YOUR LOVE BROUGHT ME HOME

Epsr.74

After dinner we immediately headed to the car for a moment we enjoyed the atmosphere of the night after it was raining, we took the time to chat tonight.

I looked at Bagas' face, his smile was still like the first time I knew him, Bagas took and squeezed my fingers gently.

"Oiya yank how mom is doing"

"Thank God it's starting to improve"

"Thank God I'm glad to hear it"

"How many days are you here?"

"Tomorrow I must go home, for I must leave badly"

I suddenly felt sad so short of my time with Bagas,this is not the first time Bagas and I underwent LDR but for this time I felt unable if long had to part with Bagas hand touch Bagas stroked my hair to disperse my daydreams,Bagas was aware of my current feelings Bagas grabbed me and took me in his arms.

"Shall you come home tomorrow?" I asked Bagas lirih almost inaudible tears my eyes were unstoppable even I had braced myself not to cry but I still failed,I will go back through the days with a feeling called loneliness and a fragile heart, Bagas wiped my tears.

"Hey don't cry baby we can still call - phone as usual.

My heart is so sad I really do not understand a million questions arise in my mind.Why should I fall in love with him, why all there is only about him ,it wasn't a short time I knew her but the love I had for her was like the first time I knew her.

I feel annoyed I lost by time, really I can not pass through the longing in the heart that always appears and is ready to tear - shreds me with a violent never gave me a chance to breathe.

My tears were dripping Bagas gave me his shoulder to lean on and then he clasped my finger tightly as if giving me strength, no more conversation came out of each of us.

This love is too shahdu to accept this reality, but I can not do anything.

While it was late last night we had to part ways, Bagas kissed me again, I let in a while,maybe this was the last kiss from him and then I immediately got off the car Bagas stepped foot into my house I was reluctant to turn around because it would make me so heavy to part, to break up,my mind feels empty I don't know what I want to do tonight is just go to sleep and then the next day I wake up hoping everything is just a dream.

Feelings are not a toy and then we can forget it, it will remain eternal for ever and bloom within, he said,Bagas has become an opium to me I seem to have been bound to a one-way relationship until it is not split.

We haven't had contact with each other for a week because he was busy there or it really felt it was only a moment for him,I took a deep breath I had lost my days - my cherry days I was unable to create my own happiness.

I am now accompanied by the light of the night breeze and the drizzle of rain that returns to wet the cold earth tonight as if to crush my bones, my bones,the message I sent was none He returned to recall the memories of a week ago with him I passed a night that befriended the wind and rain my heart as long as I missed while sipping on the chest.

"Sir....mbak!"

"Shopping ya mbak" asked Fahri to me I nodded at him.

"Why the hell I don't want to pick up my phone anymore and never reply to my chat mbak, I'm wrong mbak"

"Finally - this end mbak less well Fahri, sorry yes"

"Hmmm yes gapapa mbak should I apologize to mbak already bother mbak"

"Oke Fahri - yes"

"We just met Mbak already want to go, can we not be friends anymore?"

I feel guilty to see Fahri's face but how else, I want to be alone for now.

"Sorry Fahri mbak rush to pick up the children"

"Ok is mbak but next time we can be like talking first"

I didn't give any answers because I wasn't sure myself and I didn't want to promise.

I turned my bike back on and left the parking lot to pick up my two daughters and speed up my bike suddenly there was a feeling of anxiety mixed with fear and worry"what's wrong with me"my bath.

Arriving at my daughter's school, my feelings all the while peaking out while my two daughters were fine, after that I immediately went home, but the feeling of anxiety never goes away I stepped into my room to rest,maybe the end of this I lack of rest I threw my body up on the bed when my eyes almost fell asleep arrived - suddenly the ringing sound of my phone ringing lazily I reached my phone my heart suddenly pounded faster as I thought again soon I picked up the phone from Eva's mother and her body became weak my body was not powered I was shaking mbak Eva gave news that the condition of the mother suddenly deteriorated mother suffered a stroke suddenly.

I really did not expect because before the mother seemed to improve.

Sadly, the pain all mixed into one, short story of the mother was rushed to the nearest hospital IGD, based on the description of the doctor it turns out there is a blood vessel in the mother's brain that ruptured the doctor suggested to immediately perform surgery, which is not a problem,my heart is so broken today was the hardest day for us.

Exactly at 8 pm the mother entered our operating room so anxious at this time we can only pray and Alhamdulillah the operation went smoothly after the operation the mother had to be treated in the ICU room no one is allowed to visit the mother,including our children at the clock we could only see the mother from the window.

I was really slumped, my tears sagged when I saw my mother from the window as well as my brother and brother, we alternately accompanied the mother in the morning and night almost a week when the mother fell into a coma,the condition of the mother usually worsens due to complications of the disease experienced by the condition of the mother.

It turned out that fate said another weeping crack filled the hospital room at about 7am with three breaths of my beloved mother facing the creator,I will no longer feel the rubbing of a loving hand remembering her my heart was so broken I have not been able to make my mother happy to the fullest much I have not had time to do for mother, she said, now the mother was gone.when it arrived - suddenly my breath came to stop my eyes twitching - the firefly the whole room revolved my body felt like unsteady and after that I did not remember anything at all.