Should We Get Married?

Refugee To Eyang's House

I peeked out from behind the room curtain, looking like dad was sitting alone at the dining table while daydreaming. There was no one to accompany Dad because Yuda was going with Muni. Father told them to make peace. While Mbak Tika had to go to the market to shop for our daily needs.

I slowly approached my father. Sure enough, my father was daydreaming because I called him twice, but he also did not say, even though we were only a few meters away.

"Well," the third time, I shook Dad's arm slowly.

"Eh, Yu. What's up, son?" ask dad.

"What's my father doing?"

"Dad not daydream."

"Well, Ayu knows. Dad must be dizzy thinking of Ayu, right?"

"Who said? Dad just ..."

Dad hung his words. His face still showed anger. I regret being the cause of it all.

"Sorry Ayu, Dad." I'm down. Regret not being able to do anything because to meet other people at this time it still feels very afraid.

"Sorry for what? It's not wrong, son. Oh yeah, what about your college plans, son?" Dad switched the conversation.

"Yeah ..." Now I'm the one who can't speak. After all this happened, is there still a chance for me to continue this life to achieve what is my goal? It feels like everything is ruined, my future is gone. Now there is only a disgrace that I have to endure for a lifetime.

"Son, no matter what happens, I want you not to give up easily. We face everything together. Remember, there is a father, a Yuda, a Tika who will always support you, as well as God, son. He won't leave us in the blink of an eye."

I couldn't hold back these tears after being so tight after talking to my dad. Is there really a chance for me? Just get out of the house I don't think I can, I don't have a face to face anyone. I always felt like everyone was talking about me in the back. They might think something that isn't about me.

If only mom was alive, maybe right now I could cry in mom's arms so I could feel a little calm.

***

It has been decided by father and mas Yuda that for a while I will be evacuated in the house of eyang, his mother's father, who lives in the village next door. I don't want to leave this family, but I'm not ready to meet anyone right now.

Several times the teachers and school friends came over, all of whom I had not met, including my three best friends. I was so embarrassed, I felt so dirty and it was inappropriate to talk to them again.

After the case that happened to me was viral by Tika, every day, there were many media that came home to find information. Likewise with the general public who also want to know the development of this case. Unfortunately, I'm not comfortable being the center of attention,.

This morning, helped by Tika, I cleaned my clothes. Put in a medium-sized bag. The one who will take me to the spot is Yuda mas. While today's father will return to the police station to take care of all the files needed for this report to go up soon.

"Yu," suddenly Ma'am Yuni entered the room. "This is for you." he handed me a small package. It seems to be Hp. Although only an ordinary HP, but it means enough to me because with this HP I can still communicate with people at home.

Yuni's mother apparently realized that I wasn't feeling well. "It's okay, Yu. Takeit. That's all I can give to you. Let's just say this is an apology mbak for the bad attitude to you the last few days. I don't really care, Yu. It is precisely mbak also very sorry for you, but mbak just try to think rationally so that we and our families do not get more problems.

But never mind, then let it pass. From today until anytime mbak will always support you. What matters is that you are strong, Yu. There are all of you who always support you. We love you." Ma'am Yuni hugged me tightly.

"Thank you very much, ma'am. Sorry for me too." I said, replying to Yuni's embrace.

***

Usually, every time I want to go to the house, I am always happy because even though the distance of our house is only one hour, but we also rarely visit his mother's father because of our limitations. Usually that often comes is the father or mas Yuda alternately.

But this time, the journey to the house was heavy because I was not visiting but hiding while calming down.

Supra motor driven by Yuda mas entered the house area eyang. I can already see the old building house with a beautiful yard and quite spacious compared to your house.

As soon as the motor stopped, there was an old woman who had given birth to her father and Mr. De Ikang. He welcomed us not with a smile as usual, but with a sad face. As soon as I approached, eyed looked trembling, hugging me tightly without words.

"Eyang," call me.

"Yes, healthy?" ask eyang. "Corn in. Eyang has prepared boiled cassava and warm tea" said eyang.

Dad did communicate everything to Eyang before I came here. Somehow the response was eyed when he first found out, but clearly at this time his eyes still looked sad.

"Eyang, Yuda has to go back now yes because there is still work. The bike must be used by Dad. Yuda tipped Ayu, yes eyang." said mas Yuda. "You Yu, fine brother. If there is anything contact us using the cellphone given by Yuni. We all love you. Now calm down here first huh." mas Yuda patted me softly on the shoulder.

For a moment we looked at each other. From both of his eyes I could feel the same great sorrow. I'm sorry I made everyone sad.

***

It's late at night. But these two eyes could not be closed. I am still thinking about how my life will be going forward. I can't imagine the end of all this.

"Lho, haven't slept yet, Yu?" Eyang went into my room.

"Not yet sleepy, Yang." I replied.

"Don't think. Everything's gonna be fine. Ayu, good granddaughter, smart, saliha and beautiful. God must help us. Let's just be calm, pray a lot."

"Yes, heck."

Beauitiful? Suddenly I felt uncomfortable with the face that is often praised by beautiful people. This is why Juan harassed me. If I wasn't pretty, maybe she wouldn't have done that to me. I shouldn't have to be beautiful. My heart suddenly cried out, regretting this beauty, cursing it out loud!