Suicide Notes
Two Thoughts
“*No problem, ‘kan, although our thoughts are different. Isn't it important that our goals are the same? Two hands would be easier to save a life*.”
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Tama held her breath as Victor's face was only a few centimeters away from her face. His heart immediately beat very fast.
“*His romantic scene came this fast*?” thought Tama who was closing her eyes tightly.
“Listen. The foundation stood because I founded it. I appointed Ginette to be the chairman of the foundation, I can also dismiss her at any time. You think he dares set me up?” whispered Victor.
“No! Don't fire him.” Tama backed off and lowered her face. “I persuaded Ms. Ginette, and said you would, because we knew each other before."
"Heh. Too easy to guess." Victor rolled his eyeballs.
“Starting tomorrow, I'll intern at your foundation. I beg you, be my pamong, "pinta Tama.
“I'm busy, and I don't want any intruders in my activities,”.
“But..”.
Victor raised next to his eyebrows. “What's the problem? You can still ask someone else to guide you.”
Tama glanced the other way, hesitantly replied, “Of course because I want to be near the person I like.”
Victor could not hold back his laughter. “Ah, it turns out so. Since I'm a man, you want to seduce me to make your grades easier.”
Tama wanted to defend himself, but Victor first patted him on the shoulder. “My mood is good. Let's just say today never existed, and do your field practice well and correctly.”
“I'm not so.”
Victor breezed to leave Tama. There was no point in him talking to such a girl. The kind of girl he hoped would never deal with.
“Haah .. Why are you still following me?” irritated Victor.
“Ti-it's okay. Just by chance we will go in the same direction,” replied Tama which made Victor speed up his pace. “Wait!”
“Go,” furious Victor. Tama's more annoying than she thinks. “Jalan first. If indeed we are in the same direction, I will let you.”
“M-the thing is, I'm lost. You ‘kan know I'm still new in this city.” Face to ear Tama reddened. He felt like a child who easily got lost.
“*Only he is lost*?” inner Victor. Victor snorted, deciding to keep it as his secret. He had to save his reputation!
“You hate me?” Tama tries to get rid of the silence between her and Victor.
“Ya.”
“Why? I really don't intend to seduce you, I do like you. Is that wrong?” sergeant Tama.
“We don't even know each other. Even so, whether it's true or not, I'll still hate people like you" Victor said.
“The last time we met, you said that too. What was my mistake?”
Victor was silent for a moment. “Nothing. You just think like most people. The mindset I hate. If reincarnation is real, I'm sure I'll still hate you in the next life.”
“Is it that bad?”
“Not bad, but I hate it.” Victor breathed a heavy breath. “While saying that he wasted his life, while someone outside the same is struggling to survive, what do you think?”
Tama knew it was not a real question, so she did not answer it. Just shut up and listen carefully.
“Indeed, comparing her life with others will lighten her load? No. gabe. Without you talking, he must have understood that many people want to be in good health like him.”
Victor spilled all his thoughts. He understands that Tama is trying to save Ray from killing himself. It made Ray grateful for his life.
I don't know how many times Ray came to that place with the intention of suicide. Then, he would try to strengthen his own heart using the same motivational words. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Victor was silent for the next time. He feels stupid. What is he trying to do? Although it was well explained, Tama would not understand the feeling.
The public will never accept any excuse for suicide. That's reality.
“Do you do that too? Repeatedly strengthen yourself.” Without warning, Tama had wrapped her hands around Victor's waist. “If you need someone to listen, you can look for me.”
When was the last time anyone hugged Victor while asking him how he felt? Victor doesn't remember. Maybe never.
The childhood memories he had were just the noise of a fight. And as Victor grew up, he threw away all his feelings.
“While on that roof, you said you wanted to kill yourself,” said Tama. “I won't let it.”
“*Ant. I should not have been able to cry. Why now*..?”
Victor restrains Tama's body when the girl wants to let go. Once again, to maintain his reputation, Tama must not see the urgent twists coming out of Victor's eyes.
“Your heart rate is very fast,” muttered Tama. “Do I make you flutter?”
“Together.” Victor pushed Tama away, before the girl looked up and saw her eyes still wet. “I'm just shocked.”
“You returned my embrace. Does that mean you don't hate me?” Tama smiled broadly.
“Only in your dreams.” Victor sped up his pace to stop Tama from discussing the incident just now. “Already main road. We parted here.”
“No.”
It seemed, Victor's reaction to his embrace made Tama even bolder. Just look at his hand hanging from Victor's arm.
“Least.”
“Miss.”
“Least.” Victor jerked his hand. “Once again you do as you please, I will make you repeat your field practice.”
“Let every day accompany you in the foundation?” tama Goda.
While in college, there were many girls who approached Victor aggressively like Tama. However, still the man was unable to deal with Tama. At least he doesn't hate those girls, unlike Tama.
Disgusting. Victor desperately wanted to curse at the girl. However, what's the point? Being treated harshly alone did not make the girl leave, let alone with words. Victor decides to conserve his energy by ignoring Tama. It's just...
“Where do you want to follow me?" frantic Victor. "What do you want to do in my house?”
“Nothing. I ‘kan stay next door for a while.” Tama blinked her eyes repeatedly.
“Sok cute, makes me want to puke alone,” Victor's circus before opening the door of his house.
“I am indeed cute.” Tama blinked one of her eyes. “Persis like the late sister Adriana.”
Victor exhaled violently. Just leave the girl. Responding to his narcissism will not benefit anything.
“Oh, correct. If you want to make me repeat my field practice, it means you want to be my pamong. It's decided, you can't deny it!” cheering Tama, then ran into his house.
After locking the door, Tama held onto her chest. There's an incredible crash there. His happiness has peaked. The moment he had hoped for for the past three years had finally materialized.
“I don't know, I'll be this happy. If I don't control myself, maybe I screamed when I realized it was him,” Tama told herself.
“Hopefully, after mentioning Adriana's name, she will remember about me.”
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