Talak After Shah

My Gratitude

I saw Mikail rubbing her eyes using her elbow, I took a deep breath watching her cry

Then I gave her the heart code using my finger

Mikail smiled bitterly as well as me.

He gently touched my shoulder and I turned my back and finally the door closed

Mikail and her four best friends retreated away as the plane was about to move

I looked through the window, Mikail and her five friends waved their hands. As well as our three bodyguards, they also waved their hands

Until finally the plane really took off and I took a deep breath

I sat down at my place earlier, next to the brother who kept tightly grasping my hand

I just kept quiet and my brother let me be quiet, maybe my brother gave me some space to calm myself down first

"Sleep, our journey is very long" said my brother after a long time I kept silent without saying a word

I looked and just shook my head. And my brother rubbed my finger back in his hand

"If you need a backrest brother is ready"

I finally smiled at her words

True, my brother said, our trip was very long, almost almost ten hours new we will land at King Abdul Aziz airport

I saw two bodyguards sitting and three pilots who took turns sitting not far from us

After a long time a bodyguard approached us, by then my brother had started to close his eyes

I coded the bodyguard not to wake the brother, and the bodyguard nodded

"Madha tahtaju?" (What do you need?)

"Eafwan sayidati 'aradt faqat 'an 'as'al, hal targhabin bishurb 'aw 'akl, sayidati 'am sidi?" (Sorry madam, I just want to ask, does the madam or master want to drink or eat something?)

"Sa'aeud lilhusul ealaa mashrub" (I'll go back and take a drink)

"Shukran, faqshukran at 'ahdur li mashrub ghazi" (Thank you, just get me a soft drink)

The bodyguard nodded and before long the bodyguard returned with a trolley table filled with food and drinks

My hand stretched out to grab some snacks and a bottle of cold drink

After drinking a little of the soft drink I put my head to the glass window

Staring out, towards the bright night sky because of the full moon

I had to take a deep breath when I remembered my family that I had left

I didn't feel back the clear circles running down my cheeks

The memories of the past seemed to be leaping out of my head. It all seemed to repeat before my eyes

I took a deep breath when I remembered how Ms. Mira and her family were treated, and Andi's mistreatment of me

I smiled bitterly when I realized that finally the difficult and dark time had passed

I never thought I would be in a position like this. Where I am happy to have a harmonious family, have five proud children, have a husband who loves me very much and also have a large family that always supports me

Yes now I am lucky, but I did not know how long I had been slumped and broken, crying to the point of shivering from enduring the deep pain

While I was struggling to maintain my household, even my husband preferred his affair

I don't know how many wounds I felt from being far apart from my three children, how much mental burden I covered and trying to look okay in front of everyone

True said my three children, the plan of Allah is the best plan. Humans can plan but it is Allah who determines it.

I used to dream and hope that I would age with Andi, happy in our old age.

But Alloh showed that Andi is not the best for me. And Allah replaced him with a much better man than Andi, Ozkan Yilmaz, a man who loved me and also accepted my past

Perhaps in this world the people of Adam thought that women were weak creatures, but they were wrong

Women are the most powerful beings, we women can smile when our hearts are sick, we can forgive when we struggle to forget

And I myself do not know why Allah chose me as one of the servants who live in a hard destiny, out of which side Allah sees my ability and toughness to get through all this

Every night must cry out of self-pity, every day must pretend to look okay in front of everyone

Resisting the feeling of wanting to complain, the feeling of being crushed, the feeling of wanting to be angry, all I can hold alone. Until I finally became a tough woman

From the life I have lived in a household all this time, I can draw conclusions if an cheating person just dropped himself

I remember how I accompanied Andi from zero until she was successful, and when she was successful, she turned away from me, and picked her affair which finally took her from zero point of success

True the phrase I have read "for husbands who want to try their lives destroyed, please ignore your wife, lie to your wife, zolimi your wife, destroy her mentality, will not be long you will feel how destroyed your life, will not be long, remember, only your wife is able to take you from zero to the top, while your affair will take you from the top of zero"

I took a deep breath again and took my brother's hand, then held him tightly, smiling at his sleeping face

"God won't take anything away from you, if it doesn't replace it with a better one"

And it's true, Allah replaces it with a much better one even beyond my expectations. I've never dreamed that I'd be a millionaire wife, the wife of a very handsome man

I am very grateful for my life now, even though I am far from my three children and my extended family, but Alloh replaced it with Ummi and Miss Alima who are like parents and brothers to me

And Alloh also replaced my pain of neglect by giving in-laws as good as Anne Aylin and Baba Yusuf Yilmaz, who thought I was like their real son, not as a son-in-law and replacing evil sisters like Laras and Maria with best sisters-in-law like Ozlem Yilmaz and Canan Yilmaz

I glanced out the window again, and I turned my gaze when I saw the pilot and copilot who had rested standing up and walking towards the cockpit

Then before long two copilots and the pilot on duty appeared, nodding their heads as I smiled at them

One of them came towards me

"Ma zalat rihlatuna ealaa bued sabe saeat sayidati, 'ala tasheur bialnueas bieda?" (Our flight is still seven hours, madam, is madam not sleepy yet?)

I nodded while smiling back

"Ma zilt 'urid 'an 'ahsab alnieam alati 'aetaha allah li fawq hadha alairtifae ya sayidi, hataa la 'ansaa 'an 'udaeif shukri" (I still want to calculate the favor that Allah gave me above this height sir, so that I do not forget to multiply my gratitude)

The pilot smiled then slightly nodded his head at me, heard my answer, then he walked forward, then sat down near his companion who had sat down first

And I who still clasped my brother's hand took him to my chest, clutching my brother's hand with great affection

Ozkan wriggled as he felt like his hand was being pulled, and opened his eyes

Then he smiled and immediately rubbed his wife's head with his right hand

Then he pulled his wife's head and put it on his chest and kissed her on the top of his head many times