Suicide Notes

EXTRA 1: A True Suicide Note

What do you think of when you find this section after the word "finished" in the previous section? I think you must be confused. If there is still a next section, why is writing finished?

There are a lot of questions in your mind. You may be curious about Victor's fate. Hoping that he is still alive, erases his desire to kill himself and lives happily with Tama.

Believe me, I want that too! I'm not a fan of literature or novels, but reading this story really makes me feel unacceptable. I want to know the reaction of the other characters.

"Then change the script!"

You may think so, but I have absolutely no right to change this story. Honestly, this is not my story. I just helped publish under the pen name RieeHime.

Before discussing the original author of this story, don't you wonder why at the end of the story he wrote, "I'm free." instead, "Victor is free."? Or at least support the sentence in quotation marks. Got an image yet?

Is correct. The one who feels free is not Victor, but the writer. After writing down Victor's death, he also ended his life. Lubricate the monitor which is still burning with blood. We found his body when it started to rot.

If you understand, then throw away any hope of further discussion about Victor and the people around him. No one else can continue this writing. If you want, you can make it yourself freely.

No more Tama or Victor to show up here. So, leave while I warn you. I made this part just to show my disappointment and how sad the original author of this story was.

How does a writer feel when he kills an important character in his novel? I don't know about the other stories, but Tiara cried hysterically as she wrote Victor's fate. Not just because of sadness, but because of depression!

Looking at Tiara's revision history and digital diary, this story was only written during his depression. When he needed a place to vent the stifled feelings in his heart. I could feel Tiara's anxiety and worry fusing into Victor the maniac's life of suicide.

I'm crazy to know how he died. As his brother, I felt like a failure. I wasn't by his side in those sad times. He was alone, fighting with himself on dark nights.

Although it was only a foster brother, I have never once forgotten him since he ran away from home. I always look for him. I kept thinking, why did he leave? Are we still not good enough for him?

Still, I'm stupid. When I joined the police, I chose the traffic division. Had I chosen a criminal division or something, I would have had easier access to track him down.

If time can be turned back, I want to keep holding her hand. I won't let him run away again. I'll .. ah, there's no point in wondering. It's all done.

I read all the stories made by Tiara—, which are generally about psychology and murder—, along with his notes and drafts. I opened up all the files, including the video of Tiara complaining of the futility of life.

There was a bit of happiness when he mentioned my name and my parents. I'm glad to know he still remembers us. On the sad side, I just found out that she hated all the attention we gave her, because it made her feel warm.

Surprise struck me when I found out that our first meeting took place when he wanted to end his life. I just finished Junior High. How sad was his life to end like that?

From what I read, Tiara once caught her father molesting her little sister. He was furious, hitting the depraved man repeatedly to death. It's hideous!

Now I understand why he never gave a name to the old man in this story. Also the reason why there was a different anger each time he told me something related to the abuse. All because of his personal experience.

All those misfortunes will take up a lot of space if I tell you all about them. So, I'm gonna close it here. With the "suicide note" Tiara wrote long before her death. The note that made me publish this story without the slightest change.

Just to tell, he is a writer who is quite famous for his mysterious identity. I don't want his fans turning around to blaspheme Tiara's life choices. So, I'll censor when he calls himself.

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When you read this note, I may be gone. Hanging in the living room, or covered in blood in the bathroom. It ended horribly, just like the fate of Victor I had planned from the beginning.

I don't know if I'll write this novel until the end. Either I die before I finish him, or I kill myself first. I suppressed a lot of frustration to hold on until this second.

You must be surprised to read this. Why would a writer as popular as me put nonsense at the end of his novel? Why is this novel the only story I have never published? And, well, there must be a lot of other questions in your head.

I was confused about choosing the right words to write down my goals. I don't even know what kind of person would read this story file. Maybe the police are investigating my death? Or someone who is curious about all the drafts of my writing.

Hey, how do the reporters write the news about my death? Is, “Identity ***, the most mysterious author, finally revealed”? Or “ Never showed himself, identity *** finally revealed after he committed suicide”? “** turned out to be a hikikomori,” seems to sound good.

I'm being so fucked up. Maybe my word selection looks weird and elusive. Am I messing with you? It's probable. However, if you do not understand, just assume this message is not for you.

I wanted to make a suicide note on a piece of paper, put it on the side of my body. Like most people who commit suicide. But I don't know what to write. I don't have any family, friends or acquaintances I want to give you a final message.

Therefore, while gathering suicidal intentions, I wrote this novel. Let this message go to anyone who wants to read it, not specific. This message is for whoever you are, who searched my computer.

I have nothing to regret, I just want to ask for one favor. If the novel is not finished when I die, can you help me finish it? Then, please publish. Spread it to everyone. The more people who read the better.

The last work of a writer who committed suicide was about suicide. Haha, must be electrifying. Oh, right, don't have to use my pen name, take it easy. I just want to tell the world what it's like to lose hope. What someone looks like when they want to kill themselves. That kind.

Nope, no. I don't want to persuade or get a lot of people to commit suicide. I hope, after reading this, people will have a little empathy for us. Maybe I can't change the mindset of others, but there's no harm in trying, right?

Promise me you will do it for me. In return, I will give you all my savings. If you don't want to .. I'll bang your house every day!

Joking. The dead will have no more business in this world. I love you, even though we never met.

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