Suicide Notes
The man named Victor
“*If time is money, then Victor must be the most generous rich man on earth. He spends his time helping others. His life was never about himself. That's how Victor was, even long before this foundation stood*.”
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“Sorry for long,” said Tama while opening the door. But the house is empty. “Vic! I bought some food for you. Are you in the room?”
There's no answer.
The silence made Tama uncomfortable. Victor wasn't in his room or bathroom. Looking at the phone lying carelessly, Tama was sure she had only gone for a while to a place not far away.
However, even though it was dark outside, Victor did not return. At sunrise there was no sign of the man Tama liked coming home.
The conversation about suicide that Victor discussed yesterday made Tama worried. The man was filled with suicidal thoughts, what if he had already done it somewhere? I regret leaving Victor alone.
Forget berias. Tama walked quickly to the highway, stopped passing taxis, and set off as quickly as possible towards the foundation. Victor must be alive. He just doesn't want to live next door to Tama. He was probably sleeping peacefully in one of the foundation rooms.
“What Victor here?” ask Tama without further ado. His breathing was wheezing from the gate of the foundation.
“What's up?” greet Ginette. “Drink first, talk carefully. Your face is pale, have you eaten?”
“Victor, Victor disappeared.” Tama's eyes were hot because they could not repel the shadows of bad events that could befall Victor. “Yesterday I had a fight with him, then .. then he left and did not come home.”
“Sit first, yes.” Ginette leads Tama. He gave her a glass of water and did not stop stroking the girl's back. “Are you calm?”
Tama nodded. Her tears that were about to fall instantly evaporated. “Thank you.”
“Victor didn't disappear, he was just walking around. Didn't you say you fought yesterday? It's customary to walk when you need to think,” explained Ginette.
“But ..” Not sure if you should be talking about suicide notes or not.
“When he walks in no direction, Victor will find his way home. Victor is a little eccentric, he always travels and comes home when he wants to. That's why I don't agree with him being your guide,” continued Ginette.
“We had a big fight yesterday. What if he doesn't want to come back?” ask Tama.
“We can change your bag,” bargain Ginette.
“I mean, about Victor. What would you do if he never came back? What will happen to this foundation? You guys aren't worried?” insist Tama.
“Victor gave responsibility for the foundation to me so that he could freely go.” Ginette was silent for a moment. “Victor is definitely back. He's been away a few weeks, and it turns out he's out of the province.”
Instantly Tama's body felt weak. He leaned his back. Ginette's answer didn't make her feel better. If the woman knew the real Victor
“From your reaction, it looks like you've read Victor.”'s suicide note Tama jumped. Ginette know? Then why is he able to remain calm? “I and almost all senior administrators know about that record.”
“Then, this foundation was just a small foundation whose office was next to Victor's house, the place you currently rented. The moment she visited your sister, was the first day we stood,” Ginette explained.
At that time Victor left at will without the approval of other administrators. They don't even know where and what Victor's going to do. His attitude made everyone dissatisfied. So, once Victor returns, Ginette decides to speak on behalf of the group.
“I've known Victor since he was in an orphanage, we live in the same neighborhood. He always looks ... how to say it? Bright, maybe.” Ginette. “When he came back from Adriana's funeral, for the first time I saw Victor grimly, very grim.”
Ginette felt her tongue stiff. Heart's mute. If you see the sun that used to shine suddenly pitch dark, you must understand Ginette's feelings at that time. He could only silently watch Victor writing something.
“Victor big in orphanage?” sela Tama, who was responded to by a nod by Ginette.
“When he finished writing, I went in. Anyone would be curious about what happened. Before I asked, he had already banned her. So, I'm to the point at my original goal. And he decided to give me the position of chairman of the foundation. Just like that.”
“Nobody is satisfied with that decision. The impression was like Victor was taking his responsibilities for granted. The next day, news about Victor helping Adriana was published in several media, bringing in many donors.”
“Sorry, interject again,” says Tama. “I think the story can be told at a later time. Victor is missing!”
“My wits are unattractive. But please listen until it's done.” Ginette smiled kindly. “When our office is still next door to Victor's house, we often enter his house. Then accidentally read her suicide note.”
Victor always avoids that topic when asked. Just one day Victor did not show up, then the entire foundation would be beset by worries. Like Tama today, everyone in the know is afraid Victor will kill himself while on his own.
Even so, every time it disappeared, Victor would definitely return. There are always new donors or volunteers when he comes back. Sometimes it is also part of one of the programs created by the foundation, for example, the cancer care movement.
“After several discussions, we think Victor just can't let himself stay in the foundation, while out there there are many people who are trying to commit suicide.” Ginette smiled proudly.
“He always goes to prevent people from killing themselves. That's how he met the donors and volunteers he brought back.”
“You're as sure as that?”
“I saw Victor grow up. I did not know him directly, but he was always light-handed to help others, comforting the sad and more. We're sure he doesn't want others to feel the way he feels.”
Ginette gives a warm hug to Tama. Victor is hard to understand. Most of his actions would make anyone who cared about him feel worried.
“Just want to tell, I grew up with difficult economic circumstances. One day, my sister almost committed suicide because of it. Thanks to Victor for foiling the experiment.”
“Your sister is alive?” Tama raised her head.
“Yes. He often participates in volunteer activities.” Ginette's room was empty for a moment. “Sometimes, reality is your perception. You have to be positive, in order to give Victor.” a positive aura
Tama digested all of Ginette's stories. The woman was right. He had to throw away thoughts about Victor killing himself. He must be sure Victor is saving someone's life right now.
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