The Toga Rahayu

The Voice of Rahayu

"Never waste a person who loves us, cherish every moment with our partner. Make the best impression as if you were last alive today".

That's roughly the word that is often said when Reno is still healthy.

Mas Reno said that a few days after we got married, but Reno also wanted me to stop working, in order to be able to accompany him all the time. I think it's just a husband's usual request for his wife who wants to give yes.

Turns out I was wrong maybe it was a feeling in Reno mas if the time he had is not long so want to slalu together with his partner to create beautiful memories.

But today I realized it was a message from Reno that I had to run.

Mas Reno mamang is not the first person to occupy my heart, but the affection and struggle of Reno to be able to have me is so great. Reno sacrificed a lot for me. Even Reno was willing to wait for me when my heart was still filled with other male figures.

Thanks to his persistence and sincerity to fight for you to be willing to live together with him. His affection and patience made me melt down and accept his love. I wholeheartedly learned to accept the destiny that Reno is the best soul mate God has given me.

When the heart begins to accept all the destiny given by the almighty, very quickly the almighty takes it back. As if to show that I don't deserve to be with this nice guy.

I want to be angry, but who can resist his will.

I'm just a crooked servant.

Reno left me forever, Reno left me without saying a word. Even Reno's gone when I wasn't next to her.

Why mas?. Are you afraid I'm angry?.

Are you afraid I'll cry?.

Look mas.

Look at me here so fragile weeping for your very sudden departure without a plan.

If I had known you would have left so soon, I would have given up my soul and body long ago to you.

If I had known you would have left me so soon I would have gone wherever you went that day.

If I had known you would leave me so soon I would have given you twenty-four hours without pause.

Hiks..hiks...

Rahayu again sobbed.

Yes maybe because the Almighty loves you more, but really slowly my little heart has begun to get used to your presence. That love begins to grow and bloom but why do you have to go even before you have time to care for and cultivate it in order to thrive.

Lastly, before you go to work, you say a word that makes me ashamed. You said I should get ready tonight might be a night for us. I was so excited, I prepared everything, body care, clothes and everything I needed that night.

But mas.

But why did you just leave me before you even touched me. You are too hasty to leave me, I feel like I have not completely become a good wife to you.

Is this what you mean I should be prepared?.

I'm not ready for this, I'm tired of losing.

Hiks..hiks...

Rahayu's cry is so heartbreaking.

You are indeed a good man, you are even able to hide all your goodness mas that I only knew a few days ago.

You've been a donor to orphaned boarding schools for the last few years, and I just found out about it. May all your goodness be your helper.

I pray that God will give you beautiful angels who will accompany your days there. But really from the bottom of my heart I am so envious of it, because I have not been my angel even if only in the world.

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"I can't wait to tell your husband, all living things will surely come home".

Reno's father grabs Rahayu's back helping her to get up and stand back up.

Mother Reno quickly hugged her daughter-in-law so tightly. The two women hugged each other shedding all the sadness and loss they felt together.

"I can't wait, the doctor has tried as much as possible, Reno's destiny is only here. Strengthen your heart, pitch your heart to accept all the realities that exist for Reno to calm there".

Reno's father hugged two women who were crying together.

Life and death in the divine grasp of destiny is priesthood, but life must go on. I will try to strongly accept all the facts that exist. I believe the best plan is the one that has been set almighty.

We all belong to Allah and to him we will all return (QS AL-Baqoroh 156).

I don't want to be too late in grief, because when I'm sad you must feel the same way as I do.

I realize that everything in the world is just a deposit, and you are a very special deposit from God. I am so grateful to have had and befriended you even if it was only for a moment.

O God why did you betroth us for only a moment?

Why are you so quick to take your chosen soul mate?.

I realized that everything in this world is just a deposit. When you take the deposit, what can I do?.

The field of my heart to be able to accept all the facts that exist. I believe you have the most beautiful plan behind it all.

Rahayu wiped away the tears that had soaked her cheeks. Trying to smile again leads to the departure of her husband.

Be happy I will try to let go of you sincerely.

All the families had gathered together at the residence of Reno's parents including Rahayu's parents and her brothers.

Rahayu hugged her mother.

The sobs that he held back broke just like that in the mother's arms.

Rahayu cried without saying a word.

That pain is what he felt.

"Not be sad, be prejudiced against God, he who knows what we do not know".

Rahayu's mother hugged her son so tightly, trying to hide all the sadness that existed.to wipe every tear that soaked the corner of her eyes before her son saw

"Mom a week ago Rahayu was the happiest woman to be a wife. I thought it would be complete already my happiness".

"But Ma'am today I'm a widow".

hiks.hiks...

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The crying broke again.

*Sorry yes friends have not been able to up many eps, my laptop is in repair. pray soon finished yes.