A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working

Black Above White

At the table all gathered together, after finishing breakfast my Father-in-law told everyone to sit quietly in their own place.

"Ardi is there anything you want to say before you go down the stairs?" Ask Father

Mas Ardi just kept his head down once in a while he kept his head staring at me.

"Quick say !!" said the Father breaking the table with sharp eyes staring at Mas Ardi

"Ma-afs.. Forgive me, I did it unconscious, I was drunk sorry I hurt you, I promised I would never do it again forgive me" he said, bowing his head.

"I want to split up!" My words were resolute My eyes flashed a deep hatred, after everything he had done so easily he apologized.

If he was indeed upset by the matchmaking that his master's people had done why didn't he try to resist it? I also do not want if I have to have a husband who is rude and often flirting like, who should be angry here is me, I have been kind enough to accept this matchmaking roomy, this matchmaking, I even gave up my youth to serve as a wife, I was only 18 years old when I should have pursued my education in college instead of satisfying the lust of being the wife of an arrogant and rude man.

"Do you think well, son?" Mother asked subtly, Mother must have realized here her son was wrong so she couldn't possibly forbid me to separate

"I'm sure Ma'am" I said, with all the injuries I could get it would be very easy to file a divorce suit.

"Don't indri, I'm sorry.. I promise I won't do it again, last night I just got out of control for consuming high doses of alcohol" Mas Ardi rested on my legs, I could even see if he meant it - really.

"You can apply any requirement as long as there is no word divorce between us" he said

"I'm sorry but my resolve was that this marriage was wrong from the beginning, and here I'm the only victim, just me!" I said firmly I do not want to be swayed by his compassionate attitude

I stood up and walked towards the room trying to end it all.

"But what if you're pregnant? wasn't last night your fertile time?" mas Arya's words stopped my steps.

Whahuh? how does he know if last night my fertile period, ah right at the wedding is when I experienced the moon coming and I just a few days this is over, damn it.

"Why should?" I asked her to turn my body to her eyes

"Son, you can't get divorced while you're pregnant" said Mother slowly.

"Did you set me up on purpose?" Ask me angry.

"Your son is in a state of emotion, now restate first we will talk again" said the father calmed me

"What if we wait until next month if it turns out you're pregnant, you can't file a divorce suit but if you're not pregnant I'll let you go" Mas Ardi said

"Well, but for a month you can't touch me, I'll sleep in the guest room" I went by with a pissed-off face, hopefully I'm not pregnant.

I lay in the patient's bed, the nurse pulled off some clothes to reveal my flat stomach, the midwife gave me a cold gel on my stomach she turned around the fetal heartbeat detector above my stomach.

"The baby is healthy, ma'am, we can hear clearly the sound of his heartbeat" said the midwife as soon as my tears escaped, dashed all my hopes to part with him.

"So I mean My wife's midwife is pregnant?" Mas Ardi asked enthusiastically, hearing Mas Ardi's words I raised a look of hatred because he freely called me his wife, the speech sounded like a sharp object that pierced my ears.

"Did you not know that yet?" Ask Bu Midwife

"We are here to find out because my daughter-in-law this month is late for the month" said Mother reasoned

"Well Mother must have loved her daughter-in-law very much, as long as I was a midwife I never met a pregnant woman who was delivered by her husband's family, if only her husband was not a strange thing to me" The midwife laughed softly

"When was the last time you had your period?" ask the Midwife

"About a month ago Madam Midwife" I replied

"It could be the current gestational age of about one month, for more details prospective mothers can do ultrasound to ensure the age of the fetus and Estimated Lahiran Day, this is a vitamin and blood-boosting tablets, for example, try not to stress and do work too heavy age is still very vulnerable" said Bu Midwife handed me some vitamin sheets and tablets added blood

Arriving at home I sat listless with what I just knew, there was a fetus in my stomach, not a fetal case that I regret only the mother who is not good at complaining because of her pregnancy, not the mother who is not grateful for her, I just don't want to continue this marriage, I wouldn't even mind being a widow in pregnancy.

"Whether you should be able to accept all of this, son, divorce is something that God hates most, give us the opportunity to take care of our grandchildren who are still in your womb" she said, He even glazed over - the glass held back his tears.

"I want black over white, I want a deal to protect me and my baby-to-be, I won't accept any excuses if you don't want to"

I said trying to calm down even though from the trip home earlier I had withstood the frustration of knowing I could not part with Mas Ardi, I prefer to hold back my emotions for fear that my frustration was bad for the little guy

"I don't want the incident the other day to repeat itself and be fatal to my fetus" my timpal again

"Well, what's the deal you want?"

Tanya Mas Ardi

"The contents of the agreement is if you commit domestic violence and have an affair then at that time I am entitled to divorce without a word of appeal from your side" I said with emphasis.

"Alright I agree, I will hire a notary so that this agreement has strong laws to make you calm" said Mas Ardi

"Can I hold your stomach?"mas Ardi asked both his eyes to look at this still flat stomach.

"No, I want to never force myself and put me under pressure"