YOUR LOVE BROUGHT ME HOME

Eps.48

It is not easy to live what I am living today as a wife who has never been considered but to end a marriage that is not harmonious meet serious obstacles and then establish a relationship with a married man who has been loved for a long time.

I feel that this world is really unfair if I can choose I want my household to be harmonious and since I decided to marry Reza I have never expected the presence of Bagas again but fate says otherwise,I feel played with by my own destiny.

All my life I've never played with other people's feelings, but why do I have to play with them now?"

For so long I lived in the pain of a wound that was deliberately incised by my husband that I failed to give love to him,

now I'm confined in a household that makes my race as a woman crashing already.

For years I have tried to stick with my husband's attitude that always let me freeze myself every night, not just biological needs that I did not get but materially I have lost my rights.

Then comes back my old love that offers biological and material satisfaction is it wrong if I accept it?

A wife is also human, I am not a robot that was only created to meet the needs of others while my needs are neglected, a husband and wife is not just a story of play in bed so I am only needed by my husband for momentary satisfaction by ignoring other obligations that should be fulfilled by a man called husband.

I never got my rights as a wife, my life was full of nestshow I even had to be willing to accept a slap, baci maki when I found the love of a man who was able to give peace,the comfort he was able to show me.

I live a fate that is quite cruel I have to accept when my husband presents several women to accompany me when he is bored with me as there is a sense of compassion for me now he tries to make my wounds all gaping by presenting another woman who is now my mistress

I cannot give and receive another love, the love of a long-cherished lover who is capable of giving me love and affection,who never let me get tired and sad, who was able to give me everything - the gala where the word fair was hiding.

Is not life a choice, freedom and struggle for it I am entitled to my own happiness,I don't need anyone to blame and justify my words anymore for anything I'm doing right now that I need to live in peace with the people I love.

To realize that dream now the only thing I have to get is my mother's permission and blessing .

The rest I have not thought about including the feelings of other women, namely Bagas' wife while I was also injured by other women.

From today I always do the treatment I always want to look beautiful I can not just rely on love alone I do not want Bagas to turn away from me because his wife who is always with him every day.

Now that I appear to be another person I am so insensitive to the feelings of others now I am a woman who approaches the word perfect I have changed every point of my shortcomings.

And the result Bagas as if mangkin bewitched with the charm of me now, now he is not so afraid of his wife various lies he did to be able to meet me.

Today Bagas again managed to lie to his wife he came back to see me in a place like we usually meet and I now do not cover up about Reza who has married again so that it makes Bagas sembangkap fear losing me.

With a smile of victory I set foot walking down the hallway - the hallway covered with red carpet I then stopped in the same room as I used to knock on the door of the room with the number three empty five not how long the door to the room opens immediately.

I'm coming in, right away,inside stood a lover who greeted me with warmth there was one word he was like a man who had not played a game in bed for a long time though he now lives in one house with the wife.

Again, I smiled with satisfaction at his treatment today.

Bagas sat on his knees to me after doing an activity on *******

Indeed, I am happy to listen to the wishes conveyed by Bagas, I myself want it, but until now I have not received the blessing of my mother.

"I can't for now"

"Why yank don't you love me anymore" said Bagas looking sad

I got up from my seat I could not bear to see the face of my beloved love so sad, I walked towards the balcony of the hotel room, I,my mind is fucked up I can't ignore my mom if I can hurt a million other people's hearts and feelings but not my mom I'll never be able to.

Bagas approached and hugged me from behind in a friendly manner

"Are you asking me to divorce my wife?"

I was silent only when I dissolved in pain in my heart, when I could not realize the dream of our love that wanted to live together in peace filled with love and compassion.

"Can you do it" I said briefly

Bagas immediately turned my body to face him, I immediately turned my face away

"You are serious about your words" Bagas said as if he did not believe my words.

I let go of Reza's embrace and pulled over a little

"Why?" you can't do that, can you?"

Bagas came back to me and immediately knelt down

"Well if that's what made you doubt my love and sincerity all this time I'll prove to you I'll divorce my wife soon"

Suddenly I realized I was sick at this time but I would not do any more sick to Bagas' wife by asking Bagas to divorce her.

I helped Bagas back up I immediately hugged him and finally I cried sobbing in my lover's arms.

Bagas stroked my hair and pecked at the top of my head he wiped my tears with his hands.

"Don't cry baby I'll do if that's what you want"

I shook my head and told all my lovers what happened so hard to divorce Reza now, I asked Bagas to be patient until I got my mother's blessing.

time seemed to pass quickly Bagas as if he was reluctant to end our current togetherness, as well as me while pressing for us to part for a while.

Before concluding this brief meeting in the name of love and loyalty that has shackled and before night present greet, this beautiful disenja accompanied by orange rays along with a breeze blowing, the wind,on the balcony of the hotel room we passed the twilight with full****.some romantic love scenes were engraved beautifully with my beloved.