
The day seemed still dark, I rose from my bed leaving the cold that was all night with me through the quiet and dark night.
I opened the window of the room gusts of wind on my face heard the sound of chickens crowing each other, I immediately went to the bathroom and cleaned myself, my body felt fresh.
I heard the sound of my children in the kitchen preparing breakfast, I immediately set foot into the kitchen, with smiles on their lips as they looked at me.
"Mother's for"
"Dear, cook what's this again"
"Fried rice bun"
I sat down at the dinner table sipping the warm coffee that was available on the table,
"Oiya bun all the kitchen needs are running out, mama shopping this morning right?" said scrolling I nodded my head.
"Follow it bun" said the sister
"May" said I who greeted my daughter's glee.
"Then brother also joined dong bun" said the eldest again - again I nodded.
After finishing my breakfast with my two daughters immediately went to the traditional market in my city, today the market is so crowded because it is Sunday.
"Hi Lin" someone patted me on the shoulder from the side while I was busy choosing the staple, I immediately turned my head.
"Hai Rit how are you" I replied a little surprised because I did not expect to meet an old friend
"Alhamdulillah as you see Lin" I'm fine"
"Where have you been all this time?"
"I live in the city x Lin" and now I'm visiting my parents' house.
Briefly we chat at length and exchange hp numbers.
"Oiya Lin" we will contact - contact yes, I happen to have finished shopping and if there is free time do not forget to stop by my parents' house ok" said Rita
"Sip" I replied with a smile.
Soon passed leaving me who is still busy shopping, Rita is one of my SD friends, we had met before but it was a few years ago.
After shopping we went home soon.
When I got home I saw Reza's car parked in the yard.
"Dad" said his two daughters in unison, Reza smiled as he embraced the children's shoulders - his children they stepped into the house.
" When did you arrive?"
"Must"
"Oiya well this is a holiday invite us to walk dong yah"
"Yes yeah" said sister
"Alright" Reza told his son.
Reza's reply suddenly made them cry out in joy, the view I've seen so often this is what I often consider ending this marriage, but now I begin to doubt whether in the future I can still afford to defend?"
I immediately cooked for lunch, Reza's middle room was busy chatting with children, suddenly my phone rang I immediately grabbed my phone and it turned out Rita called me
"The Assalamualaikum Lin"
"Waalaikumsalam Rit"
"Can not ntar afternoon we meet all the reunion so"
"Where is Rit.pengen anyway but look first I'm telling you back ok"
"You can do it because someone wants to see you"
"god pi is no promise"
"sip"
After ending the conversation with Rita I continued my work, Rezapun approached me who was busy cooking in the kitchen and hugged me from behind.
"Hemm dating ni ye" said my eldest daughter who saw her father holding me, I immediately released Reza's hand from my waist.
"That's a flirty father, sister" said the sister
They ended up joking with each other
featuring a smile, there was no tremor in my heart when Reza touched me earlier My heart ached "why is this happening god" I whispered inwardly.
"Mother will follow the road - the road?" ask my daughter to break my daydream.
"I don't think so because the head of the mother is a little dizzy"
Reza looked at me I threw my gaze, my daughter did not protest at my answer because my children from childhood were educated to always respect the decisions of others.
After finishing our lunch we immediately ate lunch together, seeing the laughter that took place at the dinner table between Reza and the children I became guilty if I asked to part with Reza,how will I explain to the children later, what if they are disappointed and hate me but if I survive how, my daydream was scrapped when the notification of WhatsApp messages on my phone rang again.
Tampa read the incoming message on my phone, I immediately finished my lunch.
During the afternoon break there was another message back in on my phone I also immediately read it and it turned out that message from Rita.
"Why can I come this afternoon?"
"Well how is Rit because there is another need for afternoon, sorry yes" I replied to Rita's chat.
Ahead of the afternoon the children asked me for permission to go with their father, after they said goodbye I immediately did the job of washing clothes from piled up customers.
"Frost....kring......
The voice of the phone went back to ringing I grabbed my phone and immediately received the call.
"Hello say again"
"Obviously busy doing housework, I'm sorry I haven't been able to meet Rit's invitation"
"Oh gapapa if that's the case, but someone wants to say this"
"Who's Rit"
For a moment everyone was silent and did not speak
"Let's dong say mas, there's already that person" said Rita
"Who the hell is Rit?" he knows me" I asked a little curious.
"Know dong say know very well"
"Assynogaic"
Suddenly my heart suddenly beat irregular baritone voice from across the street as if hypnotizing me even though I have not heard it for years but until now I still know it.
"Wa.. waalaikumsalam" I answered nervously.
A moment later, a casual conversation flowed through the phone,I just kept quiet and chose to be a listener to cover my feelings that began to be erratic because honestly I was confused not knowing what to say I also chose to end the conversation with the excuse of being very busy.
I tried to neutralize the state of my feelings that had caused the vibration - the strange vibration I sipped a glass of water located on the table I threw away - far away the feeling "this can not happen' I said softly and I also finished my work.
At 5 pm the children came home, with happy facial expressions they told me about various activities as they walked - the road in one of the recreation places with their father earlier, with happy expressions,I just smiled in response to the stories of my two daughters while my thoughts were elsewhere,at the same time Reza approached me and invited me to speak something very important Reza asked me to meet him in the room I immediately got up leaving the children with all the beautiful stories.
"What do you want to talk about Re?"
"I want to ask for your help Lin, you want to take Farhan to rehab, you are not able to face Farhan's behavior that always makes fun"
"Is Farhan himself ready for rehabilitation?" because it would be in vain if Farhan himself reluctant Re"
"Farhan is ready for Lin" right now my mom and I are not having enough money, so I ask you to help him and that's if you don't mind" Reza said with a gloomy face.
I thought it would not hurt if this time I helped Reza to settle her mother's business anyway for the common good, I gave Reza the money she and her mother needed.