Talak After Shah

Expanse of My Heart

I took a deep breath while rubbing my face rough as the voice of Adzan rang out

My crying broke because it was getting closer to the time I got home

Yuk Yana and mbak Dian who cleaned up the rest of the cooking immediately embraced me tightly

"May long life bring us back together" I sobbed

"Come on, I'll take care of them like they took care of us"

"Daughter of umak and father just ayuk close, only ayuk that I can rely on" my cry grew louder because I had imagined the no-no

"Find someone who can spend money with my brother, his salary takes from my money"

Brother Andri nodded, I saw my father appear while putting a smile on us

"Sholat, weep again"

We all smiled, especially me and Yuk Yana, we who were crying were forced to smile

Adam immediately ran up and immediately ablution and adhan, while others including me also took a ride on the second floor

There I saw my brother and our twins

We finished all the prayers that my father had received.

Finish praying at the moment shaking back my emotions mixed

I cried when I hugged my mother

I don't know why I feel so sad to leave my community. A woman who loves me more than anything

Even when I shake hands with my father. Back I was crying hard

My father stroked my back, and I could see that my father was crying too

"Other health, sir, I promise anything I'll do for you"

My father did not answer but kept stroking my shoulders

"I love you very much." I continued while not crying.

Then I took a deep breath when I took off my arms to my father

Seeing me take off my arms Naura approached and changed into hugging me

"We are always waiting for you in this house" he said

As hard as I can, I hold my cry, but I can't. My tears flowed back and I clenched them tightly

My whole family was crying even Defne and Serkan who didn't understand us talking about crying too. While Ozkan's brother only took a deep breath while staring sadly at me

Back in a stammering voice I leave my children to my extended family. Even my brother added my words

"If Naura or Adam want to meet my mother, or father and umak and other brothers want to meet Indah, just tell me the same, let me have the pilot pick me up here"

My whole family nodded.

"Or Adam if you want to be an entrepreneur just say papa, the whole company papa will accept you with pleasure"

Adam smiled

"In Shaa Alloh if now I still want to be a soldier pa, but do not know in the future, because only Allah is the Most Reversing human heart, if later I want to be a businessman, if later I want to be a businessman, I'll tell papa"

I stroked the head of Adam sitting next to me with a smile

"What time does he plan to come home?" ask my father

"Nine o'clock tonight, because we're going to stop by for a while in Jakarta, we want to say goodbye to Mikail"

While we were chatting casually Nina appeared

"Sorry everyone, dinner's ready"

I looked towards Nina who was still wearing the clinic uniform

"Later we will eat it, for Isha is soon" answered my father

"Here Nin comes in, have you prayed?" much

Nina nodded

"So, I prayed downstairs" and replied as soon as Nina came in and sat down near Alan

"Nin, about an hour away, please take care and look at the house yes, do not hesitate to reprimand your two nephews"

Nina nodded

"If one day you find the right man for you, don't be traumatized to open your heart"

Nina nodded back, and I saw her smile in shame

"If your father is sick, you don't hesitate to go home, you permit a holiday"

Nina nodded back.

"Make this also your home, take care and take care, if you need anything, say the same mbak, immediately contact mbak, do not hesitate"

Nina nodded and I saw her eyes glazed over

"Mbak doesn't know when to come home again, but may we all live a long life so that we can all meet again"

This time my father asked my brother who was a priest, and my brother wanted us to pray

Finish praying all down and dinner.

After dinner, the three of my ayuk and mbak Dian directly put all the food they cooked earlier into plastic, tie it firmly and put it in cardboard

It turns out that in addition to the empek, model, and tekwan, apparently they have also prepared various fruits and also dried fish, roasted fish and even frozen fish

I just shook my head when I saw a pile of cardboard filled with so many souvenirs

While my two brothers put the cardboard they had duct tape into the car

And I went upstairs to take a shower, because I haven't had a bath since

Half an hour before nine o'clock at night, I got out of the room

All my family stared at me who was walking down the stairs.

Because they were waiting for me. I who was so finished changing clothes earlier did not go down but cried back in the room

As much as I can, I put a smile on my extended family.

I saw my brother and twins were ready and they started to greet my father

My steps immediately felt heavy as I was about to arrive in front of my father

I saw my general tears flowing as the twins kissed her hands, especially when I stood in front of her

The tears that I had been holding back from earlier were spilled when I hugged my mother tightly

"I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry about the afterlife" I said

Umakku did not answer, only his crying was clearly heard by me

My tears broke when I hugged my father again. This time I could say nothing but sob

Back my emotions were mixed when I hugged my two brothers

"We love you very much." said Angga's brother who made my cry even louder.

Brother Andri just hugged and rubbed my head while rubbing his face

Yuk Yana was just like me, she was crying loudly and seemed unwilling to take off her embrace

"Be careful on the deck road" he said intermittently

And then Dian cried just as hysterically as I did

Hugged me tightly while crying

"It's good to continue, mother, so we can meet again" he said

I nodded and clasped his hand tightly

Then I hugged Nina, put my three children back on her, and I kissed Alan on the forehead who also seemed to be crying sadly

Lastly, my two children simultaneously hugged my body tightly.

I couldn't say anything more than crying when I hugged them

"Take care of each other and love each other, son" I said as we took off each other's arms

Both my sons nodded. Then the two of them took my hand and walked out of the house

The ones who took us to the airport tonight were my two brothers, my father and my two children

Before getting into the car, I turned back to look towards Yuk Yana and mbak Dian who was still sobbing

I waved at all of them, I saw my nieces and nephews also shrinking their eyes as I climbed into the car

The five bodyguards boarded my father's car with my two brothers. We got in Adam's car

Adam's clawed when the car was about to exit the yard. With a wave of hands from my ayuk-ayuk and my nephew the car goes slowly

I kept waving my hands and looking at my head until the car turned and my three children's house was nowhere to be seen

I who was sitting next to my umak immediately put my head on his shoulder and continued to hold tightly my umak hand

"For health, mother, if the pain should not be allowed to stand, immediately seek treatment, father too, yes?"

Umak just stroked my hand to hear my words

"Pray me a lot, mother"

Umakku immediately sobbed and I who also had been crying immediately hugged him tightly

"People love you all the time son, umak prayer always accompany your step"

I'm tightening my hold. I heard Naura sitting next to my umak as she pleased

I extended my hand towards her, clasping her hand tightly

"Thank you for everything Mother" said Naura

I just clasped his hand tightly, without answering as he continued to sob. Adam's car approached the airport

And my heart ached even more as those moments of separation became more real before my eyes