Talak After Shah

Strengthen Me, O Lord

Finally the car arrived at the airport. As soon as the car driven by Andri's legs stopped, the five bodyguards descended and immediately opened the trunk of the car, removing the souvenir cardboard

Finished in my father's car, the five headed for Adam's car. We were all down, and I was still holding my dad tight

The five bodyguards who had finished putting all our cardboard boxes and luggage into the plane immediately descended and stood alert behind us

Back I had to take a deep breath as the plane started circling around the airport. That means the plane is ready to board

Back I cried loudly and roared a little when my umak hugged me

"Please promise to stay healthy, mom.." My roar.

I saw my father shrink his eyes saw me hugging tightly. My feelings crumbled when I saw her tears flowing

"Why is this fate that you gave to the servant?" shirihku

My father embraced me, and I cried again in the arms of my father

My feelings had drifted so far, I felt that this was my last hold on them

"Go home son, strengthen your heart, we sincerely let you go home"

I shook my head when my father said that sentence

"I'm sorry sir... I'm sorry.." That's all I can say

"Darling.....?" brother touched my shoulder

I don't care about your touch, I know it's a code if you take me on a plane

"Go home son, pity your son and husband" said my umak take off his embrace

I took a deep breath and looked at my parents with wet eyes

My two brothers approached, immediately I clenched them both tightly. And back to crying

"Why should my destiny be far away from you, brother...?"

My two brothers rubbed their faces, I saw both of them crying too

"Everything has been outlined to you Sat, you must sincerely accept it" replied Angga

I looked down deeply with my shoulders shaking. Adam grabbed my shoulder, and stroked it many times

"Every provision that occurs in this world is a plan of Allah Swt. No one can change it, except Him.

Alloh Swt said:

...بِسْمِ اللّٰهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ...

سَبِّحِ اسۡمَ رَبِّكَ الۡاَعۡلَىۙ‏

الَّذِىۡ خَلَقَ فَسَوّٰى

وَالَّذِىۡ قَدَّرَ فَهَدٰى

"Holy is the name of your Lord Most High, who created (all beings) and perfected them, who gave destiny then directed (it)" (QS. Al-A’la 1-3).

"The destiny of God was established long before man existed. Starting from the soul mate, sustenance, work, and death, all have been arranged as well as possible. Therefore, Muslims must believe that God's plan is the best.

"The ordinance of God will not lead man to error. On the contrary, it will lead people to a safe and peaceful life" explained Adam while continuing to stroke my shoulder

Allah SWT says

...وَعَسَى أَنْ تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَكُمْ وَعَسَى أَنْ تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَكُمْ وَاللهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنْتُمْ لاَ تَعْلَمُونَ...

"You may hate something when it is good for you, and you may (also) like something, but it is bad for you, God knows, and you do not know.” (Qs. Al - Baqarah 216)

And as Al-Hasan bin Ali bin Abi Talib radhiyallahu anhuma said:

“Behold, whosoever rests upon the good of Allah's choice for him, he shall not expect anything other than the circumstances which Allah has chosen for him. This is the Limitation of the attitude of always being pleased with all the provisions of destiny in all the circumstances that God applies to His servant.

We as human beings can only plan, but all that man has planned, God will decide, because God's choice is best for His servant, so do not hope for man's plan, not necessarily the one planned to be the best for him, hope for the Creator of nature"

Shaykh Shalih al-‘Utsaimin rahimullah said:

“Do not every one of you hate something that Allah has determined, for indeed Allah SWT has determined something of great benefit that you do not know from him.”

If what we want is not the best in our lives, do not make a disturbance in life, and despair of all affairs so that we neglect the duties as Muslims. Ibnul Jauzi rohimahullah said:

“God's predestined plan for you is the best plan. Sometimes Allah SWT hinders your plan to test your patience, so show Him a beautiful patience. Before long you will see something that excites you.” continued Naura who grasped tightly my hand

I took a deep breath to hear the advice of my two children. I elus the head of both

I turned my face back to the star-filled sky, trying to make peace with my heavy mood leaving my father

I looked back at my two children in turn.

"Yes Rabb, you have made of what my two sons' hearts are, until they have accepted Qadha and Qadar Mu very sincerely, while I, who are poor in this knowledge, am still very ill" I stared at the two alternately

The plane went back in circles because we were still not boarding, and I saw my brother still standing in front of me, looking at me with a sad face

"Go home mother, In Syaa Alloh not until two more years we meet" said Adam strengthen me

I took a deep breath, turned around to embrace him and I kissed his whole face.

"Good health, son, pray for you to be strong to part with you"

Adam nodded and kissed me deeply

Alternately Naura who hugged and kissed my face, I saw her tears rushing, just as swift as my tears

"Ikhlas, mother...."

I can only nod. Then Adam and Naura held my hands together, leading me to walk up the stairs

My steps were heavy when I was one step away from the stairs

My husband and my two children had boarded, and stood turning their bodies when standing at the door of the plane

I looked up at the three of them

"Yes Alloh.." I was sick while closing my eyes.

Above I saw the three of them, my husband and twins, while near me stood two of my children, my parents, and my two older brothers

A very difficult choice, my heart

Back my father stroked my head, trying to strengthen me. He nodded his head, and so did my mother.

He rubbed my head and kissed my whole face

"Prayer is always with you, son..."

I could only nod, with a long breath I finally stepped my foot up the stairs.

When I got to the door I turned and I saw my father smiling

My heart is sad to see their smiles, it feels like my heart is breaking right now.

My tears are flowing back. And I felt a touch on my finger, I looked down, I saw the hands of Serkan and Defne

"Please don't cry Mama, Grandma will be fine"

My tears flowed back to hearing Defne's words

"Let's go, baby." said the brother touching my shoulder slowly.

I looked at my family's face. They all smiled and waved at me

With tears I waved at them and then with a long breath I turned my back, entering the plane

Patiently my brother and my two children led me to sit down.

I deliberately sat by the window, so that I could still see my family still waving at me

Slowly but surely I felt the plane start to turn, and I kept moving my head looking at my family below

Even as the plane turned around I got up from my seat and ran through all the windows so I could see my family

And in the end I felt the plane start to go up and I couldn't see my family anymore

Back I cried loudly as I continued to put my hands to the window

Ozkan again had to take a deep breath at his wife's grief. Slowly she walked up to Indah and hugged her from behind

I immediately turned around and hugged my brother and cried loudly