Substitute Mother

Jeanno & Nayara

3 Days after I gave birth, I was finally allowed to go home by the doctor because my condition had improved.

I am happy to hear that I am healthy and can move again, but there are things that make me sad. I can not go home with my son, because of his condition that does not allow it.

the doctor told me that Abyan needed an incubator to keep him warm because he was born with less weight.

at first I was sad and refused to go home because I could not bring abyan with me. But, mas bram, father and mother gave me understanding that it was for the sake of abyan's good.

"honey, you have to hear what the doctor said yes.it's all for the sake of abyan and the doctor will take good care of abyan.

I cried in the embrace of mas bram, my heart was heavy to leave abyan in the hospital. At that time I only wanted abyan to be with me but because of the condition I had to let go far from abyan.

"karin, I don't cry anymore.every day we will come to see abyan".mother also helped calm my mind.

"i want to see abyan mas" I said in tears.

"yes, baby, before we go home we will see abyan first". replied mas bram while patting my shoulder.

"bram, you go first to the abyan room. I'll bring the karin stuff to the car, besides I've been waiting in the lobby.

"well ma'am, I'm careful". replied mas bram.

mas Bram took me to an abyan room not far from my treatment room.

"it's a shame don't cry anymore". mas bram continues to calm me.

"we've arrived, look at that baby box number 2 is abyan. You see, he's wearing a blanket that we bought together at that time". mas bram showed me.

"abyan". I said as I looked at Abyan from outside.

abyan was in the incubator room and we were not allowed in. We could only see from the outside with a glass barrier.

there was a guard in the room, he was holding abyan and leaning closer towards me.

I looked at Abyan's face closely even though I couldn't touch her. Her face looked like the morning sun was so brightening and made me smile widely.

"mas, look at abyan.it's so funny that he's a mas". I rubbed glass instead of rubbing abyan's head.

"yes dear, she looks cute and adorable".

"abyan dear, patient yes dear. mother will pick up abyan, healthy spit yes dear.

"definitely darling, we'll take abyan home when he's well.

my tears were unceasingly flowing, I was happy to see Abyan directly but I was sad to see that there was a hose attached to his mouth.

I knew it must have hurt when the hose went into his mouth, but only then could Abyan drink milk for his growth.

"we go home baby, mom and dad are waiting in the car.

"iya mas".I replied weakly.

before leaving I waved my hand at Abyan, my heart was so heavy leaving her alone.

when I got to the car, I sat limp with my face puffy because I kept crying. I lay my head on the shoulders of mas bram and mas bram stroked my head gently.

"son, do not cry. abyan must be fine.we pray that abyan quickly healthy and can gather together.

"what your father said dear, you are sad, but it would be nice if we continue to pray.

"yes ma'am.

"remove the tears baby, later alisya see you cry and he follow sad too". mas bram gave me a tissue.

again their support makes me excited again, father, mother and mas bram who always make me strong to face this situation.

earlier the doctor said that I experienced baby blues or anxiety after giving birth.I experienced anxiety when I found out that abyan had to be treated separately with me.

but I didn't have such a heavy anxiety, it was just that I thought about the bad things that happened even while I was pregnant.

but I was able to handle it because of the support from the family, it was just that I couldn't help but feel sad and let out tears just like that.

at home, Mas bram still leads me as I walk. he continues to be beside me at all times and always watching me.

"want to take a break in the room". asked mas bram.

"yes, I want to rest.

as we passed the living room, alisya who had been waiting for my return immediately ran over and hugged me.

"mother". alisya hugged me tightly.

"honey". I hugged her too.

"alisya miss mother".

"yes baby, this mother has gone home.I'm sorry mother yes, mother has left alisya at home.

"yes mother, it's okay. Which baby sister?". Alisya looked around but did not find abyan.

mas bram lowered his head and held onto his brow shoulder.

"sadly, abyan's sister has not been able to go home yet, but I promise I will immediately pick up abyan's sister and bring home.alisya play first yes, papa want to bring mother in the room and rest".

alisya was silent to Mas bram's words without saying anything.

"alisya playing with grandpa ya". father approached his alisya and clasped his hand.

"let grandma make food yes, okay baby.

alisya nodded her head with a slightly sad face.

"pinter boy, let's play". Dad immediately invited alisya to the family room .

meanwhile, Bram invited me into the room to rest.

"rest, baby, I'll bring you food.

"yes mas".

after mas bram went out, I was alone in the room and the atmosphere was quiet. I was still thinking about how abyan was in the hospital. My anxiety began to appear again when I felt alone and daydreaming.

my body is tired and my eyes feel sleepy but I can't close it. I'm facing everything will go well so I don't have to worry about anything.

when Mas Bram returned to the room, he saw me urinating on the bed. I continued to flip through my body to get a sense of comfort.

"what's the matter, dear?". said mas bram.

hearing the sound of mas bram I immediately sat down and faced him.

"gold, I can't close my eyes".

"honey, it's because you're worried about something so it's hard for your body to rest".

"i only think about abyan mas, abyan is always on my mind.

"abyan is fine baby, already here sleeping in my arms". mas bram hugged me tightly.

"don't think so much honey, everything will be fine". mas bram hugged me while stroking my head gently.

mas Bram kept hugging me and accompanied me all night, so I could rest well.

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deflect day.....

"you're awake, baby". said mas bram.

"here I bring you warm milk". mas bram put milk on the table.

"thank you mas. you want to go to the mas office?". I saw the bram mas is neat with his clothes.

"yes baby, I've been in the office for a long time.you're okay I'm staying at work". mas bram approached me.

"so I called the hospital, they said Abyan's fine".

"thank God, I'm relieved to hear". I stroked my chest.

"well baby, don't be too tired ya have to rest.later after work I'll stop by the hospital to see abyan".mas bram kissed my forehead.

"yes, let me know if you're in the hospital".

"dear Iyaa". mas bram went out the door of the room and waved his hand.

after mas bram left, I drank the milk that mas bram brought me. I already felt good enough so I chose to go down to the kitchen to help bi nina and mom.

while I was in the kitchen, I was surprised to see me suddenly behind her.

"aahhhh my goodness to make me surprised". looks tense mother's face.

"mother was too focused on washing the dishes.

"why did you go to the kitchen? just rest there". said the mother while rinsing the dishes she was washing.

"i'm tired of mom, in the hospital to sleep and at home also have to fall asleep".

"Good dong dear, that's the name of the big mistress.

"aahhh mother likes to seduce her son".

"hahaha let you relax baby, let your face bright a lot of laughs.

"alisya school ma'am.

"yes, I went with bram".

"bi nina and dad where's mom?".I feel the house is quiet.

"bi Nina is shopping again if you play at her house".

"this time I've been playing to his friend's house mom?".

"you wonder that anyway, your father is used to it like that. he wants to invite father to go fishing so early in the morning father has gone.

"hhmmm.

"you why? take a breath". Mom approached me sitting at the dinner table.

"i wish everyone in the house, ma'am, let someone have a chat".

"there will be a mother at home, mending let's cook together for mother. mother will make your favorite sweet red mussel porridge.

"mother brought the shells from home?". because the shells were only in my hometown area.

"yes, mother before coming down to the harbor to buy your favorite shells". mother pulled out her shell from the freezer.tanpamataku glared at the sight of a bag full of shells that mother brought, he said,I really know what I want to eat right now.

I helped mom make her sweet red mussel porridge, but I didn't want anyone to cook it because I thought mom was so special that I wanted to eat her stuff.

while we were making congee porridge, my mother suddenly asked me something.

"karin, you don't mind if mom and dad stay here a little while".

"no dong ma'am, my mother thinks like that.

"yes mother asked aja karin, maybe bram feel uncomfortable".

"mas bram is not like that mom, she is very affectionate with mom and dad.so mom will stay here for a long time.

"all night I talked to my father, if we would go home when Abyan was healthy and could go home.

without further ado I immediately hugged my mother and expressed my gratitude.

"thank you mom".

"thank you for what karin is?". Mom was surprised by what I said.

"thank you mom is always there for karin, even when it's like now.

"the mother never leaves her child in any condition, she will always be there beside her child with a sense of affection that is without limit".

hearing my mother's words made me more calm and comfortable when I hugged her. I also hoped to be a good mother figure like mother.

"already ah, don't hold back and hold the afternoon rush".

"hehehe yes ma'am".my mother and I continued cooking.

"now you sit down and let me bring you the porridge". Mom pulled my hand to sit at the dinner table.

"no ma'am, let me take it myself". I said .

"sstttt...have you sat down just don't protest anything". Mom went to take a bowl of porridge for me.

"this is the porridge". Mother put a bowl of porridge in front of me.

"hmm it's fragrant, it must be delicious.

"how?". asked mother.

"it's really good ma'am, really".I replied with my mouth full of porridge.

the taste of the porridge is the same as what I thought , it has not changed at all.Mom looks happy to see me so greedy when eating it.

"thank you mom, you made me a super duper porridge and the only one in the world.

from the past, every time I feel less mood, nervous or sick.mother will make this porridge for me and make me excited again.

"sama-sama son". said the mother with a smile.

after eating, I saw my mother was busy in the kitchen.

"why mother again.

"this is mom cooking mussel soup, all for lunch.

"break it first mom, eat it still a long time.mendingan mom sit and eat congee porridge".

"it's okay, son, I'm not tired yet.

a few moments later, the nina went home with a few bags of vegetables.

"mom, let me cook". said bi nina.

"no bi, I just make soup anyway". mother continues the cooking.

"let's just bi, auntie here deh". I called bi nina to sit next to me .

"why non?".

"auntie cobain this seminal red clam porridge". I poured his porridge for bi nina.

"iya non". bi nina directly ate it.

"how's bi? ". ask me.

"tasty non, really good". replied bi nina.

"it's true mom, mom's cooking is delicious.

"it's karin do not continue to promote, later the mother becomes embarrassed if there are people who praise mother's cooking". replied the mother with a shy blush .

I've always been proud of my mom, whatever it is and what it feels like she'll still be the best for me.

I also hope to be as smart as mother in serving food to her family, so that my children can grow well .