Trapped In Ambiguity

What a sweet beginning

Today I didn't find Devan in his class. Even today he didn't come to pick me up without informing me. I was almost too late for him if I waited for him this morning.

The break this time was really boring. Usually that nosy Devan will come bothering me to do the job. But today there are no tasks and neither is Devan. I don't know what to do now.

I pulled out my phone, searched Devan's name on my contact and sent him a short message.

woi, where are you?

Ceklis one. He's not active. I would wait for him to reply to my message while scrolling the ig homepage that I had not seen for a long time to cover up this boredom of mine.

"Adel," called Sasa, my classmate, making me turn my head and raise one eyebrow. "Sir Rega is looking for you, he's outside" he continued, then passed away to his stool.

Brother Rega? Why is he looking for me? I'll know the answer if I see him. Lazily, I put my feet up. Towards a door that is far away.

"What's up, brother?" I asked him when I saw he was riled up and also looked so nervous.

"Eh, Adel?" He glanced at me, then clashed with his mind.

"Yes, Brother?"

"I'm afraid, yeah." He moved, walking out of nowhere. I walked behind him, following in his footsteps with my mind full of question marks. I don't know what he's gonna do. And here we are now, in the middle garden of this school. A place where students usually spend their rest.

He took me to sit on one of the benches and I just followed him. He then sat down next to me.

"Adel, I can't stand this feeling anymore. I don't know how this feeling came about." I grinned at my confused forehead, not understanding what he was saying and what he was saying it for. "When I first saw you in MOS, you made me wonder about you. Because of that curiosity, I'm getting more and more to find out about you," he continued, which inexplicably made my heart race rather quickly.

"Adel, do you want to be my girlfriend?" Suddenly he knelt down before me, offering me a rose. My heart is currently completely raging, even my heart feels faster than before.

"Give me time to answer, brother. I'll answer you back to school later." I don't know how that word came out so far from my mouth. And I don't know why I'm going to answer back home from school. Why don't I give myself a pause to answer it for longer. I then walked up and ran to class.

I sat on my stool, propped up my chin and remembered the incident just now. A landing message made me check my phone and then look at the contents of the message.

I'm sick again. My cheeks were swollen from my teeth, not to mention the flu that came out of nowhere.

He even sent me a picture of him showing off how big his cheek was. Not to mention the flushed nose and the expression of his joints. In the picture he's like a man who really needs mercy, really.

Huaaa your face is so imuuuttt. I don't even know how different you are from a hamster wkwk

I couldn't help but laugh at the look on his face. Oh, my God, this is really funny.

You*?!! 😡👊

I put down my phone, not wanting to reply to her again. I suddenly thought of Brother Rega. I had to tell Devan to ask for his opinion, even though I was eager to speak to him directly. But if I call her, it's free, it'll make her teeth hurt even more.

Devan, Brother Rega shot me. Did he say I wanted to be his girlfriend? I really need your opinion. Should I accept it or not? My time limit is only until school.

I pressed the send button and then put my phone in the bag because the history teacher had suddenly walked in.

The bell rang indicating the time to go home broke my daydream. When my teacher came out, I checked my phone, curious about Devan's answer.

Akkh, my message was not sent because my quota suddenly ran out in such a precarious state, pending. It's like forcing me to make my own decisions.

I walked towards the school gate, looking for Kak Rega's whereabouts. I saw him standing there, waving his hands excitedly. I'm like he's pulling him up there.

"How did you decide?" tanyanya stared directly at my bead. I've never felt this big before.

"Hm." I seem to think. I have no reason to reject a man like him. "But, Brother, I have one request."

"What?"

"I don't want to be too bridled, Brother. I also don't want my friendship to be limited" I said bowed.

"Hey, I will never suppress or limit your friendship because you have the right to do whatever you want as long as everything is fine."

I looked at him with a sincere smile and then nodded small. I think my cheeks are starting to turn red.

"Yes? That means you're currently my girlfriend?" Kak Rega's eyes sparkled, he seemed to be really excited.

I nodded back a second time. One of the main reasons I accepted it was because I didn't know when else to get the chance to be Rega's girlfriend. I feel like I'm really lucky for now.

"I'll take you home."

***

I threw myself on the bed, looked up at the ceiling of the room and imagined Kak Rega's sweet face. I've known Rega for a long time. He invited me to meet at MOS. He introduced his name and also his position as a committee. I remember very well how she was friendly to me with her smile that looked so sincere.

"Why is my daughter smiling like that?" ask the father who saw me from outside the room because I forgot to close the door. I then sat cross-legged on the bed. Dad came in and sat down on my desk chair, facing his chair towards me.

"Will you be angry if I have a boyfriend?" ask me to worry with a slow tone of voice.

"If he makes you happy, why should you be angry?" answer me with ease. "But if he makes your daughter cry, you won't forgive him" he continued.

"Dad, today Brother Rega shot me and I accepted."

"Can you meet him?" ask Dad with a serious facial expression.

"I'll tell him, Dad. When do you want to meet him?"

"If you can tomorrow, take her home for lunch." Dad then walked out of my room. Hopefully everything will be fine and I will accept Kak Rega.

I hope it's the right choice.