YOUR LOVE BROUGHT ME HOME

Epsom.79

The boundary between hate and love is very thin, Bagas' explanation incised a considerable wound in my heart , it's hard for me to dress the wound I really hate it so much while the love I've been pouring never goes out and just disappears.

flashbacks

Bagas stopped his car on the path right on a plantation.

There are no vehicles that pass by (the name is also the garden ya Khan sorry author mangkin g clearly hehehe😆) even someone who passed home from the garden may be because it was raining, it was raining,a while we were silent to each other only the sound of heavy rain was strong enough and my sobs were still left.

Bagas clasped my body into his arms trying to calm me down.

Bagas pursed his lips with mine I tried my hardest to dodge but my strength was outdone by Bagas who had now dominated my body he immediately removed the seatbelt and rewinded my bench, one by one the buttons of my shirt were released and now my body is only covered inside aka naked.

My sobbing stopped changing our breaths which were as heavy as ever......

skip aja aja aja aja

Our activity ended with a high shrill, after a while of silence in the position still hugging we immediately put on clothes back and the bagas grabbed and kissed my hand.

"I'm sorry dear I promised not to see you again, I felt heartless at that moment because it looked serious on her face, she still loves you, give her a chance for the second,go back to your husband"

"What do you mean after what you just did is now willing to tell me to take it back, do you consider my heart a toy?" my sarcasm my cry broke again Bagas again grabbed my hand but I managed to pull it off.

"I'm not just a darling but I love you too" Bagas said and looked at me.

"Why should you ask me to come back to him after what we've been through for so many years" I said, hesitating.

"As a fellow man there is something I can't possibly tell you dear" Bagas said in a deep breath.

"Bullshit" I said emotionally.

"It's up to you, for while we can't get to see each other often, and I hope we still keep in touch as usual when we miss each other we can still greet each other over the phone" said Bagas with an emotionless face impressed angry with the words I just said.

After that for almost 1 hour there was no talk between us until we returned to the cafe area Bagas put both hands on my cheeks our eyes clashed against each other I let go of Bagas' hand and then immediately getting out of his car, looking back at him, I immediately passed from before him I drove my motorbike at high speed, tears dripping back on my cheeks.

Tonight is the same as the nights yesterday, in the corner of this room I was chained with longing and was overcome with disappointment so deep, the beautiful memories I had with Bagas made me really slumped, love is destroying me.

In the desolate valley of the uninhabited I cumbui longs the endless yet longs never to take root like myself who cannot touch his shadow again.

I can't afford to be in this situation any longer, there's no certainty from Bagas about our relationship that has been in place for quite some time, I became a very different person I started to hate myself I hated everything and even I started to blame fate, destiny that brought us back together and finally fate that came back to separate us.

I was so tired that I thought about ending my life but my plan was delayed, my eldest daughter started to get suspicious of my attitude and mannerisms and for tonight my eldest daughter chose to sleep with me for various reasons I deliberately let her keep my daughter from getting suspicious.

I woke up when I heard the chants of sacred verses that sounded from the middle room, I got up out of bed I was stunned to see my daughter from behind my door there was not a single tear falling on my cheek I was angry to see it all.

I spread a long prayer rug that I have never touched I protested to the creator I began to argue with Him I vented all my frustration until dawn said hello,I was never satisfied to continue chatting to Him this situation continued but my heart was still overwhelmed with anxiety,I began to meet the creator through my night of remembrance and tahajud in my last bow I sought His answer to what I had been through.

I slowly tear in the frame of sincerity and accept all the destinies of the almighty I rise up and stand tall from the pounding storm that hits and destroys my life.

Gradually I began to release with sincerity, I never blamed love, it was all my own fault that put my love wrong.

I began to organize my life and now it feels so beautiful I found peace in my life even though my love never faded for Bagas until now, until now, I tried to pull over from Bagas' household life by not making contact in any way.

At a beautiful dawn still the same atmosphere on a different day, I awoke from my sleep when I heard the purest drum that cleared the hearing of each other's utter disdain, especially if it is not the chanting of the creator's sentence through the chimney - a large chimney that sows, I immediately got out of bed to immediately take the water of ablution I rested before Him who had given me true peace a sense of never lying.

Still in the rest of the beautiful dawn reflection I looked up at the sky, the moon still peeked as if smiling at me.

Cool like a beautiful besuta like silk, the morning breeze hit my skin like a mane of the multatuli, the song of birds sounds so melodious "whichever delicacy I'm lying about" I whispered softly.

Now that I have peace in my solitude my heart has calmed down what happened yesterday is a very valuable lesson for me God's plan is very beautiful, it turns out this is the way God asked me to return, to return,only His love has not betrayed, thank God and forgive me for ignoring you.

I hugged my two sleeping daughters as I realized that the clear grains were soaking in my cheeks for the first time I cried out of happiness, God still gave me the opportunity to see the beautifully carved smiles of my two daughters' lips.

Day after day has passed since then I have begun to draw closer to the creator, thank God your love that finally brings home to the base of the road.

\#Thank you author say to raiders who are always loyal to provide support during this time who do not bs author mention one by one.

and mhn the same support my different narrated "lover revenge \#🙏🙏🙏

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