Substitute Mother
Chapters 175. Consideration
That dramatic cooking process ended much longer if Judith cooked by herself. Because it turns out that the young master had been exposed to hot oil so that he had to be treated for injuries. Then other dramas such as fish that is charred, rice that turns out to be not yet fully cooked due to rice cooker that has not been connected to the electricity. But none of the above did not make Jeanno and Judith upset, instead both laughed. Laughter that they almost never do together. That makes the warmth not only becomes the atmosphere of Judith's small apartment, but also overshadows the feelings of the two souls.
“Mama, Aera would love to bring mom here. A lot of people want Aera to show. Mama would come here? Stay with Aera again?”
Judith looked at Jeanno who was turning her back on the phone. The man simply smiled in a knot, without signaling whether Judith should agree or refuse. As if giving an explanation that Judith who must decide for herself to answer what.
“E-eum. mom wants to stay with Aera again. But not now, baby? Mama's cake shop can't be left”
“It's okay, mama. The important thing is Aera does not lose mama anymore”
“Mama, yes, Aera has to learn again. Good night mom, Aera darling mama”*
The phone connection was cut off after Judith responded to Aera's speech in the same sentence. He returned the phone to Jeanno.
“So, how?”
Judith lifted her face. “What?”
“My Deals. Ah, no. Regarding my statement of love last night, and my wish for you to be able to return to us”
Not directly answering, Judith prefers to throw away the view. It feels unable if you have to dive into the eagle netra. His fingers were under the twisting end of the clothes, worried hit. He wanted, really, to start over without black and white. He wants to start by being himself, not with the frills of Nayara. But Judith was too scared. Many things he feared were holding back his footsteps to get back to the Jeanno family.
“I.. don't know, tuan”
“If you doubt if I love you because you look like Nayara, then I dare to answer. At first I thought so, but no, Judith. I am fully aware that what I love right now is you. Not because you look like Nayara, but because you are. I will admit to the public that Nayara is dead, and you are Judith. I don't care what I sacrifice if the public finds out, but I don't want to lose you again”
Judith shakes. “Not, not only that, tuan”
“Then?”
“I. It's not going to be easy going forward, is it? What about your parents, sir? Sir, if they just don't accept Nayara who is obviously an accomplished student, what makes you think they'll accept me? Ex-erotic dancer who is also a chartered woman?”
Jeanno. Of the many scenarios that have occurred, there is absolutely nothing like what Judith just said.
“If the parents of the master oppose, will the lord revolt as he once did? Or did you give up and let me go? I love you, sir. I love Aera. But that's not enough. You just made peace with your parents, I don't want any more family drama. Sir no need to worry, I can remain a surrogate mother to Aera whenever Aera needs me”
“If you so want me back out of guilt, you don't have to worry. Although sometimes the nightmare comes, but I've started to rearrange your life. I made peace with my past and forgave myself. Hopefully it can help reduce the guilt tuan”
Jeanno's jaw is hardened. “Are you not too quick to draw conclusions?”
“Ya?”
“Regarding my parents, what happened to us 9 years ago was a portrait of when I was at a young age. So did my parents who were consumed by*****bizarre name and company image. I want to fight for you like I fought for Nayara first, I'll talk to my parents without having to fight like I used to. But you've even assumed rejection before I tried”
“Then regarding the surrogate mother, you said as if I asked you back just because of Aera. Right, it's true that I want you to be Aera's mother. But I want you for myself, too. You tau? ever since you left, I've been sleeping in your room. Smell the scent that still remains on the disprei. The smell that makes me sleep well. I restrained myself from catching up with you and ruining your escape. I decided to go far away from the capital because I who was almost crazy couldn't have you!”
Jeanno broke her hair back. His smile turned cynical with a soft radiance on his net. “I can't let you go, again”
“We love each other. If we're happy living together, why did you decide to stop before I wanted to run?”
“Mr..”
Jeanno got up, grabbed her hanging jacket and put on her shoes. “Already night. You should get enough rest. Tomorrow is my last day here, Monday I return to the capital”
Jeanno. Clapping Judith's head. “Wednesday I'll be back in Japan. If you change your mind, let me know before Wednesday”
Deciding to go to sleep because her head was dizzy, Judith ignored her phone that was shaking from earlier. Shows Owen's name on that flat screen.
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“Towersuhr to you, baby. Just follow what your heart says. Although I'm still upset with Jeanno, but sometimes I feel sorry for her. From the story of Mark it is clear that he also suffered the same”
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Judith breathed. Crying to sleep makes his head throb when he wakes up. A little surprised to see his phone flooded with notifications from the lover. Normally he would call back, ask about Owen and give an explanation why he did not pick up the phone. But Judith did just the opposite, she ignored Owen's messages and calls. I prefer to call Hannah. Pouring everything on the carib.
“I don't know what I want either, Hannah. I loved every second I spent with him. You know he was my first love, and I still have the same feeling until this moment. But being with Jeanno is not that simple. His family is not like Mark's family who take you warmly. If forced, I don't want to ruin the family relationship that just re-established. Now what does it mean that Aera has a mother instead of losing her grandparents again? Same with Jeanno”
Hannah shouted to her son for a moment. “Sorry, Hazel was running without looking at directions. Almost hit the door”
Judith chuckles.
“I think.you're too pessimistic. Indeed, the Alexander family seemed more arrogant. But what happened to Jeanno and Nayara is what happened years ago. Human thoughts and feelings can change every second. What about the year? you have a right to be afraid, but you have no right to judge Jeanno's parents badly even before they know of his son's relationship with you”
“Maybe they've changed? Who knows, right? You and Jeanno are the same. Both feel tormented if far away from each other. But when together, gather all the negative thoughts to push each other away. The one is haunted by guilt, feeling unworthy of having because it has hurt too much. The other one feels inappropriate, because of the dirty past and minimal” education
“Tell, darling. You deserve to be happy. Jeanno also deserves happy”
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“Then what about Owen?”
A rough gasp of breath was heard from across there followed by a small commotion from Hazel's screams. “Owen? Regarding that man, I think you should make a quick decision before your relationship goes too far. Owen had realized from the beginning that you had not opened your heart completely. Just cut it”
Judith sneered. “Sounds evil once”
“Hey, it's worse if you continue your relationship when there's no room for him in your heart. You gave him false hope. I'm sure Owen will take it with room if you decide. For the good of you two”
*
“You're right.”
“Judith, Owen's feelings are not your responsibility. Your responsibility is your own feelings”
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