The Toga Rahayu

Disappeared

I accelerated my way to kosan, for today I decided to skip college, free also entered my mind is not in place, for today I decided to skip college, my eyes also can not stop removing the clear details that are later will be the gossip material of the people on campus.

I speeded up my steps towards the kosan, I wanted to hurry to the room to spill all the tightness in the chest that was so swollen. Arriving in the room I immediately threw my body on the bed with a hard I was crying, crying as it became. I locked the door of the meeting room so as not to raise many questions to the neighbors of the room.

Have you ever felt something missing?

Something we can't hold back?, felt a tremendous roar in his chest. Something that makes an unsettled step, by thinking about all the dreams and dreams that have been lost.

To make the heart and mind so full, make the emotions in the chest increasingly crowded and overflowing. Feeling the incomparable emptiness. I lost him today.

I lost her. He who gave me happiness before, lost him who for some time continues to spend my days. I lost him, he gave me all the luxuries I've never had.

He who cared for me all this time was gone he went, I threw him out I made him go away, I made him hurt with all my hurt words.

No one else hugged me for a walk, no one helped me study, no one cared about me anymore. Now everyone is already sorry even it feels useless.

I cried and continued to cry lamenting my decision.

***

A few days after the incident I was getting discouraged to go to college there was no positive energy I had, it felt completely different. I've also never seen Dika's mas for quite some time. There is no longer a relationship between us even the word friends alone is not appropriate.

“Whatever mas may goodness always be with you, I know you are a good person and you are a smart person not difficult for people to like and love you”. The sincere prayers I say every day.

It turns out this is painful not to greet each other with the people we love, lonely and languish. I still often cry when I think of Dika mas, she is still alive she is around me but I can not touch her even call her name alone is not brave.

***

That afternoon on the third floor was so full of some students who wanted to see the contents of the announcement. I quickly headed to the horde of students. I joined the group and read the announcement mading it turns out there will be a birthday pension majors “praha”, I am not very interested in the event. I quickly passed through the third floor hallway down every lab I had ever occupied together with Dika mas.

The biology lab first became acquainted with Dika mas and became practical, traveling around the biology lab saw the entire room all the memories flashed and danced in my mind.

The agrochemical lab where I spent months working on the pkm pimnas, in our agrochemical lab, came so close that there was no day without meeting the Dika mas at the time, must be busy and exhausting I am very happy to be close to him for a long time. Either only mode or indeed the demands of the task but in working pkm pimnas here I am more part of the task with mas Dika.

“Mas I miss, I miss you usilin, I miss when you ruffled my veil and surely I will put on a face kesel at that time, but do you know what my heart really is? I'm very happy with your treatment it's mas”.

Our computing and systems analysis lab spent a lot of time here going to Pimnas, you taught me a lot of things, taught me things that my students didn't know.

I still continued to walk in the third hallway, from behind came a screaming voice calling out to me.

“Rahayu wait where you going?,”. I turned to the source of the voice.

“You are a butterfly kayak student now, the lecture home-lecture playful first we enjoy these good times before it will be complicated carrying anak”, Susi tease me.

“Against no intention to play bastie I males”, I said with a lazy tone.

“Again heartbroken right?, calm Yu guy on this campus a lot, a lot of even you just choose which you want, you are beautiful”, said Nina trying to cheer me up.

“But the person I chose did not choose me”, I said with sadness.

“Why not choose you? I don't know who he is? But my own fellow women admire your beauty and personality Yu”, Nina and Sarah say their opinions.

“Yes you are beautiful, kind, friendly, suave and save one thing that is less like you are less high”, Nina taunts release silence and tension between their chatter.

“Eh Yu seriously asked, is there a man who rejected you until you are heartbroken like gini?”

“Dih nolak well anyway, I also do not express love, I am trying to keep a distance and avoid him for the sake of our welfare and peace of life”.

“Terus why should keep the distance all?”

“Because we have different beliefs”, I replied to these two very cool people.

“Difference belief? Seriously you love non-Muslims?”. Nina and Sari's faces were shocked to hear my words.

“Iya different beliefs, I sure like her, but she is not sure like me”. I answered as I hurried to leave them.

“Rahayu look out for you ya”, they both still just chase me and hit me with the book.

We laughed together, for a moment my sadness was gone with them.

“Later at seven o'clock there is a pension event in front of the faculty, we come yuk all the generation can come without exception, the faculty birthday pension event, is pretty good to know later can meet the soul mate, there was plenty of food too, he said. Oh yes one there are product exhibitions from creative students as well he said”. Nina tries to promote the prague event on her two best friends.

“How's bastie doing? I'm afraid of the wrong costume?”.

“Free gaes that are important polite, do not have to wear kebaya or robe kok that is important not open later considered to be alms”, replied Nina with a smile.

I was still watching the debate between my two best friends.

“Later to come, I do not accept any reason at seven must be ready I pick you up, just wait in the front alley kis each”, instructions from Nina.