Substitute Mother

Chapters 23. Ren, are you okay?

after a week of abyan's departure, I was finally able to begin to accept the real situation.The days I went through felt like a new thing because I was living my life full of passion.

"morning dear". said mas bram who approached and kissed my forehead.

"morning also mas. already want to go mas?". asked me.

"yes, baby, I had a meeting this morning so it must come quickly". replied mas bram who sat at the dinner table.

"this is the coffee and the bread".I prepared breakfast for bram.

"thank you my dear". mas bram immediately sipped a cup of coffee that I served.

"mas, when did alisya come home?. I miss the same alisya mas".

"honey dear, alisya just yesterday she went to my mother's house, you have asked when she came home". mas bram laughed at my words.

"i'm lonely without him, this house feels lonely no one screams, no one is as cool as home.

"there will be me dear, besides this will be our chance to be alone". mas bram blinked his eyes.

"iihh what the hell mas".I blushed embarrassed by mas bram's speech.

"i'm done with breakfast, baby, I'm leaving first and scared late".

"yes, be careful on the road".

when Mas Bram walked to the garage, he suddenly turned his body and approached me.

"why mas?".

"i forgot something, mmuuaachhh..mmuacch". mas bram kissed my forehead and lips.

"already ah the hunt there go, later late".

"bye darling". mas bram left for work in his car.

"be careful mas".

after delivering the bram, I went back inside the house and prepared to clean up.

"non, this flower put where?". said bi nina.

"put it in the living room bi".

"good non".

feels lonely home when there is no alisya, then papa and mama come to pick up alisya and bring him to Singapore.

even though it was only a day but I have missed alisya very much. usually every day I always hear the scream bisya calling me.

"hahh..it's okay karin, alisya was there for only a week.

"non, let aunty who has a kitchen bustle.

"no bi, I have to do a lot of activities so that my weight quickly drops again.

"why should nurunin non body weight? non not fat kok. later non sick if too much activity".

"jeez bi, my body is like a gini bolster pillow still in say not fat. clothes I have not fit everything bi".

"hahahaha non-existent, want how even non still look beautiful kok". praise bi nina.

"aunty would be most happy for me.

it has been almost a month after I gave birth but my weight did not go down as well. Initially my weight of about 53 kg is now 65 kg and it makes me look short and round.

I try to lose weight naturally without having to take medication but not thin either. although mas bram never minded my weight but as a wife I felt I should be better for mas bram.

"what else do I have to do to burn these excess calories". I look in the mirror and see every curve of my body full of fat.

bi nina who was staring at me from a distance immediately came to me.

"non, don't push yourself too hard. slowly aja non, aunt worried later non fatigue due to too much work.

"what exactly did bi nina say, why would I force myself if it finally made my body hurt".

"ohh yeah bi, thanks for the attention".

I sat in the living room playing with my phone and stared at all the photos of his eyebrows.

but suddenly Mas bram called me and asked me to drop off his missing meeting file.

"hallo mas, what's wrong?".

"honey, please look at the file in my office. I forgot to bring it in and I have a meeting at 11:30".

"jeez mas, very often you forget that. okay, I will deliver the file".

"don't love, later my secretary will take it. You don't bother to deliver, you're at home".

"secretary?".

"honey, I've done a lot of work. emmuahh". mas bram hung up.

"secretary?  since when did mas bram have a secretary. instead of all this time mas bram said he did not like having a private secretary in the office.

"hmm that's it, I'd better see first in the mas bram workspace".

as I walked towards the mas bram workspace, I saw bi nina talking to a beautiful young lady.

then the woman was seen walking into the mas bram workspace and I went to bi nina.

"bi, who is he.

"ohh it's non rara, it used to be the secretary of the master non. non rara is also the son of a friend of the great master, he just returned from England and now works again as the secretary of the master bram.

"kok mas bram never told me the same, even mas bram once said that he did not like having a secretary in the office.

"maybe you think that non rara will not come back non, so you do not tell the non".

"a close aunty to her?".

"not too non, it was the time when non Grace died. non rara who helped guard the non alisya until the age of 1 year, then non rara went to England".

"there's still something I don't know".

soon Rara came out of the mas bram workspace with some files.

"bi, I've taken the bram file and just now I tidied up the workspace a little. it turns out that bram has not changed as well , still with his habits.

"ahh yes non". replied bi nina.

"he who is bi? the new maid?". asked Rara when she saw me standing next to bi nina.

"ohh this is non karin, this non Karin... ". bi nina's remark was cut off because rara hurriedly left immediately.

"already bi, I have to go back to the office immediately.

"good non".

after Rara left, bi nina looked at me with a sad face.

"why bi?  I'm fine". I said with a smile.

"sorry aunt non, should auntie not let non rara into master's den without non permission".

"it's okay bi. I also have no right to deny anything, because if I don't allow it but mas bram himself allows it to be the same bi.

honestly, my heart felt uncomfortable when I saw another woman enter as she pleased into the mas bram workspace, even though she was her secretary.

"bi, I went to the room first yes. oh yes bi, no need to make lunch but later prepare dinner for mas bram only".

"no lunch?". asked bi nina.

"no, I'm on a diet.

"good non".

soon I went back to the room to clean myself up and rest.

****

nightfall...

without me realizing I was asleep for so long, probably because all this time I could not sleep well.

"hoaamm, what time is it?". I saw the clock on my phone showing at 21 p.m.

I checked the mas bram workspace but it looks empty, even in the family room or the park does not look mas bram.

"non what?". said bi nina who suddenly appeared.

"hhhgg oh my goodness, make me surprised.

"not looking for sir?  you haven't come home yet". replied bi nina.

"not home yet? mas bram doesn't usually come home late.if he's overtime definitely tell me but this time there's nothing.

"maybe you did not have time to ngabari non because of too much work". said bi nina so that I do not worry.

"ohh yes bi. aunty rest, let me wait mas bram".

"good non". bi nina went straight back to her room.

it's been 21:30 mas bram also never come home.I've tried many times to contact him but can not.

I waited until I finally fell asleep on the living room couch.When I fell asleep, I felt like someone was staring at me.

I opened my eyes slowly and saw the bram in front of me.

"you sleep here baby, don't wear blankets anymore.

"why is it late at night to come home.

"ohh that, there is a project that must be completed as soon as possible dear.sorry if you have made you wait". replied mas bram.

"at least I can tell you". because I'm upset I'm talking a little jutek.

"sorry baby, my phone is running out of battery". replied mas bram simply.

"oh". I immediately rushed up and went to the room.

"honey, I'm sorry I was wrong for not knowing you and for worrying.

"it's not a matter of worry, but you've made me think badly of you".

"honey, I'm sorry".

"i'm tired, I'm sleeping first". I went straight to bed and covered myself with a blanket.

"honey.. hmm well. tomorrow we talk again when you are no longer angry yes". mas bram kissed my forehead.

"almost 5 years we married, but there are still things I don't know even you keep from me".

***

mornings....

"morning bi". I said when I saw bi nina in the kitchen.

"so quick to wake up non".

"yes bi, last night I had a good night of sleep so this morning I was able to get up quickly.

"want to drink non milk?".

"don't bi, I'm just drinking water".

"non, really a diet?". asked bi nina.

"iya bi, shsttt don't say the same mas bram ya bi.

"ohh yes non. but where are you going to wear those shoes?".

"i want to jog first bi, aunty prepare breakfast for mas bram yes. I go first bi".

"be careful non". shouted bi nina.

finally, I can breathe fresh air in the morning for so long.my body feels fresh and powerful while jogging.

before I got married, I always jogged in the morning, but after marriage I forgot my old habit.

now I have the opportunity to do jogging and I hope to bring alisya to do it together.

"bruukkkk.

"aaughh". I fell and my ass hurt.

"do you not have eyes? hit people at will".a female voice shouted at me.

"sorry, I didn't mean it". I immediately apologized and bowed my body.

"aihh, you saw that my coffee was spilling all over". the woman still continued to scold me even though I apologized.

"sorry, I'm going to replace the coffee. Let's go to the cafe over there". I finally invited the woman to change the coffee.

"why this morning I'm so unlucky anyway, use hit everyone".

after arriving at the cafe, I offered the woman to choose the coffee she wanted.

"please choose the coffee, I'll pay for it.

"that should be so". replied the cynical woman.

I just returned a smile to the woman, at a glance I saw the woman like an office job.she looks young, beautiful and elegant, naturally she looked down on me because of my mother-like appearance.

"hhuuhh.

"give me coffee cream maca". said the woman was a caffe employee.

after waiting 10 minutes, the coffee order was finished.

"this is the coffee". said the caffe employee.

"ohh yeah, how much mbak.

"28 thousand ma'am". replied the caffe employee.

"ohhh for a second yeah". I checked the pockets of clothes and pants but I didn't find a penny of money.

"why? no money you. belaguih pake want to change everything". said the woman I hit.

"gawat, not even a cell phone I brought it".

"sorry ma'am, if you can borrow a cell phone for a while. I want to contact my family.

"ohh well". replied the caffe officer.

"this is the coffee, please enjoy it". I gave the coffee to the woman I hit.

"oh". the woman immediately left after receiving the coffe.

"huh, there are still fierce women like her.

"this is the cell phone ma'am". the caffe employee gave me her phone.

"ohh thank you". Immediately I called home.

ttut.....

"bi nina, let's talk about the phone".

"hallo".

"hallo bi, it's me karin.

"non karin? what's the matter non? not where?". asked bi nina.

"bi, can you come here at the caffe near the city park.I bought coffee but I didn't bring any money.

"alright non, aunty will be there soon". said bi nina.

soon I hung up and returned the phone to the caffe employee.

"thank you, wait a minute". I hope the caffe clerk understands.

while waiting for bi nina to come, I sat alone in the corner of the room anxiously, hoping that bi nina would come soon.

"why today I'm so careless anyway, use the event not focus anymore when jogging". I rubbed my head.

many times my eyes stared at the entrance of the caffe, but bi nina did not come too.