Trapped In Ambiguity

Who's That Girl?

It's been 10 minutes since the break bell rang but Devan hasn't come to my class. If Devan doesn't come to my class, I'll go to his class. Brother Rega? I can tell him, maybe he's busy studying because the exam is getting closer. I took a slow breath and got out of my chair and walked out of class.

"Adel?" Brother Rega pulled my hand so that it made my steps stop.

"Yes Brother?"

"Come to the canteen."

"But I'm going to Devan's class, brother."

"Later we come, I'm hungry." Brother Rega seemed to be holding his stomach with his face which he made clear. Instead of pity, that face was really a version of her cute face Kak Rega. Can I pinch that cheek?

I nodded and with his posture pulled Kak Rega to the cafeteria - kidnapped cogan funnih. I also need something to put in my stomach. The worms in my stomach even sounded rebellious, asking for his lunch rations.

Upon arriving at the cafeteria, I heard a familiar voice in my ear, I looked around and found Devan eating with a girl at the end table. He was so happy, a smile and also laughter emanated clearly on his face. Who's the girl? I couldn't see his face because he was behind me.

"What do you want to eat, Adel?"

"Eh, Brother? I'm not hungry." Ughhhh! my appetite is gone.

"Seriously?"

I looked at Brother Rega's face and nodded slowly. I then took a chair a little far from Devan, a chair that was near the entrance. I sat down, watching Brother Rega eat while occasionally glancing at my best friend.

"Want me a bribe?" asked Kak Rega while laughing small that I responded with a soft head. I'm really not in the mood right now.

Devan stood up from his chair and at that moment I saw the face of the girl who was with Devan. She's a girl with white skin, slender cheeks, squinty eyes and really big bodygoals. She was so beautiful that it made me feel insecure.

They both passed by beside me. I didn't know Devan was pretending to ignore me or not. He just passed by beside me. How could he not see me? Did I make a mistake with him? Ah, somehow. But what's wrong is just greeting me.

I sighed harshly, being ignored by her made me want to shed tears. My eyes even began to heat up along with each step of the two of them. I don't understand what's going on with my heart right now. I'm not jealous, am I?

"What's up, Adel?" ask Brother Rega who broke my daydream.

"Sister, I'm sorry, but I want to go to class first."

Brother Rega looked at me in surprise, but without asking further, he nodded his head. "Let's go home together, Adel. Wait for me at the gate" he said, to which I replied with a faint smile.

×××

I have been waiting for Kak Rega at the gate for a few minutes, but he never came, even what I got was Devan who passed in front of me on a motorcycle and the girl. Any more? My heart is sliced back, it feels so bitter.

Usually I am the one on the bike, in between heading to my house while joking. From this morning, I never spoke to Devan, moreover, looking directly into his eyes.

"Adel."

I turned my head and found Brother Rega who was sitting on his car. With a weight, I stepped up and sat down next to Sister Rega. I leaned my head, just silent, reluctant to speak even though Kak Rega was busy telling stories beside me.

"Thank you, Brother,”.

I closed the door of Kak Rega's car, walked with his lung to my room and threw my bag just into the bed. My body that feels very tired I just throw it on the mattress with the prone position.

Am I being selfish? Do I love Devan and make Kak Rega an outlet? But how is it possible? I like Brother Rega. He's kind, smart, considerate, and mature, very different from the really annoying Devan.

"Akh, what is love? why does it feel so complicated?" I'm shuffling my hair rough.

"Cil?" I knocked on the door of my open room. I sat down and looked at my father's face. "Let's go down to eat. But wait. You're out of electrocution? Why is all your hair standing?"

"Dad, Devan was close to another woman and she ignored me" I said to the point.

Dad stepped in, sat down next to me. "It's not really Devan's fault that if he's close to another woman, he has a right to it, Adel. Aren't you also close to Rega? Even you're his girlfriend. And anyway, I'm sure Devan wouldn't behave like that without any reason,” said the father as he brushed my hair with his hands, fixing my shredded hair.

"Did I take Kak Rega as an impingement, Dad?"

"You like Rega?" Father asked back.

"Looks, Dad."

"You'll know the answer to your own question, Cil," said the father gently. I looked at my smiling father's face. " Let's go down to eat."

×××

"He hasn't come yet, Cil?" ask the father who just came out with his briefcase. Then in his absence the car keys with a remote in his hand.

"Yet, Dad." I breathed a rough breath.

"Let father take you to school."

I stared at the clock on my wrist, "5 more minutes, Dad,” my door that made dad sit next to me.

Five minutes of my time was wasted waiting for his presence. I've never waited like this before. Usually if she comes late, I ignore her and go with dad. But it was only today and it made me really feel disappointed with myself putting my hopes on something uncertain.

I walked in my car, reluctant to go to school. Reluctant to look at the girl's face and reluctant when Devan ignored me.

"Already, Cil. You meet him and talk to him well. Do not be influenced by your own prejudices that even damage your mood," said the father on the way.

"It's here, let's go down,” said the father. I looked around, apparently we were already in front of the school gate. I grabbed my father's hand, endured it, then stepped my foot so lazily.

The figure of the man was suddenly in front of me, walking alone in a hurry. "S." De." My words were cut short as the same girl greeted Devan who was ten meters in front of me. Devan stopped his steps and turned his head towards the girl. They then walked side by side.

Upon arrival in class, I threw my bag on the table and sat up with my chin up, upset. Very upset.

"What's the matter, Del?" ask Rasti.

"Beeb Devanmu walks with another girl" I said.

"You serious? OMG, OMG, OMG" Rasti said, but for now I don't care. Hi, brains. Can't we make peace?

Huaaa, I hate that girl. Whoever he is, I'd hate him so much. I never considered someone my enemy, but that girl would be the first time.

Can I fight with him? Or grab her hair? Akh