Suicide Notes

Women on the First Day

“I'm not a good-hearted angel. I'm just a selfish man focused on my ambition to die. Everything I do is just to make death come to me sooner. I don't need your thanks.”

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Adriana and Tama. Victor was sure these two names were no strangers in his ears. He knew her somewhere.

“Truely too, he was the first suicide victim I met after the foundation stood.”

Adriana's name makes Victor reminisce about his struggle to establish a foundation. He had to spend days to complete his proposal. After that, collect donations from many sources.

Perhaps, those days were the most exhausting in Victor's life. Not many people want to spend their time and money to help. The foundation itself is not convincing.

Although only with a few administrators, and a small office, the Foundation planned by Victor successfully inaugurated. Like a miracle, but according to Victor's hard work.

The hardest problem may have passed. However, there was not much they could do with limited funds and manpower. That day everyone came together to plan.

The first day the foundation stood, and Victor was already feeling good about his activities. He set up this foundation not so that he could sit still.

“I'll be gone for a while,” Victor said.

“But-”

Ginette and her colleagues stared at each other uncomfortably.

“I told you, ‘kan. This foundation will have no future. Just look at the leader, go as you please,” protest one of them.

“Actually, I also don't want to be here,” another timpal. “If you have got a steady job, I will get out of here.”

“I will reprimand him,” said Ginette as the oldest. “So, please think back before stopping. At least let's see the development in this one month, huh?” wheedled.

Ginette was the only person who willingly became part of the foundation. He even quit his job in an instant after Victor offended would set up this foundation.

Though unconvincing, Ginette believes Victor's good intentions will bring good.

Meanwhile, Victor has been driving his bike on a crowded highway. Move as fast as possible to where it's headed.

“If it's too late, it's possible that the girl is dead,” thought Victor.

The reason Victor left without explanation was the news he read while at the foundation. About a girl who hurt herself for love. More precisely, due to embarrassment after failing to trap the person he loves one hand.

The human mind is unpredictable. How many times had he thought, Victor still did not understand Adriana's way of thinking. Can a human love another human being like that?

Two hours passed with questions that did not get an answer. Forgetit. Victor has now arrived at the hospital where Adriana is being treated. That answer will be obtained soon when he meets her.

Victor smiled obliquely at the hordes of reporters gathered in front of the hospital. With the conglomerate's father, it was certain that no journalist would be able to meet the girl.

Different from those reporters. Victor is a great speaker, and there are foundations he can use as a supporter. With a little negotiation, he could already be in the girl's room.

“Adriana?” call Victor.

“Ya?” replied the girl sitting on the bed.

“Hai. My name is Victor, from foundation-”

“It looks like you misunderstood.” Victor put on the most friendly smile he had.

“Tama,” call Adriana while pulling the arm of the girl she called. “There is no way journalists can get in here, right?”

Adriana has a stunning smile. Very calm. Not like someone who just survived a suicide attempt. However, Victor saw the fragility behind his view.

“Can I speak alone with Adriana?” victor Pinta.

“Cannot! There is no guarantee you will not hurt brother,” refuse Tama.

“Take it easy. I can't possibly hurt your brother,” Victor persuaded. He patted Tama's shoulders gently. “You must have loved Adriana very much. So, I'll take care of it for you.”

“Ba-fine. But just for a moment,” replied Tama, then glanced at her brother. “If he does a bad thing, instantly yells, yes.”

Adriana nodded gracefully. “So, what are you planning? I just found out a social foundation can send someone to meet a woman like me.”

The suspicious statement from Adriana did not make Victor cornered at all. After putting down the flowers he was carrying, the man sat down while peeling an apple.

“I've never heard of anything like that either. To be honest, I was indeed not sent by the foundation. The foundation is not even 24 hours old.” Victor admitted his lies without guilt.

“Are you sent by that bastard?” Adriana looked at Victor and the knife in his hand. “Sama-sama is sweet-mouthed, definitely the same bastard.”

“This worry? Alright, you can hold it for self-defense if I do bad things,” Victor said as he handed the knife in his hand.

Adriana is disgusted by Victor's treatment. His expression as if to say, “Enyahlah.”

“I came of my own accord. Um, let's just say you want to visit a friend.” Victor shrugged his shoulders. “Friends one destination,” he added in heart.

“I will never believe the words of any man, let alone a sweet-mouthed one like you. Go!” expel Adriana.

“You're like you just lied to a jerk guy, heh?” chirps Victor. He tried to recall how the journalist wrote about Adriana. “Oh, what does that mean that what's on the news is inversely proportional to the reality?”

Adriana turned her face away. Rumors about him being seductive and wanting to frame the man he likes are not true. And he tried to commit suicide not because he couldn't bear the shame.

Victor massaged Adriana's wrist slowly, so the girl reflexively turned her head.

“I am not the sister you love and want you to protect. I'm just a stranger. You can say anything to me, you can show your weak side if you need to,” Victor said.

Adriana wanted to refuse, but tears preceded her rejection. With a hoarse voice he told her how much he loved Will. He was so happy when the man expressed his feelings.

“I think he really loves me,” said Adriana.

For various reasons given by Will, they also agreed to establish a relationship secretly. The relationship went well for 2 years, without anyone knowing.

One week ago, Will sent a message telling Adriana to come to his house. Adriana thought, maybe she will finally be introduced to the man's family. Unfortunately, he was wrong.

That afternoon Adriana is greeted by Will who is unconscious due to the effects of alcohol. Without saying anything, Will pulled Adriana in, then began to groan her body and say depraved words.

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