Suicide Notes

Madman

Among the swimming fish, Victor could see a white light. The light was not dazzling at all. Instead, it made him feel calm and comfortable. Is this how people who die in a normal way feel?

During his days with Life and Death, Victor had already witnessed many people die. Old, young and kids. Due to illness, accident, murder, and suicide. There are also those who died because they were old, like Tama.

Everyone who is gone will go to the light. However, no light appeared on the day of Victor's death. Every now and then, he tried to break through the light belonging to others. Unfortunately, Victor's efforts were in vain. The light was untouched by Victor who was not yet completely gone.

For decades, Victor had always wondered, Will he always be like that? Till when? Should he wait for the apocalypse for this unpleasant life to end? Today, Victor can breathe a sigh of relief. A light has appeared for Victor. He didn't need to do anything, his soul moved itself there.

"Why so long? Little hurry!" tama's scolding awaits on the threshold of light. His cheeks bulged with a frown, his expression looking extremely irritated.

"You look much younger than you were when you were buried." Victor grimaced at Tama's pinch on his stomach, a gift from his overly honest words.

When buried, Tama's face was already wrinkled. His facial muscles are loosened, although it still looks beautiful for the size of 70-year-old grandmothers. Meanwhile, the Tama that Victor was facing right now was the same Tama as when they were fighting on the day of Elayne's death. The face Victor once thought was so annoying.

"Why look at me like that?" ketus Tama's.

"I just found out, you're beautiful." Victor smiled gently. "Very pretty."

"You're crazy, huh? Tama turned her face so that, the hue on the cheek was invisible to Victor. "I've been beautiful since."

"I must have gone completely insane" Victor replied. "I'd rather kill myself than live with a girl as beautiful as you."

At first, Victor was just bored by not being able to do any activities. So, she followed Tama everywhere, except to the toilet and while changing clothes. Over time, he realized how important Tama was. He began to regret ever wasting Tama's feelings.

"Your brain is broken, or what? Suddenly said that," lamented Tama.

"I like you." Victor's statement made Tama stunned. "You are the person I love the most, among all I can remember."

Tama. His heart was pounding, but he remained silent. Tama waited patiently for the next sentence Victor would say. A sentence Victor never even said to himself.

"I love you."

Tama's heart was filled with happiness. Wet eyes. He threw himself into Victor's arms, clutching tightly to the man. I hope they will never part again.

"Crazy basic! You're the craziest person I've ever met!" Tama hit Victor's chest softly. "You shouldn't have killed yourself and proposed to me when you were alive. After marriage, we will manage the foundation together. Then have some kids and grandchildren."

"You know how else! I really hope you're still alive somewhere. If I accept her proposal, it feels like I'm having an affair." Tama grunting.

"Where can we call cheating if we don't have a relationship." Victor hurriedly held Tama who was about to pinch him again. "I'm just kidding, okay?"

"Sucks."

Victor clasped Tama's hand. "Let's get married and have a great party. I want to have a sweet and caring daughter. Just like you."

"Whether you realize it or not, your madness is already way past the limit. We don't even know what's waiting for us out there." Tama grumbled, but she still returned Victor's grasp. "And what do you mean you want a girl? It sounds like you're gonna throw my son away, if you're born a boy."

Tama and Victor both laughed. They traced the path of light without letting go of their arms. Maybe after this they will reincarnate, or live in another realm. After all, they promised to be together there.

Before, Victor wondered, why would he have to go through the half-dead phase after killing himself? Why isn't he going straight to the light? Why did God make him go through a different process? There are millions of people who died in the same way as Victor.

The first second Victor saw Tama in the light, he got the answer he was looking for. Victor is just an ordinary man whose life has been set with something called destiny. Man cannot fight destiny.

Supposedly, Victor was destined to stay alive, but he forced himself by jumping off a cliff. Usually, God will save people like this. Makes them stay alive sometimes become a little disabled after attempting suicide. However, for Victor, He prepared another punishment that would be a valuable lesson for the man, as well as one who knew his story.

When it's not time for you to die, you can never succeed in suicide. We never know, are those who died by suicide really dead? What if they also went through a half-dead phase like Victor? It could be that in that phase their lives are even worse.

Such is. No matter how bad your day is, how big of a problem you face, just go for it. If you suffer, cry. If you can't, tell someone. Don't forget, when you have a little courage, you have to fight back and turn things around. Do not try to escape from destiny. Free. You'll never make it.

"By the way, stop calling me crazy." Victor kissed Tama's hand in his hand. "I'm not crazy. It was this story-maker who went crazy and created me."

"I know."

"You know, he also created someone even crazier than me. There's a psychopathic girl named Cica who's good at pretending. During the day, he confessed to being traumatized by blood, and at night he would be covered in other people's blood. He considered the cry of pain to be a beautiful song. He even decorated the bodies of his victims, then painted them."

"It's awful." Tama's eyes were wide open. He covered his mouth with his palm. "What happens next?"

Victor approached and whispered, "This story is titled 'Themis', just like the name of the Greek goddess of justice. Cica thinks she's upholding justice, but this story isn't really about her."

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