A Man's Self-Esteem Is Working

Caring for Hussein

I invited Ummi.kebah Cafe in the middle of the suburbs with a beautiful garden atmosphere, after ordering drinks now a sense of tension enveloped me.

We faced each other without knowing what would happen next, the breeze of the afternoon made the cold feel like a sharp prick that hit the body.

"Um-mi, how's Husein doing?" I ventured to open my voice first after a long awkwardness.

"What do you want to hear?" Ask Ummi flat

"What did you do to him?" Ummi asked again with teeth chattering and a hardened jaw holding back anger.

I just fell silent, I did not want Ummi to also know behind my decision to leave Husein at that time, not to be blamed but I don't want to lose the chance to meet Husein and find out how she's doing even for the last time.

"Not quite satisfied are you hurting him, if indeed you can not welcome his love at least do not hurt him" said Ummi staring at me sharply.

"Did you know when he was educated in Cairo he was depressed because of you? he even had to be transferred to Istanbul Turkey to get special treatment because of the depression he felt as well to remove any traces if one day he had to bear the shame?" his lips trembled as he recounted all the bitterness that Husein had felt the two eyes were already glazed - glass and reddened.

"Um-mi.." I said softly, stammering, I do not know where to start talking from when Ummi continued to throw arrows - sharp arrows that made my eyes round in surprise can not believe also more and more hurt because of the wrong feeling.

"Please do not hurt Hussein again, only remains he who Ummi had after the departure of Hasan he bore too much burden and expectations of his grandfather" said Ummi sobbed - sob accompanied by crying, crying, the tears that he had been holding back from earlier finally shed as well.

"Ummi can't watch him continue to suffer like this, Ummi can't afford Indri anymore" said Ummi softly sobbing - sobbing even though both hands he had used to cover the look of his face that radiated deep sadness.

"Ummi.." I reached into his two hands hoping that he could calm down and be able to listen to my words a little.

"If Husein does not have the opportunity to be your companion, please do not give him hope away from him, avoid him even if you accidentally cross paths, assume you never know him" Ummi opened his palms that covered his face, he wiped away the remaining tears that were still falling creeks on both cheeks.

"Husein is too weak for his childhood love, if he continues like this do not open the heart to establish a relationship with other women, to survive alone is not possible" said Ummi weakened, here I look so bod*h why I could hurt that heartfelt man.

"Male minds may look strong when doing anything but not with failure in their love, they are much more fragile than us women, she said, they will be destroyed when his true love is not welcomed let alone get disappointed" Ummi began to wander and want to talk as usual.

"So please stay away from Husein" he said again.

Stay away Husein?

After this guilt and realizing that Husein's sincere love for me was so great that I could leave her, I did feel unworthy to be his companion but could not be friends or friends, he said, I don't want to let go like this.

"Um-mi, I will stay away from her at Ummi's request but let me meet her even for the last time" seeing Ummi pleading, finally this sentence came out of my mouth, although the tightness was so felt but I did not deserve to be close to Husein he above the word good, he was too perfect.

"Alright, but never renege on your promise" said Ummi asserted.

"I promise Ummi" I answered nodding my head.

After our conversation at the caffe, Ummi brought me to her house, a house that as a teenager became a place to play and learn along with the cymbals Hasan and Husein.

This building is still sturdy with the color of paint and furniture that is still the same when I was a teenager nothing has changed, I feel like passing through the passage of time back to the times when we were always together.

"Sit down, Ummi will see Husein's condition first" said Ummisaat we were in the middle room of this house.

Ummi climbed the stairs and then walked towards Husein's room, I walked slowly closer to the living room's ornamental table attached to the wall.

There are photos of the twins, ranging from those born, toddlers, children to teenagers when they first entered High School.

A beautiful smile was created when I remembered those times, times when we had no burdens of life, the heaviest stress of the time was just a test not of how gas felt, rice and electricity run out at the same time.

"Indri" said Ummi from behind my body.

"Ah yes Ummi, what is it?" I said surprised

"Follow a minute" Ummi turned around and started leaving me.

I arrived in a room filled with books neatly lined up on shelves, this room was like a mini library.

"Indri introduced this Doctor Aslan, he was the one who had been handling Husein while in Istanbul" said Ummi introduced a tall, strapping white man, a little sideburn that made an attractive impression with the posture of an outsider.

"I am Indri" said I introduced myself without giving a helping hand to shake.

"Aslan" answered her with a sweet smile.

"I finally met you" he said with a chuckle.

"There's something Doctor Aslan wants to say" Ummi said flatly as he was uncomfortable as Doctor Aslan continued to stare at me with a smile on his face.

"Miss Indri is concerned with the health of the young master, so far I have never found a complicated case like the one suffered by the young master, I do advise the young master to take a class on the person or cause that makes him feel depressed and it is better if the pressure he can deal with it that way then slowly he will get used to it and feel it it will decrease by itself" said Dr. Aslan at length explained.

"What lounge?" Ask me a curious.

"Typically patients will refuse if I suggest it that way, because a sense of distress will make them fall even deeper, he said, but seeing the case of the young master he was even more excited every time he met you even though the cause of all this was you" explained Doctor Aslan told his astonishment.

" Is this good news?" Ummi asked she was so worried.

"Yes, it should be like that, I hope Miss can help take care of Mr. Husein when he returns, but do not give hope that can make him fall back, make him your friend and patient" The doctor's words made me re-awaken with all the sins I committed.

"But.." I was afraid to hurt her again.

"I'm not sure yet but I think the presence of Miss is not a cause and a threat to young Master" said Doctor Aslan reassured.

"Good Doctor I'm willing" I said, although still hesitating.

"Now go into his room invite him to talk, remind him to eat and do not forget the medicine" said the doctor instructed me to enter Husein's room.

"Okay Doctor" I replied slowly passing away.