me awkward with the eyes of each other makes me immediately turn my gaze toward the crowd of restaurant customers who filled the room when the time had shown lunch.

Restaurant in the middle of the hustle and bustle of the city with a row of offices around it, making office workers can enjoy their free time here, with the traditional feel of this place is an option for lunch together or just meet colleagues, the cool atmosphere of a beautiful place is also the accompaniment of typical degung music of pasundan makes the atmosphere feel comfortable for anyone who wants to release fatigue.

We are not just here for lunch together, the restaurant owner is one of the colleagues who will cooperate with Husein, they ask Husein to supply vegetables, vegetables, and, spices - spices and other kitchen spices.

Seeing the development of Husein who set up his own company made a sense of admiration I always lay when I looked at him.

"Curtain, and that poor woman must be you!" Her reply was fiercely staring at me.

"I cannot possibly have such a prolonged misfortune, I will pray in the third of the night so that it does not happen" I chuckled softly.

"Why?" her question was curious with a prying look

" You will definitely continue to stick and whine every day, now you whine just because you want to have lunch with me" I answered fixedly staring at the food available in front of me.

Husein and I are now enjoying a special pasundan food with a green rice field and a freshwater fish pond that is quite spacious, and, this afternoon he forcibly picked me up who was still struggling with all the work in the salon, but after seeing all the beauty of this place it felt like I would be a little generous and forgive him.

"True you will certainly be in trouble, now not married I'm like this what if later" he said asserting my lament with a furious look.

"Call right?!" My words made sure that by pursing my lips ended with a slow chuckling laugh.

"Want to feel it? what if now I ask you to marry me forcibly so that your fantasy becomes real" he replied furious.

"Hehehe.. The food is good, have you been here before?" said I divert the conversation by feeding the grilled fish that had been seductive.

"Humairah" said Husein lirih

"Yes?" I replied to look at Husein, at once our eyes whistled, I looked at the last handsome face - the end is always disturbing my mind.

"Do you really not want to marry me?" Ask pilu.

"Husein" I said slowly.

"Don't everyone approve of our relationship?" Her question grabbed my hand and held it.

"Husein" I said.

"Is that feeling no longer there?" She asked again, looking at me with eyes full of sadness.

"Or maybe you still love her?" Say again.

"It's not like that." I looked down somehow I had to break this good guy's heart.

"Is it another man?" ask him again to make sure.

"Have you ever seen a man other than yourself around me? I can even guarantee that you'll find out before I know it" I said a little annoyed at letting go of his hand.

"What lounge?" I saw him as desperate.

"I'm more comfortable on my own, I just want to live with my two children, that's all I don't want anything else" I said, all of them hoping that Husein would understand my decision.

"Didn't you grant Adam's request to want me to be a father?" Husein's question immediately surprised me, it was true Adam wanted Husein to be a father, he continued, even long before I divorced Mas Ardi, the figure of Hussein who is able to fill the emptiness of the father figure in Adam's heart makes Adam dare to ask directly for Husein to be a father he continued.

"You know what??" I said surprised.

"Yes" replied Husein firmly.

"Hoseein would you be happy if I wanted to judge you on the basis of the interests of children not because I want it" I said.

"I wish you all wanted me" he replied.

"I just want to always make you happy" he said again.

"Blessing me doesn't have to make you my husband, just that you want to be friends and just happy that I'm happy" I replied, I can't accept all your race without his blessing.

"But my happiness lies with you and I want you completely" said Husein clenched his hands on the table furiously half-stomping.

Getting Husein's treatment I realized this was the limit of his patience, I had to make room for him so that he could calm down.

"Husein, finish this talk I'll go back to the salon you don't need to drive me, thanks for lunch" Aaku resigned saying he couldn't go on.

"Humairah..!!" husein shouted to make another room consisting of saung-sauung gazebo pay attention to us.

"Have finished? Abi and Buyukbaba just arrived, isn't it impolite for children to leave when new parents come?" When the middle-aged man stopped me from coming out of the freshwater fish pond area, Abi seemed to take a deep breath when he saw Husein in anger behind me.

"Bukubaba?" said I stammered.

"Yes, Ummi is there, they are still in front of the car park so sit back" Abi said staring at me nodding his head slowly as if begging me to follow him.

"Ah..Good Abi" I said.