Substitute Mother

187. Farewell

Judith's fingers stretched out, wiping away the tears that seemed to have not yet receded. He'd never seen Jeanno this ruined. The destruction that cut his heart. Again, he put ego aside. Jeanno pecked the tip of his eye several times. The man did not react. She was still crying and crying in silence. Making Judith anxious isn't playing. He thought he called Mark, but Jeanno's call was strong. As if afraid that if he were to let go, Judith would disappear forever. There was nothing Judith could do but embrace Jeanno back and forth.

“I absolve the master of all guilt.”

The night was spent with a patter of regret and unspoken fondness spoken by two human children who shared a hug. One felt unworthy, while the other was afraid. Deep down, there is still so much love left for each other. Wishing to be united and happy, like the love story of normal people in general.

**

The place is endless vast in the form of a stretch of green grass whose surface there is a touch of fresh dew. Jeanno blinked her eyes several times, adjusting her limited gaze due to the slightly thick fog. He looked all over, no sign of Judith beside him.

He's alone.*

“Jeanno?”*

Judith Voice. The man turned his body back, trying to find the figure. But the result is nil, because there is not a single sign of Judith's existence.*

“Judith? Where are you?”*

“Jeanno..”*

The silhouette of a woman was not far from her place. Jeanno started running over. The distance felt close, but strangely he did not reach the figure.

“Jeanno, come here.”*

The fog that was originally nothing, now came down so thick. Increasingly limited visibility. Judith's voice kept calling out to him, telling him to come pick her up.*

“Jeanno, follow my voice”*

Jeanno, whose breath was stung due to running, is now trying to calm his adrenaline. As Judith instructed, she followed the voice. Until slowly the thick fog that he saw began to thin, leading him to the figure of a woman who sat behind him.*

“Judith?”*

The caller stood up, then turned his head with a gentle smile.*

“Nayara”*

***

With a stiff step, Jeanno approached Nayara. The woman reached out her hand to be welcomed. Only a few inches before their fingers touched each other, Nayara pulled her hand.*

“You look.. messy, dear”*

Jeanno is still tight-lipped. The fact that he ‘meet’ with Nayara now is completely unexpected. He thought that the one who called him was Judith, without ever being surprised that it was Nayar who was the owner of the voice that led him.*

“I'm sorry I left first. Leaving you in endless sadness. Leaving our child”*

‘Nayara’ looks fine. Unlike the last moment of his life that struggled with cancer. No hair loss, no sunken cheeks, no pale lips let alone eye bags. Nayara who stood in front of him was so healthy and beautiful. Her face was glowing, plus her smile was so soothing.*

“Nayara.. I failed”*

“Yes, you did fail, Jeanno”*

Jeanno looked down, as if embarrassed to look at Nayara after what he had done so far.*

“Failure is a natural thing, Jeanno. And so with mistakes. You're just a normal human being. The punishment and karma you have, it's enough that you whack yourself in a pit of guilt. Free yourself, Jeanno. Live like the Jeanno Alexander I used to know”*

“You and my sister love each other. Leave it all to destiny, if you are indeed supposed to unite, then that wonderful time will come. Destiny will never be changed, Jeanno. You just need to be patient”*

Jeanno who was still down, shook his head faintly. “Do I still deserve?”*

“Jeanno, lift your face, dear”*

A few seconds after Nayara's command, Jeanno raised his face. Nayara is holding a baby boy who is soft and healthy.*

“Na..”*

“I'm no longer lonely here, Jean. If Judith used to help me look after my daughter, now it's my turn to look after her son here”*

Jeanno approached, extending her hand to touch the cheek of her late son. He's so handsome. With reddish cheeks and a round eyeball full of twinkle.*

“There's nothing you need to worry about anymore, Jeanno. All the bad scenarios have happened. Now it's your turn to rise, continue your life”*

“You deserve to be happy”*

*

The next second, it's all dark. Jeanno woke up from her sleep. Not the field in front of him, but the roof of the room he slept in last night.

*

For years, Jeanno had never dreamed of Nayara. Now suddenly his late wife visited his dream, even conveying a special message for him. Don't forget the assurance that he and his late son are okay.

“Master is sick? if you are sick, you should not take me to the station. I can order a taxi online”

This morning Jeanno woke up alone. Judith had woken up two hours earlier, to prepare breakfast and prepare to go home. The train is at 9 and he must be at the station at least half an hour before.

Wishing Jeanno was okay after releasing his tears last night, Judith was surprised that morning by Jeanno who was getting pale. His face looked tired like a lack of sleep. He thought about calling the doctor, who was prevented by the man on the grounds that he wanted to take Judith to the station.

“I'll take you. As I said earlier”

“Distance station, sir. It would be very torturous if you take us in a state of unwell”

“I'm interracial, Judith”

Obstinately. The nature of Jeanno Alexander that seems difficult to remove. Judith chose to give up, rather than having to ruin the mood of the two. His mood has been a little disturbed due to Owen relentlessly bombarding messages about his return today.

“Good, but with a note sir should have breakfast and take vitamins before we go”

Cheap terms according to Jeanno. The man nodded and smiled thinly. He spent his time eating breakfast with Judith.

Maybe for the last time?

**

All calculations are mature. Including with the risks that will be obtained, Arman does not care. His desire to end Jeanno's suffering was strong. He could not even sleep all night so impatiently waiting for the second of execution. Arman deliberately did not tell his plan to anyone. He did not want his pleasure to be ruined.

Based on the information from his man, Judith would go to the station that morning. Which was probably ushered in by Jeanno. Goddess Fortuna apparently sided with Arman, thanks to Jeanno's sudden resignation, making Marco Sebastian drown in the busyness so many times that he could not accompany his cousin to escort Judith.

Leaving Jeanno alone to be executed, like a helpless little mouse in the test tube. Arman hasn't stopped smiling since dawn. It's really impatient. Therefore he was already in a used jeep car that he bought as a disguise. Jeep which he parked in front of the minimarket near the Jeanno apartment building.

And sure enough, around 7:20, Jeanno's car came out. Arman grinned, starting his engine while humming.

**

Forty minutes short. Time for a heavy farewell. Judith was already holding a bag of clothes beside her, waiting for the farewell that had not been spoken.

“Please yourself well”

Judith smiled faintly, even though her eyes were flooded by tears that could not be held back. So suffered two human children who love each other but difficult to unite. Every second they spend is meaningful.

“Do not cry. You're making me harder to take you off”

Judith lowered her head, wiping her tears before falling even more irregularly.

“You're getting married soon. Get enough sleep, eat a healthy diet, you should look fit and beautiful on your wedding day”

Given such a ban, Judith's hard-earned cries finally broke. He really doesn't want to go home now. He wants to stay here, next to Jeanno Alexander.

Judith's gaze was still blurred as she felt her body being grabbed by Jeanno. Not sure if the man was also crying with her, but her embrace was tight, almost the same as last night.

“If given the chance, Aera and I will come to your wedding. You deserve to be happy, Judith”

“Now we may not be able to unite, but in the next life, I promise to come to see you and make you my only”

“I love you, Judith. And it will stay that way until the rest of my life”

Not giving Judith a chance to reply, Jeanno took off a hug, rubbing Judith's cheek gently before giving Judith a thin smile that seemed painful.

“Come in, your train will soon”

Just about to respond, the passenger call for the train to which Judith was heading was echoed. He saw Jeanno waving, as a form of farewell. Judith soon realized that this was the end of her love story with a man who was not meant to be together. Judith realized that if she had to learn to let go, sincerely that indeed her soul mate was not Jeanno.

“Goodbye”

Retaliating for Jeanno's hand, Judith turned with heavy steps.

DOR'S!

Just a step away Judith turned around, a thunderous voice accompanied by a panicked cry echoed. It was as if the time around him slowed down as Judith looked back. He hoped he could turn back the clock to prevent Jeanno from dropping him off. He hoped that he would still hug Jeanno, so Judith could see who the depraved one could shoot a gun at Jeanno.

But it was too late, because Jeannonya was already covered in blood.

**