The Toga Rahayu

70

“Who is that guy Yu dare how dare he want to take you from me?. I'm gonna beat him up. Even if need be I'll kill him”. Mas Reno shouted very loudly, he was really angry with my reasoning.

Mas Reno flailed the foam chair next to his seat. His face looked frustrated and sick.

I also covered my face with both hands.

I was crying too.

Crying out of fear by the behavior of mas Reno who had never been like that before. The Reno I know is a gentle and loving person. Reno is also forgiving.

“Don't cry baby, don't cry”.

Realizing with his attitude that frightened me Mas Reno then crouched down in front of me.

I just shook my head. I was so scared of it.

“Sorry, I'm sorry I scared you. My love for you is too deep. I really don't want you to choose another man Yu understands”. Speak mas Reno by softening the voice and lowering the tone of his speech. Mas Reno was really scared of losing me.

“I'm afraid mas, please don't force me. I'm sorry I let you down. Really I can't, I don't want to make you more hurt, maybe our destiny just got here “.

I said slowly afraid to hurt her feelings even though I actually hurt her feelings.

“Tega you Yu, you really want to part with me?". Hoarseness mixed with tears falling. Mas Reno is heartbroken.

“Sorry mas, forgive me, I really can't, understand, meet your happy with another”.

“I'm sorry, I shouldn't have accepted your love in the first place, so you wouldn't expect more from this relationship. I'm sorry for giving you all this hope. Forget I found another woman. A woman better than me who can love you and love you with all her heart”.

Still with sobs and stammering I revealed it.

“How can I be happy Yu is a woman who is able to make me happy only you”.

“Where is that guy? I want to meet him”. Say Reno mas with a very tangled face.

“For what mas?”.

“I want to make sure he loves you sincerely. I want to make sure he's a good” guy.

Mas Reno repeatedly let out a rough breath.,,

“No need mas, you just wait for our wedding invitation, you also have to be happy, let's find each other's happiness in a different way"

“How can I be happy? While half my happiness and my soul clings tightly to you”.

Mas Reno smiled wryly at my answer.

Reno looked at me sadly. Reno's gaze was so sharp and piercing. His eyes returned to tears.

"When I really love you he said softly but still clearly heard".

“I really love you. I really want to make you Queen of my palace. Made you a mother to my children. It was really very difficult for Yu to accept this reality. I have been hoping for a lot of happiness in our lives to be with our children. But everything's gone”.

"If someday I find you unhappy, then I'll take you back”.

Mas Reno took my hand again, saying all of that with teary eyes. Tears rolled back her cheeks.

"Mas please don't be like this".

“If in a year's time, he doesn't marry you then I'll take you back Yu, I'm not messing with my words. I'll do everything I can for that. Remember!!!”.

"I'll wait a year, I'll be patient for that. I'll ask your parents to marry us right then and there".

"Please don't be like this".

“Let's be happy with each other in a different way mas, really you deserve a woman who is much better than me”. I let go of Reno's hand slowly.

After a few hours later, I was finally able to convince Reno and he could accept the reality.

The two of us parted well even with an agreement that if one year I never got married then he would come back again, and promised to be a good friend and brother.

It's just that Reno did not mess with his words if within a year mas Andika never make me his wife then he will take me back.

I was afraid to imagine it if it had to happen.

***

My parents treated Reno very well. My mother and father had high hopes for my relationship with Reno. I explained that we were not meant to be husband and wife. I've been trying to make it clear to them that our relationship is over. My mother breathed a sigh of disappointment.

“Padahan I hope that Yu nak Reno will be mother”'s daughter-in-law.Huft's mother left me and went into the kitchen.

At nightfall I again locked myself in my room, lamenting my mistake to Reno who had been very consciously wasting it for several months we were in a relationship.

I stared at my phone many times hoping that there was news from Andika mas who had been missing for two days without a trace. I wish there was a call or an incoming message calling me. But my hope was in vain and never came true. Dika went back missing without a trace.

The sadness is getting worse. Mas Dika really did not contact me again since our last meeting yesterday, when no problems occurred.

“Didn't you promise you will call me, will take care of me and not make me cry back”. Rahayu's mind in her heart while looking at her phone that never vibrates.

***

The next day my face looked very tangled, mother and father thought I was sad because parting with Reno mas, unfortunately not, I was sad because Dika mas back did not give news for the umpteenth time.

Several times my mother and sisters came to my room to persuade and comfort me not to be sad. I tried to shift my mind by making some cookies. But sadly, all is nothing, I am still sad.

I finally decided to go back to my town. Don't want to make my family as anxious as my attitude. I want to get busy again, busy I will again forget the Dika mas.

Yes, I will forget it again.

 Stupidly I was still hoping for her, obviously we were both different. Maybe you are married or even have children. Our meeting yesterday may be just a little memory for Dika mas. Maybe he was tired of his partner to make me as an impingement that day.

On the way back to the overseas city my heart broke again. I cried again along the way. I cried'i my love story.