Substitute Mother

Chapters 173. Don’t Cry Anymore

Embedding the word ‘kita’ seems to have a devastating impact on Judith. The defense that he had been building for about 15 months, slowly collapsed. Leaving Jeanno's name still and still will be the only thing stored in the heart. The crying is getting louder, as if competing with the swift rain out there. Jeanno, who did not understand why Judith's sobs were getting worse, chose to shift her seat to be closer to the idol.

“Then...why..why did you keep Aera away from me? Why did you choose to leave without saying goodbye?”

Of all the questions, Jeanno never thought that the question would be thrown from the lips of his interlocutor. His tongue was suddenly confused, all the usual confidence was there, evaporating somewhere.

“Master confused me. Last time you said goodbye, sir didn't allow me to communicate with Aera. Then the master went out of the country, away without news. You leave me here, give me a chance to reimagine my life and my heart. Then now the master returned, as if nothing had ever happened. What do you mean sir?”

Judith wiped her tears rough. “If you think I am a naive woman you can play with easily, then I beg with all humility, stop, sir. Please, stop.. find another woman who is willing to meet the needs of the master, I'm sure they are willing to march to please a Jeanno Alexander”

“Not me, not Ananta Judith”

Judith stood up from her seat, unable to control the anger mixed with disappointment and worry mixed into one. He was confused as to what Jeanno wanted, what Jeanno meant. What Jeanno expected of him.

“You think I'll let you go that easy?”

Jeanno also moved from sitting, not turning around but stepping closer to the entrance. Pull down the curtain until it is perfectly closed.

“Do you think I will release the woman who once conceived my son?”

Judith's heart went down. His lips twitched and his face paled. The cold aura and low intonation of Jeanno's speech, brought him a dark memory of the night where he almost lost the baby due to rough intercourse.

Jeanno. Compared to his cold aura, his face was precisely sad. He remained standing in his place, not wanting to make Judith even more afraid if she had to come closer.

“I'm so stupid huh? just found out you were pregnant. Even worse, I was the cause of your miscarriage. I'm the one who killed my own biological son”

Judith shook her head, tears that were originally dry now flooding her cheeks again. “No, stop”

“I'm so late for an apology, yes?”

Jeanno knelt down, his head lowered. “I'm sorry, Judith. Ii'm sorry. You can punish me the way you want, you can hit me as hard as you want. But please don't push me away. I need you, our daughter needs you”

“I love you”

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The night kept crawling up. The rain seemed not tired of flushing the city, even increasing rapidly as the night progressed. Jeanno was still in his position, kneeling down and head down. Judith is still hiding from behind the counter. Resolve his sobs until he slowly calms down and his senses return.

An unexpected statement of love, making Judith pining made. Everything is too sudden. The arrival of Jeanno, the man's declaration of love. Destroying the hard-earned escape he woke up. Free to organize his life from the past when the cause actually comes and without a shadow aling-aling say love to him.

But in fact, it's not that simple.

Judith was hurt a lot about their relationship. Not just Judith, because there are other victims in the selfishness of two souls who have complicated bonds. Jeanno was equally tormented. Must spend the day in unending regret and guilt. There is no guarantee of a happy ending if the two are together, but it will hurt even more if they are not together.

Judith, stripping off her common sense, began to slowly step closer to Jeanno. His steps stopped right in front of the man. The gentle swab of Jeanno's dark mane. The opponent was still lowered, too afraid that Judith would back down when she reacted. Judith let him do whatever he wanted. Even after this his head will be hit by a chair.

But no, instead of hitting, Judith hugged Jeanno's head. Made the man spontaneously hug his waist. It could be felt that the slender body was shaking, Judith came back crying.

“Should now he's still with me. I should be holding my baby” now

Often Judith dreamed, if she did not have a miscarriage, now the baby would have reached the age of one year. The age he said was funny. If the child was born, it would have been easier for Judith to go through all the blows of her days.

“The wound is still gaping, sir. I will never be able to forgive me for neglecting to look after her”

Unable to bear it, Jeanno got up, took Judith into his arms. Letting his sobs fill the chest. Sometimes he kissed Judith's head. “We're negligent. Not only you, but I also”

Judith continued to concoct similar sentences. Regarding regret, guilt, ends the parable if the baby is still there. As if against destiny. But Jeanno didn't care, he let Judith spill everything now. No matter what shirt is wet the tears of your beloved. No matter the feet are sore because it was standing.

People say, being in the arms of a loved one is able to calm the mind. That is what two people feel without a bond. Judith, who seemed tired of crying, chose to close her eyes. No, he's not asleep. Just enjoying the warm embrace Jeanno that has not felt for a long time. The typical masculine body aroma of the man that calms the nerves. Being in this position made Judith feel protected. Therefore without hesitation his hands back against the sturdy body.

“Come stop your crying it will be alright, just take my hand hold it tight” Jeanno sang Aera's favorite song they sang together almost every time they used to. His body is shaking right-left.

“I will protect you from all around you. I will be here, don’t you cry. For one so small, you seem so strong, my arms will hold you keep you safe and warm. This bond between us, can’t be broken. I will be here, don’t you cry”

Judith smiled slightly. Like an old habit, he hummed.

“You’ll be in my heart. Yes, you’ll be in my heart. From this day on now and forever more”

Silence wrapped in rain stubs, carrying two human children dissolved in a mixture of flavors that had been smothering. Dismissing the ego, forgetting the bond with other figures in the city, Judith once again falls into the charm of Jeanno Alexander.

“I’ll be with you. I’ll be there for you always”

“Come back to me, dear”

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