Talak After Shah

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"Until anytime big brother won't let you go so TKW!! snapped my brother

I just looked down scared

"If you're short on money, tell us!!" continued emotion

"Don't go son, what people say, people will gossip us for not being able to pay for you and your children" my umak said with tears

"One field of our garden, we sell it is enough for your living expenses until your children are big" said my father confused while rubbing his face

"If you say don't go, don't. Brother's salary will be your brother Sat, but brother please, don't go" my brother's voice weakened, he sat languidly on the chair

"I left because I was thinking about the fate of my children" I replied slowly

"You have no brain!! Where is your brain!! if you think about your children, you won't leave them!!" my brother raised his voice

"Where's Beautiful?" shouted a voice that I understood once, Brother Angga

My brother came in and sat down next to me. I lowered my face

"So did you hear you were going to be tkw?

I was silent not answering. He looked angry with annoyance.

"Hard-headed, very stubborn" he growled

"Told to go home instead contract, now even want to be tkw. Where is our face beautiful, where??!

"I'm trying to talk about it, maybe a brother who can" said brother Andri frustrated

My tears fell straight away. I clasped my hands tightly

"You don't think son, Ndah" said my brother bitterly

"It is precisely because I think of them, sis, that I wander"

I heard my two brothers breathing heavily.

"Your children how about you go, they are still little Ndah, pity. They are no longer cared for his father, now you also have to leave them"

"I had to brother. I had to" I sobbed

"Father will sell a plot of our garden, the money you can use your capital son"

I'm shaking. My father rubbed his face rough. A clear circle fell on his cheek

"Don't make the father a lot of thoughts son, you are old" said my father lirih

I woke up, hugged her and cried.

"Allow Beautiful go yes sir, lovely please"

My father shook his head

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"Who would you go abroad with?" naura asked as I expressed my intentions to her tonight

I swallowed and looked at him sadly

"Died with grandma son"

"If we miss, if you are sick, if you cry? woooo

I immediately hugged him. My tears fell.

"I'm sorry mom, forgive mom"

Naura shed tears when she saw me cry

"Mother promises, mother will not be long gone, later if you have a lot of money, have made you home, have bought you a car, mother will go home" I replied quivering

"Mother's going far?" ask Mikail sissu

I immediately grabbed her by my arms.

"You live with grandma, son, don't be naughty" I said with tears rising

"Later if the sister misses the mother how?"

I'm getting sobbing. It hurts so much my chest.

"Mother's gonna bring you a lot of toys, huh?"

Mikail nodded, clearly sadness on her face. As strong as I can I hold my cry so as not to be strong.

"What are you wearing there?" ask again

I rubbed my face, forcing me to smile

"Wear the plane"

His eyes immediately sparkled

"Wahhh later if the plane passes by brother will shout "plane asks duittt"

I smiled.

"You don't understand yet son" my mind shuddered.

"Let's take care of your brother equally, take care of them, do not be copied, dear. You guys have to love each other, huh son?"

Naura nodded, she immediately cried loudly

"Yuk doesn't want you to go"

I hugged her back tightly, my tears falling again

"Not long, son, not long. Mother promised mommy would return soon. When you get back, we make a dream house, huh?"

Naura nodded. I hugged the three of them.

Tonight was the last night I slept with my three children. Because tomorrow afternoon I will leave by bus to be immune to the work training in Tangerang.

Today I say goodbye to all my teaching friends. They seemed to be in disbelief when I resigned and said that I would be tkw.

My principal, both in smp and high school, looked stunned as I gave my resignation letter. And so do my friends. We were crying when I said goodbye.

But my resolve is unanimous, I will become a ckw to give a decent life to my three children.

If I continue here, I am not sure I can give them welfare, because I am just an honorary whose salary is not much and that is not every month I receive.

"Revelation of the Most Powerful Being, if this suffering, suffering, suffering, pain and grief is indeed given to the servant, then bring them closer and make them embrace the servant. If this pain is not enough for you, then give the pain until it is all gone. But I just beg, relax my brain and mind, so that I can accept all this sincerely"

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"I'm sorry yes mbak, if so long as the neighbors are a lot wrong" I said goodbye to Madam this morning when two rickshaws had transported all my goods

Madam Mila embraced me and also apologized for her mistake. Then I say goodbye to another neighbor, the last time I say goodbye to Tifa, the owner of the contract.

"Take care of yourself, Ndah, I pray for the best for you" he said as he hugged me

I nodded, after kissing the back of his hand I said goodbye to my three children towards my parents' house

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"Are you seriously going, Ndah?" yuk Yana asked when I arrived at our parents' house

"Yes yuk"

Yuk Yana took a deep breath

"Don't you feel sorry for your children?" tanyanya sissu

I ducked

"Me and my three children are like nails and yuk meat, so if one is out of place, it will hurt a lot" I replied

Yuk Yana clasped my shoulder

"Yuk did not expect the deck that your life path would be like this" he said crying

It makes me shed tears too.

"I'm taking my kids Yuk, please take care of them. Think of them like the other five children"

Yuk Yana could not answer because she was sobbing. Umakku shrank his tears.

"Where is your mother?" much

Because it's Sunday, so I know he's not in the office

"From yesterday afternoon he locked himself up not wanting to eat" replied my umak rasping

I know, my brother did this because he was disappointed with my decision.

After wiping away the remaining tears on my cheeks, I headed towards the front room, my brother's room.

I knocked on the door, there was no answer. Then I opened the door that was unlocked

I found my brother sitting on the floor with cigarette butts strewn about. He looked away when I came in.

I cried as soon as I saw her. Then I sat on the bed

"I know my brother is disappointed with my decision" I said hoarsely

My brother brought back a cigarette. Sucking it deep, like not hearing my words

"I'm sorry brother"

My brother is still quiet. I'm sobbing more and more

"Don't you love me?" much

"You don't have to ask" he replied coldly

"I know that my brother loves me very much, so I take my children, brother, please take care of them, please replace my role as their parents, please protect them and love them like a brother loves me" I said intermittently

My sister hugged me tightly.

"Sister is very dear to you sat, very dear" he replied in a choked voice.

I cried more and more to hear the answer. Especially when I saw my brother wipe away his tears.

"Go if it's your decision, brother is just a message, take good care of yourself. If there's anything contact us. Concerning your children, do not worry, you will take care of them and love them like you take care of them and love you" he replied

I'm getting fucked. My brother got up right away, grabbed his jacket and motorcycle keys.

"Where are you going Ndri?" yell umaku

"Let's go for a minute, mak, I don't want to see Pisat go" he replied as he pressed the motor

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The pickup car that will deliver me the rocket has arrived. My feelings are raging amazing. I felt like I was not stepping on the earth when I bowed down at the feet of my parents.

My tears are unbearable. My parents were the same, they cried bitterly.

I broke my heart as I looked at my three children who were looking at me with their sad faces.

I hugged the three tightly. As if this was my last hug. I kissed their cheeks many times, and I became stronger as I hugged Adam. The sibungsu I had to leave behind. I wanted to scream when I hugged her.

I hugged Yuk Yana, Yuk Diana ayuk my sister-in-law, and mbak Dian. We scolded.

"Titip kids ya mbak" I said as I hugged mbak Dian

Ma'am Dian could only nod, could not speak anymore because he was as sad as I was.

With heavy steps I walked towards the car parked in front of my parents' house, the driver stuffed my suitcase. Then I opened the car door and sat down. Before the car started, I opened the windshield, turned my head and looked back at my three teary-eyed children.

I forced a smile on them and waved my hand.

Slowly the car went and I put my head in. I covered my face because I could not leave my children and family behind

Seeing the car move, Naura immediately shouted hysterically

"Bundaaa... Mother do not leave us, motheraa" he shouted.

My cry became more and more, I smothered my mouth.

I turned my head, I could see how Naura was struggling when held by Yuk Yana.

"Mother..." Naura shouted back

Umakku immediately held Adam and mbak Dian immediately hugged Mikail.

I bite my lips, crumpled my heart. But I must be strong, I must be strong, my resolve.

#Sorry if I'm long up. Honestly, this chapter is so emotionally draining that even to write it I can't. My tears flowed until I finished them, even when I double-checked I cried again.

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