Substitute Mother

Chapters 1. We missed you, Nana

"karin let's hurry, all the guests are waiting".

my mother was always impatient about things until she hunted me.

"patience ma'am, I'm tidying up my clothes".

I quickly tidied up my clothes so as not to look shabby.

introduce my name KARINA ANATASYA, I am 26 years old, I work in a large private company in Jakarta.

in my life, I don't really think about it because I prefer to focus on working and making money.

but my mom was always worried about my life not yet getting a boyfriend, every day my mom was always talking about girlfriends, soul mates and husbands which made me so sick of hearing it.

"karin, mom and dad do this for you baby, you're the only mother's son while dad and mom are old".

"yes, mother, I understand how mom and dad feel".

I have always followed the wishes of my father and mother, because that is my one form of service to them.

"dad's son is so beautiful, may this be your soul mate".dad's eyes look teary.

I came out of my room in a hand-held by my father and mother.All the guests looked at me and it made me very embarrassed.

"dad, why so many, isn't this just a family gathering".

I didn't expect so many people to come.

"yes dear, they are all family and relatives on the male side".

I saw happy smiles on both of my parents' faces, it also made me very happy.

"sit here baby".said the mother who sat beside me.

I'm quite nervous because this is the first time I've been involved in a formal family event like this.

the men's families look like rich people, they all look luxurious and elegant but I don't see the figure of the man I'm going to marry.

"alright, since everyone has gathered here, we will start the show.introduce me Brata, papa from Bramantyo who we will match with Karina. I will here ask directly with Karina, I will ask Karina, does Karina not mind this matchmaking event? ".

hearing that question, my heart grew louder as if falling.

"i. iiya, I don't mind".

"alright, since karina doesn't mind I'm going to ask you something that might be a sensitive thing. maybe karina has never met Bram, and vice versa. that actually Bram is a widower with one child. will kak Karina receive bram after knowing this"?

honestly I was surprised to hear that the man I was going to marry was a widower with one child.

my eyes immediately looked at the father who was right next to me.

"sorry baby, if you don't tell me, but mom and dad already know everything, you don't worry baby, they're a good family, even sir Brata is a friend of the school father first". answer me to convince me.

I'm a little disappointed, why didn't mom and dad tell me this important thing, because I'm going to live with that guy, I deserve to know all about him. but I couldn't say anything when I saw my parents' smiling face.

"yes, I accept".

everyone was relieved when I received the man named bram.even my parents held me in tears.

hopefully the decision I made wasn't wrong, and hopefully this man will be my husband who can make me happy.

"please call Bram in, so we can direct this event.

seen the figure of a man holding a beautiful daughter, the man entered and sat beside Pak Brata.

"Bramantyo". he said as he shook my hand.

"Karina". I said shyly.

"please put the chirps on".

Bram immediately took his ring and he asked permission to hold my hand.

"may I hold his hand". said bram in a soft voice.

"yes I can". for a moment I immediately gave my hand to her.

my hands trembled and felt cold, bram began to slowly put his ring on.

everyone applauded when Bram put the ring on my ring finger.even my father and mother congratulated me many times.

after the engagement, all guests and families eat together to enjoy the dishes that have been prepared.

mom and dad were talking to Bram's family and I still felt awkward with bram, so I chose to go to the back garden.

"sister karin, why are you alone here". said my most chatty cousin Keizha.

"sister is still ashamed, for he is not so familiar".

"don't be shy brother, bang bram will be husband and sister later".

"iyaa keisha beaver, chatty". I smiled as keizha started to cheer me up a little.

"hahahhaa it's my brother smile.kak, I went inside first ya want to see mama first".

"okay sweetheart".

"if this all makes my father and mother happy, I will try to accept this matchmaking sincerely.at least in my life, I can make them happy".

"i don't". I saw a little boy running after a ball that fell into the pool.

"let aunt take ya".

the little boy just nodded his head.I tried to take the ball but my hand could not reach the ball.

"somehow baby, auntie's looking for wood to grab the ball".

when I tried to pick up the ball with wood, suddenly my leg slipped and almost went into the pool but there was someone holding my hand until I didn't fall.

"you're okay". said mas bram who helped me.

"it's okay mas, thank you for helping me". I was a little embarrassed when faced directly with him.

"no, I should be the one to thank you for helping my son".

"ahh yeah, you know". I'm getting nervous.

"this is Alisya, she's 3 years old".

"hallo dear, you are so beautiful".I tried to get closer to Alisya, even though I had no experience with children.

"may we have a little chat". said mas bram

"bo. can you, let's just sit there".

"uh. mas bram chat what yes.I'm getting nervous and don't know what to say".

I was sitting right next to Mas Bram, and it looked like I wanted to talk to me about something serious.

"why did you agree to this match?".

I was silent for a moment, I was confused as to what to answer but I ventured to answer.

"because this is all a parent's choice, I can't resist their wishes, because my heart also believes that the parent's choice is the best choice".

"if my problem is a widower?".

"if the problem was, I only found out when Mas Bram's parents told me everything. My parents didn't even tell me the problem, I was a little disappointed but I couldn't resist or get angry because from the beginning I had agreed to it".

mas bram was silent and bowed to all my answers, I was afraid my answer offended mas bram.

"may I ask you?".

"yeah, just ask".

"if you may know, where is Alisya mas's mother? ".

"his mother alisya died while giving birth to him". mas bram's face looks sad when telling her

"it's okay karin, you also have to know this story. that you will be a surrogate mother for alisya".

it was like I had a heart attack when Mas Bram said surrogate mother.

"mu mean?".

"forgive me karin, I can't forget my wife because I love her so much".

the words that Mas Bram said were like lightning in broad daylight, so hurtful but again I could do nothing.

"it's okay mas, I understand".I smiled at mas bram as if I was okay.

"i just don't want alisya to grow up without a mother's affection. I want alisya to grow happy". mas bram's eyes looked at his alisya with affection.

"i understand and really understand what mas feel. I also do not expect full mas bram can immediately love me, but at least mas bram has been honest with me it is enough. because I realize, I know, we are not made because of our own desires".

"after knowing all, why are you still receiving this matchmaking.you could have canceled it when our parents were together".

"no mas, when I decided to go forward, I could no longer back down. Anyway I did not want to disappoint our parents who look happy at this time". I tried hard in front of the bram.

"papa. papa... let's go home". alisya tugging at the hands of mas bram.

"yes baby for a moment, papa chat first with aunt".

"it's okay mas, maybe alisya is tired and sleepy". I said because I don't want to talk to him for long

"alright, I'll take care of you".

"iya mas". I drove mas bram and alisya up to his car.

mom and dad were smiling when they saw me deliver mas bram and alisya.

"dad mom, why smile so".

"mom's happy, seeing you're close to bram and his son".

"ahh mother, I was just chatting earlier, we didn't really know". I went straight into the room.

I reached my room and rubbed my tears that spilled without warning.

"what's wrong with me, why am I crying. I don't even expect anything at this matchmaking.but why is my heart sad, why is my heart hurting".

I couldn't help but keep my tears flowing, occasionally I stared at the ring attached to my ring finger.

"what is the meaning of this ring?".

I keep wondering, why is this happening?  why is my heart sad?  why did I accept it after I knew what it meant?   but I couldn't find an answer that would satisfy my heart.

tokk.

"karin, can you come in? ".

when I heard my mother's voice, I quickly wiped my tears.

"yes ma'am, come in".

"karin, you're crying".

"no mom, I'm not crying".

"here look at mom. You don't lie".

I immediately scratched my mother and shed all my tears, I was so sad but I was afraid to tell my real mother.

"what is karin, why are you crying?  same mother's story".

"it's okay mom. Karin just can't believe that karin is engaged".

mom patted my shoulder and calmed me down.

"don't cry baby, mom and dad just want your happiness".

"mother, what if mas bram doesn't love me".

"it is only natural that if bram does not love you dear, because you are in a match. but believe in the same mother, Love will grow by itself if you already know each other".

my heart was a little relieved when I talked to my mother about it, although not everything I told my mother.

"don't cry anymore baby, you'll cry too".

mom wiped my tears with her hands, this feeling a little calmer than before.Maybe by crying my heart is a little more comfortable.

"you remember no, I used to tell you that mom and dad were in a match as well".

"yes mother, I remember, when I already had a boyfriend but still in the match by grandmother because grandmother did not like the boyfriend of father is mom.

"yes dear, mother used to be sad.why mother in a match with a person who does not love mother.mother always cry every night, until the mother was angry by grandfather. once you understand and you understand, you try to accept your father even if you don't love you".

"but right now, I love mommy".

mom looked at me and held my hand tightly, I was afraid that mom would say no when she answered my question.

"dad loved mother dear, what else first after father knew when pregnant mother.dad instantly changed very attention to mother until now".

"thankfully". I felt relieved and stroked my chest.

"why karin?  you must think that you don't love your mother.You're thinking no-no". Mom hit me in the arm while laughing.

"mother, can I keep alisya well later. I'm afraid to disappoint mas bram bu".

"your habit, always think the no-no. shouldn't be that dear, pamali.you have to think positively in the future and believe in yourself that you can".

"mom's a lot I think, 'cause next week I'm married to mas bram. All this is so sudden for me".

"have, you don't think that no. I don't want to be horrified". Mom closed both ears.

mom doesn't like to hear bad things, because mom has heart disease.that's my reason why I can't refuse this matchmaking, because I don't want to see mom get sick.

"yes yes mother, karin will not think strange anymore". I pulled mother's hand and hugged her.

"karin loves mom, karin is not ready to live apart from mom and dad".

"karin, you can come to this house anytime baby, this house is also yours".

I hugged my mother and didn't let her go, because I wouldn't be able to hug her every day anymore.

"karin, I can't breathe. You're tight-lipped".

"ahhhh sorry mom". I immediately let go of my embrace.

while I was talking to my mom, my dad suddenly showed up.

"hmm it turns out mom's here, dad's been looking for mom".

"dad, sit here". said the mother

"what's wrong mom, how serious it looks".dad wondered what we were talking about

"this, dad's son is worried about his wedding next week".

"hhhh no dad, I'm not worried anyway".

"karin do not think too much, just prepare mentally and yourself to go to a new life.other problems let father and mother do.

"yes, father". I just bow my head in front of my father.

"after night, you rest. Mom let's rest too". dad and mom went to my room.

only my father and mother understood my feelings, they were always willing to listen to my grievances and give me advice.

"mother's father, Karin loves you very much".