Substitute Mother

Chapters 16. I Ain't Worried

in the end mas bram fell asleep on my lap and I kept stroking his head to sleep well and his tiredness disappeared.

mama who walked out of the room was surprised to see mas bram sleeping on my lap.

"why bram?". asked mama.

"fatigue is running out of the meeting he said.

mom shook her head and smiled.

"just like a child".

already two hours mas bram sleeping on my lap, my legs began to feel numb and stiff because of the hit head mas bram.

mas Bram woke up and stretched his body

"hhmmm sorry baby I overslept".

"it's okay mas". I smiled forcefully as it held the numbness in my legs.

"wake up, it's almost night, until when do you want to sleep here".

"but I'm comfortable here baby". mas bram still has his head in my lap.

"you know, my legs feel numb and stiff. For 2 hours I sit like this continues.

"ohh yes dear, sorry". mas bram immediately woke up and stomped my feet.

mas Bram felt guilty for making me tired of holding his head, but at least I was happy to help relieve his fatigue even if it was only for a moment.

***

bedrooms....

after the family gathering, I went straight back to the room and laid my body on the bed.

like pregnant women in general, I have difficulty sleeping at night.every sleeping position is not comfortable for me.

many times I have looked for a place to sleep and finally I sit leaning against the wall, that position makes my back better.

"honey, how the hell was his sleep". mas bram entered the room after chatting with papa.

"this is all I can feel comfortable with.Have you finished talking.

"dear, after all, just talking about company matters". mas bram went up on the mattress approaching me.

"why mas ? is there a problem with the company?".

"no love".again mas bram leaned his head against my shoulder.

"but the expression of your face looks a lot of mind mas".

"hahaha it turns out I can't lie to you". mas bram grasped my hand.

"you mean?". I still don't understand what Mas Bram said.

"so me and papa were talking about the company, papa suggested to me how about just move to America.There is also a papa company that just opened and no one manages it". said mas bram.

"continue, mas want?". I immediately cut off mas bram's speech.

"dengerin I used to love. papa did not ask me to move forever there but for a while until the papa company runs smoothly.if the baby can not because he already holds the company in Singapore. papa himself doesn't have much time to take care of it".

I sighed when I heard the story of mas bram, however as his wife I could only support his decision.

"if I move there, what do you think dear". mas bram looks at me with a serious face.

this question makes it very difficult to answer, I hope mas bram does not ask like that.

I just lowered my head and played my fingers, thinking about what answer I should say to bram.

"honey". mas bram turned my eyes to his face.

I try to smile even though my heart is not broken.

"whatever your decision, I accept it and support it".

"but I was there maybe about 5 years that's dear, and we'll LDR for that long. are you willing".

"5 years old?  why all that time".I was surprised to hear it.

"it can be even more dear, depending on the condition of the company".

"and you could've stayed with me and alisya during that time mas.

"and also earlier mama said, if you want alisya school in Singapore with mom and dad.

I was even more surprised to hear what mas bram said about alisya.how could my husband and son go to visit me just like that, as for mama and papa why do they miss me with bram and alisya mas.

my heart ached, gnawed, trembled and my body felt limp as if it had no bones.

"are you serious?  ke.. why is that loaf the same as me". My eyes glazed over but I tried not to cry.

"sorry dear, if all this makes you surprised, but it's the desire of mom and dad, it's hard for me to refuse.I'd love to take you with me, I'd love to take you with me, but I'm afraid you're alone and you're there because I'm going to be too busy.

it's hard for me to say the words, the words of mas bram are so painful that she was able to leave me alone here while pregnant.

"why do you make all your decisions alone without talking to me first. What do I think is not important? is it because I'm just a stepmother so you don't involve me in thinking about her alisya".I was immediately emotional in front of the bram mas.

"not so dear, you are still his mother alisya. all of a sudden and papa asked for his decision tonight before tomorrow papa returned to Singapore.

"and you answered yes immediately". I looked into the eyes of Mas bram hoping he said no.

mas bram just lowered his head with a serious face and it made me think that he had agreed to it.

"fell me". I held onto Mas bram's shoulder for him to look at me.

the tears I was holding, finally fell after I could no longer hold it. I did not expect the bram to be so strong on me and it all made me sick.

"all right, man, let's just get it over here.

"honey, where are you going?". said mas bram who saw me go.

I was silent about not answering mas bram's question, because it would make me even sadder.

then Mas bram ran over and hugged me from behind, holding my steps out.

when mas bram hugged me, my tears kept falling more and more and more, then mas bran turned my body towards him.

mas Bram looked at me with a smiling face

"where are you, baby, it's night".

I threw out the hand of Mas Bram who was holding both of my shoulders.

"want to go home to mommy's".

"you who have the heart to leave me alone here, and alisya you tell mama to take him.

bram wiped away the tears on my cheek.

"honey, don't cry anymore. Come here I love something". mas bram opened the door to the room.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" says it all (pa, mama, Bayu ,naiya and alisya)

I was surprised to see everyone come to my room with cake and wish me a happy birthday.

I looked towards Mas bram

"mas, here.... ". with tears still flowing.

"it's a surprise for you from all your dear families.

I hugged Mas bram

"evil you mas".

"sorry baby, I've made you sad and cry.but that's all the lie I said earlier, it's just a charade to play you.

"happy birthday karin.

I prayed for a moment before blowing out the candle

"i wish all the families happy and always well".

after blowing out the candles I hugged them one by one as a sign of my gratitude for celebrating my birthday that even I forgot.

"mama hopes, you are always healthy without any pain and gave birth to your grandchild safely.

"thank you mama". I hugged and kissed her.

"happy birthday mbak.

"thank you, nay".

"it's a surprise from all of us before we go back to Singapore tomorrow" Bayu said.

"i hope you guys stay here with me". Everyone laughs.

"happy birthday mother, my dear mother.

"accept your mother's child, mother also love alisya, do not stay mother yes". I hug her alisya tightly.

"let's go back to our rooms because it's late at night.

"alisya let's go to bed with grandma". mama holds alisya's hand.

"iya nek. mother good night". Alisya waved her hand at me.

"good night, my mother's son.

after giving me a shock that shocked my heart so much, they all dispersed and returned to their respective rooms.

"honey, now it's my turn to say happy birthday to you.

"no, I don't want to hear".

"honey, don't be angry dong. I'm sorry and it's all just a lie.

mas Bram hugged me and kissed me on my forehead.

"happy birthday dear, thank you for being my wife.Thank you for being the mother of alisya. I love and love you love, you love me, I will not leave you or make you sad because you and alisya are a part of my life that is very meaningful. Happy birthday dear".

mas bram's speech made me touched and happy, this is the first time that mas bram has spoken romantic words to me during marriage.

a simple celebration that mas bram gave but has made a deep impression on me, because without me realizing that I have been surrounded by people who love me very much.

"thank you mas".I cried even more in the warm embrace of mas bram.

"already, don't cry anymore. let's rest and you can't sleep too late". mas bram wiped my tears.

tonight I am truly very happy, happy to have mas bram as my husband and family who love me so much.

***

mornings...

when I woke up I got both my eyes swollen from crying a lot.

"why dear?". mas bram saw me covering my eyes.

"you saw my eyes wry, swollen from last night's crying.

mas Bram chuckled after seeing my swollen eyes

"here I compress so I don't get swollen again".

"what am I wearing?". I asked because I did not see mas bram carrying anything in his hands.

"wear this ". mas bram kisses both my eyes.

"mas".I blushed in shame because of the kiss of bram.

"i told you that it was swollen". said mas bram and I just smiled.

"let's go downstairs, have breakfast with the others". mas bram took my hand.

as I went down the stairs, I saw mama, papa, Bayu, naiya and alisya sitting at the dinner table for breakfast.

I also saw some large suitcases in the living room neatly lined up. I was sad to see this house will be quiet without them.

"let's have breakfast together.

"iya ma". I sat down next to my mother.

"bak karin kok sad ". asked bayu

"i'm sad because you have to go home".

"don't be sad mbak, we will often come back here or not mbak who plays to Singapore". jawan naiya.

"yes, later we will also play there". replied mas bram.

"what time the plane leaves ma.

"at 11:20 pm, there is still time to gather together.

"actually you also do not want to hurry home, but your work is waiting there.

"iya karin, mama also wants to stay here for a long time, but you know, the busyness of papa who can not stay for long".

"iya ma, I understand how happy I am to all gather here.

"already ah don't be sad anymore. let's eat, I'm really laper". said Bayu.

true Bayu said, it is not the time to be sad.I must look happy, I also do not want to make them heavy-hearted when coming home because of my sadness.

at least I am grateful that they are all in good health and well so we still have plenty of time to regroup.

after noon, we gathered in the living room to talk to each other, all looking happy when we got together and joked with each other.

"i'm very lucky and grateful to have you all in my life and will definitely be more complete if mom and dad are here".

it's time for mama, papa , Bayu and naiya to leave for the airport to return to Singapore.

"mas, help papa dong lift his suitcase to the car.

"yes baby, I help you first". mas bram lifted the suitcase into the car.

"karin, mama went home first yes.you take good care not to get hurt again.

"yes ma, mom be careful on the way and let me know if you have arrived.

"alisya well at home, take care of the mother.

"yes grandma". replied alisya.

"has everything been put in the car".

"it's pa". replied Bayu who arranged the suitcase in the car.

"sir, we went home. Thank you for bothering us". naiya hugged me .

"no one bothered nay. be careful on the road, don't forget to tell me".

"iyaa mbak". replied naiya.

"alisya, say goodbye used to be the same aira.

"bye bye". alisya waved her hand at aira.

"be careful ma, pa". mas Bayu said farewell to his family.

i, mas bram and alisya waved at them as they bid farewell.

"let's go in". I said to mas bram and alisya.

when I entered the house I felt lonely, now there was only mas bram and alisya in the house that accompanied me and it also made me much happier with my husband and son.