A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working
The Restu I Miss
An awkward and tense feeling enveloped my current feelings, the five of us sat in the area of Lesehan restaurant with a long table as a separator.
Husein, Abi and Buyukbaba were in front of me while Ummi was sitting next to me, the three men seemed to be intimidating me because of a mistake that I did not know what it was.
I occasionally glanced at Ummi looking for answers to the situation I was in right now, but Ummi only smiled faintly and turned his gaze in any direction.
"What made Husein scream to call you?" Asked Buyukbaba looking at me sharply.
"We're just at odds.." I'm not done yet I replied that Husein had interrupted.
"She doesn't want to marry me, is the answer satisfactory to you?" Said Husein staring at Buyukbaba furiously
"Husein where are your manners!" snapped Abi looked at Husein nyalang.
"Why courtesy with the person who always wanted to rule my life?" Said Husein with a faint smile as if softened.
"Is your love more precious than family ?" asked Buyukbaba looking at Husein and I took turns.
"Yes" replied Husein firmly staring at me
"Husein" I said softly, I don't want this family to be divided just because of me, I've been struggling I've been succumbing for their good.
"I will continue to get her married until she wants to even if you never approve, I am a man who does not need a guardian" Husein said loudly
"Joseph!" I said half-screaming, what's wrong with her? why is it like this, I should not be in a relationship with him anymore even though I am just friends.
"Humairah, I'd better take you home" Husein woke up and pulled my wrist
"But." I woke up in confusion, somehow calming these three men.
"We bless you" said Buyukbaba suamah with a long breath, as if he had just decided on the toughest decision of his life.
"What?!" ask Hussein not to believe.
"Why? Is this just common sense - just your wits?" ask Hussein again.
A series of questions also came to my mind, what makes them able to bless us?
"From the beginning it wasn't you who was meant to take care of Buyukbaba's company, losing Hasan made us push you too hard, we made you accept the fact that as the sole heir who should continue the family business" Abi's words made Husein and I sit back to listen to their explanation.
"We know we are too selfish, the responsibility we give does not make you mature and accept it, it even makes hurt and tormented because of parting with Indri" Said Abi as if sorry he occasionally looked down and looked at my face.
"Because it felt unfair Husein left the company and ignored it suffered a huge loss even to the lucky bankruptcy of Abi and Buyubaba can overcome it, seeing here you can set up your own company at the time we realized that we've been making mistakes all along" said Ummi grabbing my hand and grasping it the look of the middle-aged woman's eyes as if full of regret.
"As you said, without our blessing you can definitely marry with your same status - your own, but can you consider us as family again? the loss of Hasan still makes Ummi lonely what else if you have to lose Husein too" said Ummi Lirih accompanied by a small sobbing coming out of his mouth.
"Husein, all this happened because my selfishness had nothing to do with your parents, I was the one who asked your Abi to bring me together with Indri and cut off your relationship, if you want to get angry and vent it you can hate me" Buyukbaba said with regret
"Are you sure you're not playing me?" Husein looked at Abi and Buyukbaba, there was a clear anger on his face.
"Indri forgive us" Abi said with glazed eyes - glass with sadness.
"Husein can you be more calm, if you're still angry like this I'll go and not talk to you anymore" I'm upset to see Husein's treatment of her family.
"Fair but.." replied Husein softened.
"Don't I have a right to be angry here too? but did you see me as arrogant as you?" I said to give her a bad look.
"Good" replied Husein, turning his eyes to every direction.
"Even with just words you can calm Husein, it turns out that she loves you" said Buyukbaba chuckled softly at Husein's behavior.
"I have forgiven you all, I understand and understand all your mistakes, thank you for blessing us honestly this blessing is something I really miss but sorry I still can not accept Husein's proposal, Husein said, Husein deserves a good girl instead of a widow with two children like me, I do not want with the label that I have today to make her distress even embarrassed someday" said I explained, this blessing is what I miss but you deserve someone who is more everything than me.
"You're excited to start again." said Husein emotionally.
"Husein marry the woman you love one day I will be happy to welcome her but not with me" my sincere smile gave her as a sign that I was sincere with her.
"Son.." said Ummi, grabbing my hand
"I'm sorry Ummi, if this blessing comes when I'm not married I would be happy to accept it, but I have no regrets about the path of destiny that God has given me I am very happy to have Adam and Rashid at this time" said I pacified Ummi welcomed his warm hand.
"They needed the figure of Nak's father and Husein could give it" Ummi's words just now made me realize, yes it's true that all but I felt unworthy of him.
"I know, I am even very sure my children will be happy when they get a father figure like Husein, Adam even bright - light asking Hussein as a father continued" I replied softly, laughing, so that no tears were dripping down my cheeks, it was an emotionally draining decision.
"Why did you reject him?" ask Ummi curious.
"I just want to be alone as their single parent" I replied briefly, I should leave immediately otherwise I would cry and shake my own decision.
"Son." said Ummi
"I'm sorry I've been out for too long, I have to go back to the salon to check on the work I left, thanks for the meeting this time I say goodbye" I grabbed Ummi's hand, Abi and Buyubaba alternately endured it with reverence.
"Assalamualaikum" I smiled and left them looking disappointed in their faces.
"Waalaikum hail, Husein how is this.." Ummi looked at Husein anxiously as he watched me pass by and leave.
