The Toga Rahayu

Wither before the bloom

“Why not note its HP no? exchanging HP no with a classmate will make it easier when coordinating work and task sharing”. Say to me, Adika.

“Sorry, but I....".

"I don't have no HP”.

“Seriously you don't have HP? mas Andika clarified her question in a tone of disbelief.

I just nodded, a sign of asserting Andika's question.

How to buy HP? To eat alone is difficult, even I have to fast every day in order to save money to eat.

Mas Andika still looked at me with disbelief, gini day in 2011, and a position away from the family was wandering but did not have HP to communicate. Almost all students now have a Blackberry.

“ Well it's okay if you don't have HP let's find a solution together, to facilitate when coordinating, or how about via email only”.

“email? I have one, but no laptop to open it?".

I can only sigh heavily while looking down, of all my friends only I have no HP.

If for a laptop there are some friends it seems to still not have. In this one group only I do not feel the comfort of communicating because it has no HP.

“You can open an email on the campus computer, in the library there are many computers available to facilitate students in learning and developing knowledge, you can also borrow books there as a reference when working on tasks or reports later”.

mas Andika gave me a solution.

It was like getting a splash of cold ice water in the middle of an arid desert, andika gave me the solution I needed.

“ Okay just record your email address, and the friends who live with?".

“Oh yes wait what is your name?”

“I'm me".

"I'm Rahayu".

Stammering and nervous I answered her question.

"Oh yes, practical friends later if there is important information from your brother, please your friend Rahayu told ya".

I'm glad my name was mentioned, at least he knew me.

Finally one problem was solved.

*****

The next days went as usual, I woke up early, I happen to be today I was ”apat” so do not fast first.

I felt so hungry this morning, because I didn't fast so I wanted to eat breakfast. Before leaving I took time to cook first. Cuisine today fell on noodles sap kuah soto taste has long felt not to enjoy soto food.

To be more frugal and full is a lot of gravy and noodles I share two, of course for dinner tonight, because I never have lunch. Surely not in the cook everything but in the split two, to be cooked again later tonight. Do not use eggs, do not use chili but use rice to be full longer.

Arriving at the campus, meeting with friends as usual is nothing interesting and special, just take classes like the previous days listening to each time the material given by the lecturer, he said, then take notes and work on the assignments given, so continue until two courses are completed at 12 noon.

The group of friends have all come, they can't wait for Andika mas to come, in addition to coordinating and explaining the task of friends are also impatient to spread the charm on Andika mas. Because of the ten members of my group, seven of them are women, all fascinated and enamored of Andika including me.

When the awaited has come with eagerly welcomed friends, mas Andika explained in detail all the equipment and materials needed during the practicum, explain the material in great detail and provide practicum modules to study. Mas Andika also advised friends to wear lab coats when practicum later.

“You can borrow first for lab coats to previous generation brothers who are not practicing”

As the assistance progresses, many of the friends who tease mas Andika, from asking home addresses, favorite foods, favorite colors to the type of woman they like, but mas Andika just smiled knots did not respond to his questions friends only focus on the material described only. Until the assistance ends and all members are welcome to resume their respective activities.

I did not go home immediately, I decided to play computer games first in the library as well as study so that I am more proficient in operating it. Understandably in my high school high school his computer is only a little even one computer can be held by more than five children during ICT lessons.

When I was busy learning the computer turned out accidentally my eyes turned to someone, I looked back to make sure. It turns out that's true Andika.

But wait who is that woman?

Her face was very beautiful, her skin was white, her body was tall and proportionally slim, her eyes slightly narrowed with a very pointed nose. Her beauty is very natural in combination with wearing a shirt that matches the color of her hijab and jeans that fit on her body.

His face was very graceful emanated softness and very elegant making everyone who saw it must be stunned. My fellow woman acknowledges and admires her beauty looking so perfect.

Oh it turns out his name Eki looks from the name tag that has not been released on his chest. Apparently, the 2010 generation also happened to run out of practicum, the name tag has not been seperpet apart.

Oh wait why are they joining together?.

His girlfriend?

I keep watching them.

There were friends from Andika mas and Eki mbk who teased each other.

“cieee cieee couple mismatched”.

cieee cieee dream chapel really dahyou”.

Hearing the words from friends mas Andika and mbk Eki from a distance really makes my heart ache.

Apparently my love will wither before springing.

Who me? I do not have a fingertip when compared to mbk Eki she is perfect in addition to beautiful, fashionable and authoritative also seen from a rich family. So different from me, and who am I? I also know Andika.

I fell in love with her, but I also realized who I am and who is she? I'm just picking up the ashes. Even though I decided to fall in love with Adika and I'm heartbroken for her now.

But from the bottom of my heart I pray for them sincerely. I will be a loyal fan who supports them, even though I love Andika.

Though I was heartbroken, my love withered before springing, yet I was breastfed for their happiness.

I realized that Mbk Eki is perfect and is 100% better than me in every way.

I just hope that Eki will still allow me to love her Andika staring from a distance, admiring and will not reveal her.

Will do nothing more for her. Just love in your heart and won't take Andika. Even though I know Andika also can't want to be the same as me.

Mbk Eki forgive me for admiring and loving your Andika in silence.