Suicide Notes

Believing Girl

“*Some people say, only those who do not believe in God choose to commit suicide. Those who do not surrender to the miracle of God. Then, what do I see right now what*?”

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Elayne flinched after half-stripping her upper clothes. He looked at Victor right in the pupils of his eyes. Smile to see the slanted smile on Victor's face.

“Very brave,” comments Victor.

“Why are you smiling?” Tama closed Victor's eyes with both hands. “Do not tease him. Quickly cover your clothes!”

“Your mind is dirty once.” Victor took Tama's hand away from her. Twisting the girl's body to get a better look at Elayne. “See what it wants to show, not what you want to see.”

Tama exclaimed stifled. The condition of the woman in front of him was very sad. There are bandages in many places. Neck, stomach, both wrists. There's also a rope around his neck, like Vero's.

“Didn't you take care of something like this?”

“You can close it back,” Victor command.

How could this man remain relaxed after seeing all that? Tama doesn't believe Elayne complied after being ordered to shut everything back down. What's up here? What the hell's going on?

“In short, I have repeatedly tried to kill myself,” said Elayne as if understanding the contents of Tama's heart.

“And already at the extreme level I know,” Victor added. Victor stroked the scar on Elayne's wrist that was not covered in bandages. “You must have cut it very deeply. I'm amazed you can still survive.”

“Yes, right? Why am I not dead?” lamented Elayne. “This is Sean's fault, my assistant. He's too sprightly. And because of that problem he stuck 24 hours a day to me. Shitty, right?”

Victor glanced at Tama. Well, he knew very well how annoying it felt as someone continued to tail him. “Then, what do you want from this foundation?”

“Sean forced me to go to a psychologist. Amusingly. I don't want to share my story with those pretentious people. Then I read the news about this savior.” Elayne embraces Victor's arm. “And Sean agreed to let me go if I was with you.”

“I cleared my schedule to fly here. Aren't you flattered?” god Elayne. “Should at the moment I'm at the exhibition.”

“Not really.” Victor chuckles. “Sounds troublesome.”

“Is this a good time to joke?” annoyed Tama who felt alienated from the conversation.

“It looks like I showed a pandora box to this poor girl.” Elayne stroked Tama's cheek. “Consider you didn't see anything.”

“No need to care about it, he will also not obey your words,” said Victor.

“Um, okay. So, how about now? We're going on a date?” bring Elayne.

I don't like to hear that word. Dating. It's as if Victor and Elayne are in a special relationship. Whatever happens, he has to come. Those two people should not be left alone.

“You're like Sean.” Elayne stood between Tama and Victor, holding the two together. “You can come, really. Come.”

Elayne called it a date. But they were actually just walking together. It ended up in a house of worship.

That sacred place made Elayne's eyes look beautiful. He soon bids to worship and leaves Victor with Tama. Was he always like that? I don't know. Clearly, his eyes changed.

“Maybe he is asking God for help in order to escape his problem,” murmured Victor.

Isn't that usually the case? Many say, if you feel hopeless, then God is the only helper. Victor believes Elayne is one such example. It was just that, somewhere in the corner of his heart felt something was wrong.

“What's up?”

“You're daydreaming, huh?” Tama knitted her brows. “Your phone rings.”

Victor sighed. He reminded himself not to take care of other people's lives. If Elayne needs advice, she'll talk. If the woman asks for help, she will extend her hand.

“Hey, Vic,” call Vero across the phone.

Victor hates that call. And it's getting annoying to hear it from people who are obviously younger than he is. Victor moaned in response.

“Do you think I can be friends with that strange girl?” ask Vero.

“You want to be friends with him?” ketus Victor's. “With such a rude nature, I guess you will never get friends forever. You know, he's got a name.”

“His behavior is strange, of course I call her a strange girl,” protest Vero. “I'm just honest.”

“Listen, boy.” Victor scratched his temple. “Honestly it's good, but it doesn't always have to be said, especially if you want to be accepted by others. You should be able to say good things.”

“You must be kind if you want to be part of society, even if it is often contrary to your heart. You don't like it, but still praise it. It sounds hypocritical, but I think it's part of the adaptation,” Victor explained.

Victor sighed, then continued, “This world cannot walk as you please. Change attitudes or ignore the opinions of others and become a loner. You must choose one.”

Vero was silent for a long time. Perhaps he was contemplating every sentence Victor had uttered. “I understand,” he said in the end.

“I told you to change, but not overall. Some things cannot be done just to please others. You have to defend yourself. Being yourself is fun for you and others,” added Victor.

“You are too convoluted,” complained Vero.

“H-hey. Wait, I'm not done yet. Damn it.” Victor gritted his teeth. The boy needs to learn ethics and manners.

“What's with him?” ask Elayne who just came out. “His face is very unsightly.”

“The child is insubordinate,” reply Tama who has since eavesdropped. His laughter really cannot be arrested.

“Not funny,” snorts Victor. “Now, where are we going? I don't think his condition allows him to walk far. Looks like it's going to rain. Will the cold weather make your wounds feel sore?” Victor glanced at the wounds Elayne had hidden.

“Looks like I should go home,” replied Elayne. “No, not because of illness. It's nothing much, trust me. But look, someone like they're trying to swallow me alive. It would be a shame if you saw me getting scolded.”

Elayne pointed at a man with her eyes. The man ran over with a mixed expression of anger and worry. His eyes did not move a bit from Elayne. As if he wanted to lock the woman up so as not to escape.

“Alright, I'm home. Get angry later at home.” Elayne would not let the man speak. It's interesting to stay away. “Bye Vic's. Bye Tam.”

“Vic?” repeat the man. He's Sean, Elayne's assistant. He turned to look at Victor. “You're the Victor from that foundation?”

“You could say so.” Victor shrugged his shoulders.

“If you just want to meet him why run away?” Sean shook Victor's hand with pleasure. “I Sean. It's nice to meet you. Elayne must have told me a lot, so be short. I hope you can save him.”

“Don't expect too much. I am not a God who can grant your wishes.”

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